Soul Less

I am writing the first things that pop to my mind.

Maybe it has to do with being emotionally and physically drained yesterday. I had a so so day at work. Same Story just on a Saturday, then I got stood up by my friend on the 4th floor--I originally was going to have dinner with many people in my apartment. Later I think I made some mistakes with my writings and at any rate I worried myself into a tizzy until I fell asleep at 12.

Last night I awoke with a Jolt at 5 because of a "bomb" like noise. The firefighters came and it smelled like smoke. I got up and ran around the apartment looking for any bad signs.

I got up 2 hours later to get ready for my Seoul trip. I unfortunately wish I hadn't gone. It wasn't what I thought it would be I was too out of it to really notice what was going on---the trip I slept for 3 hours there and back but it didn't really help.


Seeing my old friend was good but it wasn't under good circumstances. There were a few things that happened that left me feeling like a stranger too.

Now I am back in my lodge able to forget about things until tomorrow rolls through. I really want to make this week amazing. I don't want to fight and I don't want to worry about things.

I don't know much right now but I do know that I can manage a little longer. I don't want to give up.

We are Fighting for something good and wonderful.