Its too hot and cloudy too so its a lethal combination for me. I had work today. I was a comic show for two classes.
Apparently one kid will drop too. Work was brainless as usual for me. There wasn't so much happenings and yet another SSDD day.
My last two classes weren't anything to write home about either. I was just happy when they were over. TD2 was good though. I just don't care about the bad students these days and its all better. I just wish they would drop and not even show their ugly heads around.
We deserve better, we deserve more than just bullshit work, and the way we are living. I keep hoping for a change but I don't know what else to do.
I can't wait until next week maybe something better will come up.
Tonight I just finished watching a movie: The Last Samurai It is one of my favorite movies.
The movie consequently is about tradition/Native Beliefs verses Modern Thought
Western Technologies, Clothing and even Language with English and Eastern Culture preservation.
I am a person who likes tradition and cherishes all Cultural Traditions. A paradox of my job is that I am trying to make kids think using a western approach when the entire time I would have liked it if I had been able to better understand Korean ways of thinking.
Its now almost Sunday and I just hope that this coming week can be better than this week. I will be more driven and I will hope that nothing can affect us.
Our life here in Hyung gok dong can be better~Life isn't meant to worry.
I promise I will not do anything bad ever and I will find a strong way to make things work out. I am a little worried nowadays just cause I am not entirely sure what to do but I do know that I am excited for next weekend and want to keep that primary focus.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
CRASH
Taking this out of context in an allusion to one of my favorite movies "CRASH" I now feel this and truly believe in it.
CRASH was a Hollywood hit movie with me and even in my studies in college. This movie showed how all races are interconnected as well as every small action simultaneously feeds off another and everything returns full circle. I experience these feelings almost daily.
Life is Crashing down upon us each day. It isn't a bad thing its just a FACT. I had 6 classes today. Friday is an ok day for me as far as schedule is concerned.
I had a talk with Mr. Jeong during my free hour. We talked about contracts, Academies, College and the whole story so to speak. I went to my last 4 classes standing vindicated thinking clearly and with more resolve.
My hope is to just work hard. I want more money and a stable future/job.
I will be honest I have crashed into what will be worse than a chugging choo choo KTX locomotive.
I don't want to think of work at all anymore. I understand the importance of work in Korean society but I am tired of seeing the problems bring everyone down. It contributes to health issues.
I know that things will be WONDERFUL again someday... Things can work out. Thus CRASH
This is an important title I will write more on this tomorrow
I am thinking of trying to take up some writing skills again next weekend and try to write some important story/article soon.
more soon and following
CRASH was a Hollywood hit movie with me and even in my studies in college. This movie showed how all races are interconnected as well as every small action simultaneously feeds off another and everything returns full circle. I experience these feelings almost daily.
Life is Crashing down upon us each day. It isn't a bad thing its just a FACT. I had 6 classes today. Friday is an ok day for me as far as schedule is concerned.
I had a talk with Mr. Jeong during my free hour. We talked about contracts, Academies, College and the whole story so to speak. I went to my last 4 classes standing vindicated thinking clearly and with more resolve.
My hope is to just work hard. I want more money and a stable future/job.
I will be honest I have crashed into what will be worse than a chugging choo choo KTX locomotive.
I don't want to think of work at all anymore. I understand the importance of work in Korean society but I am tired of seeing the problems bring everyone down. It contributes to health issues.
I know that things will be WONDERFUL again someday... Things can work out. Thus CRASH
This is an important title I will write more on this tomorrow
I am thinking of trying to take up some writing skills again next weekend and try to write some important story/article soon.
more soon and following
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Bbang Gooree go Cha
The Ideal Breakfast Buns and Tea. I am happy we spent time at Pappa even if the talk wasn't as good as it could have been I think I am getting more and more byoung as days keep passing.
Papparoti is a nice place though and its a place I want to visit another handful of times before August.
I ate a lot today. I had chicken and sandwiches for lunch and later I cooked ramen and watched Law and Order.
Work was ok. I feel like I have authority but I don't care to use it on students who disregard me anymore. Its a matter of health.
My classes
Ma2---the smart sensational new girls. They are amazing at least 2.5 of them. the .5 is because one of them sleeps and struggles more. She is strong though she has a temper when I try to help her.
Mb3-The class that's having ups and downs. Sometimes the kids act so dumb that it boggles me (bamboozles)They don't have any idea how to treat a classroom. Thats why I gripe. More homework doesn't help or anything. I need to write more in the progress reports though.
I'll just say it like this. I may not like a kid because of his behavior or his problems but I put up with it because its just part of the job. If I tried to solve it there wouldn't be any kids here.
Today my boss came to me and said he thinks that there is focus issues in Md1. I was shocked cause its obvious to me. All of the kids have a focus attention problem in my classes because they don't care about me.
Some of them ignore me even when I try to play with them.
I showed a kid some cards and I was going to let him have them but he just assumed. He is my favorite kid though in Ma1.
I also taught tc1 and td1. Td1 I got tired from a long banter or lecture. TC1 I have 2 good students.
I will tell you the story of TC1
Florence/Floria-Don't do anything, they don't talk and they copy each other's notebooks. They have done this from the time I met them. They still haven't said hello to me. I think I have yet to hear 50%of the students say something to me, and anther 75% say something positive.
Truth hurts.
Subin has become a problem, she was really smart and a promising student, now she has made Ciarra bad too. Its because Ann is gone I think. The boys Eric and Liam have some strange love affair and don't listen, and Chansuk and Brian are the only two who listen. Lacy does to but her face is also bothered. Chansuk and Brian are the only two who show me complete respect. Its bothersome.
TD1-Hard Toefl Lecture I wish I did this all the time though cause its the only class I actually care about teaching when it comes to English Material. I don't do the class as much work though cause of no time and they don't talk to me either ---there is 2 students. They have a lot of knowledge about English maybe they just can read well.
So, its thursday I can't wait until next week. I want to do something fun this weekend and I have lots to figure out still.
Today was alright though as far as things go.
Papparoti is a nice place though and its a place I want to visit another handful of times before August.
I ate a lot today. I had chicken and sandwiches for lunch and later I cooked ramen and watched Law and Order.
Work was ok. I feel like I have authority but I don't care to use it on students who disregard me anymore. Its a matter of health.
My classes
Ma2---the smart sensational new girls. They are amazing at least 2.5 of them. the .5 is because one of them sleeps and struggles more. She is strong though she has a temper when I try to help her.
Mb3-The class that's having ups and downs. Sometimes the kids act so dumb that it boggles me (bamboozles)They don't have any idea how to treat a classroom. Thats why I gripe. More homework doesn't help or anything. I need to write more in the progress reports though.
I'll just say it like this. I may not like a kid because of his behavior or his problems but I put up with it because its just part of the job. If I tried to solve it there wouldn't be any kids here.
Today my boss came to me and said he thinks that there is focus issues in Md1. I was shocked cause its obvious to me. All of the kids have a focus attention problem in my classes because they don't care about me.
Some of them ignore me even when I try to play with them.
I showed a kid some cards and I was going to let him have them but he just assumed. He is my favorite kid though in Ma1.
I also taught tc1 and td1. Td1 I got tired from a long banter or lecture. TC1 I have 2 good students.
I will tell you the story of TC1
Florence/Floria-Don't do anything, they don't talk and they copy each other's notebooks. They have done this from the time I met them. They still haven't said hello to me. I think I have yet to hear 50%of the students say something to me, and anther 75% say something positive.
Truth hurts.
Subin has become a problem, she was really smart and a promising student, now she has made Ciarra bad too. Its because Ann is gone I think. The boys Eric and Liam have some strange love affair and don't listen, and Chansuk and Brian are the only two who listen. Lacy does to but her face is also bothered. Chansuk and Brian are the only two who show me complete respect. Its bothersome.
TD1-Hard Toefl Lecture I wish I did this all the time though cause its the only class I actually care about teaching when it comes to English Material. I don't do the class as much work though cause of no time and they don't talk to me either ---there is 2 students. They have a lot of knowledge about English maybe they just can read well.
So, its thursday I can't wait until next week. I want to do something fun this weekend and I have lots to figure out still.
Today was alright though as far as things go.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Mind Teasers
Today I wrote a letter telling half lies to a person I never met just because I want to find a replacement. I was honest but I didn't say all things. At least I don't feel that.
Classes were ok. I ignored all the crap like I always do. I no longer care about no homework sheets, homework attacks, whining etc. All I care about is getting out of class with out being bitten. I leave that job to the mosquitoes. Korean word for Mosquito is Moogie-_-;
Other than my girl the best moment was with Jerry a student I had lost respect for but he proved me wrong today. He answered many questions today and he cared a lot. I gave him no homework. Funny story was I pretended to be angry with him and loved watching the shocked look on his face. He is a good kid--but tends to be lazy at times.
Truth be known I love the kids a lot. I like their smiles, I liked today how the kids actually wanted to study with me, how they ask me things sometimes. I wish I had more time for them. I know in America that if I taught kids I would have a better relationship with them not because of English but because there would be more time to appreciate them.
i had a nice morning-relaxing and eating burgers. I can't wait for Pappa.
In the evening I went to the park with Christina and had a wonderful evening. I want an evening like this all the time and I PROMISE I'll do whatever it takes to make this happen. I want to work harder so I will get more money saved.
I don't want anything to become different, ugly or bad.
I loved today so much just cause the kids were ok, and more importantly I had a wonderful time with my darling.
Classes were ok. I ignored all the crap like I always do. I no longer care about no homework sheets, homework attacks, whining etc. All I care about is getting out of class with out being bitten. I leave that job to the mosquitoes. Korean word for Mosquito is Moogie-_-;
Other than my girl the best moment was with Jerry a student I had lost respect for but he proved me wrong today. He answered many questions today and he cared a lot. I gave him no homework. Funny story was I pretended to be angry with him and loved watching the shocked look on his face. He is a good kid--but tends to be lazy at times.
Truth be known I love the kids a lot. I like their smiles, I liked today how the kids actually wanted to study with me, how they ask me things sometimes. I wish I had more time for them. I know in America that if I taught kids I would have a better relationship with them not because of English but because there would be more time to appreciate them.
i had a nice morning-relaxing and eating burgers. I can't wait for Pappa.
In the evening I went to the park with Christina and had a wonderful evening. I want an evening like this all the time and I PROMISE I'll do whatever it takes to make this happen. I want to work harder so I will get more money saved.
I don't want anything to become different, ugly or bad.
I loved today so much just cause the kids were ok, and more importantly I had a wonderful time with my darling.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Primary Focus
For as long as I have been here I have been creative, inventive and sensitive. I have tried to understand another side of humanity on the far side of the world. I no longer look at things that way but rather with a new idealism.
FACTS
I don't like my job anymore. I feel scared going to class, I feel violated every time I see the kids. I feel glad if a "bad" kid isn't there. I like it when the weird ones or problematic ones pick up their things and leave. I don't it how I can't help my girlfriend no matter what. I have nothing but time but I can't do anything.
I am rattled and nerved to the point where I can't care about anything else other than just getting through the day.
Today...
MA1...typical. slightly disrespectful I ignore the bad things and just let them walk out the door.
TC2...fine, small problems but nothing I couldn't manage. Sungmin's smug face no homework no homework no homework.
Td2..I didn't prepare and my teaching reflected it. I cared too much and I was angry cause it was for my two good students..Jane and Ann. Peachy isn't really participating. She seems half into it. I don't like students like that cause they don't change. I have no power to talk to them so it makes no difference. Smile and nod is the way here.
TD1... GREAT TIME! Thank God The kids were laughing with me. This may be the first time I got kids to laugh because of me not at me or some other Korean joke. I can't handle the abuse.
I have gotten to a point where I think I am a bad teacher because the kids under appreciate me.
Everyday I feel the same though~~~ My love is exploding and I don't want to lose that. I am certain that the word Forever can't sum it up.
Now I need some more Elliot Action. I am going to try to be more like him. He's my HERO. This for the record is my Secondary Focus or even third focus.
Finding a Job is paramount.
My primary concern and focus is vested in my girlfriend. Here I am 100000 miles away from my birthplace in hopes to help the "English Language" in hopes to educate, learn, change the world and all I am getting in return is diatribes of Korean.
I love Korea but I can't do much in this job. There is no room for advancement. I dream of a golden future. I want to make anything possible and not to live in doubt.
I am not entirely sure how deep my love for my girl goes but its somewhere where I don't think or care about much else. I try hard to just get things figured out I want to do whatever I can to make things better.
FACTS
I don't like my job anymore. I feel scared going to class, I feel violated every time I see the kids. I feel glad if a "bad" kid isn't there. I like it when the weird ones or problematic ones pick up their things and leave. I don't it how I can't help my girlfriend no matter what. I have nothing but time but I can't do anything.
I am rattled and nerved to the point where I can't care about anything else other than just getting through the day.
Today...
MA1...typical. slightly disrespectful I ignore the bad things and just let them walk out the door.
TC2...fine, small problems but nothing I couldn't manage. Sungmin's smug face no homework no homework no homework.
Td2..I didn't prepare and my teaching reflected it. I cared too much and I was angry cause it was for my two good students..Jane and Ann. Peachy isn't really participating. She seems half into it. I don't like students like that cause they don't change. I have no power to talk to them so it makes no difference. Smile and nod is the way here.
TD1... GREAT TIME! Thank God The kids were laughing with me. This may be the first time I got kids to laugh because of me not at me or some other Korean joke. I can't handle the abuse.
I have gotten to a point where I think I am a bad teacher because the kids under appreciate me.
Everyday I feel the same though~~~ My love is exploding and I don't want to lose that. I am certain that the word Forever can't sum it up.
Now I need some more Elliot Action. I am going to try to be more like him. He's my HERO. This for the record is my Secondary Focus or even third focus.
Finding a Job is paramount.
My primary concern and focus is vested in my girlfriend. Here I am 100000 miles away from my birthplace in hopes to help the "English Language" in hopes to educate, learn, change the world and all I am getting in return is diatribes of Korean.
I love Korea but I can't do much in this job. There is no room for advancement. I dream of a golden future. I want to make anything possible and not to live in doubt.
I am not entirely sure how deep my love for my girl goes but its somewhere where I don't think or care about much else. I try hard to just get things figured out I want to do whatever I can to make things better.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Crazy Sam
This was just one fast paced action day. The kiddies were surprisingly steady and there weren't any major fussing. I am tired of hearing stupid lame talk from my boss.
Example: Give more homework. Teach more tightly. We aren't slave drivers nor are we meant to whip the kids into submission. English is supposed to be a fun language where the kids want to learn. I refuse to teach under the assumption of giving them more homework esp. when it hasn't helped them to talk to me. I can't have a conversation past hi how are you im fine thank you and you.
Today I was hungry I didn't have a good lunch its almost 10 oclock and I am still waiting for my meat to finish sizzling. I am starving.
I hope that this week will get better. I have to do so much. I have to buy a ticket, I have to teach harder and I have to figure out a lot more work problems.
I am surrendering this post to my fanciful meal that I cooked up...yes me my first one in a long time.
My friends are calling me now lately I hope to figure out some good options soon I felt better today than I have lately.
I shouldn't say this cause its just another comment my cats name is Moogie all I told the kids was the name of my cat apparently Moogie means to kill. Talk about Irony all over again.
Anyways thts the ramblings of a crazy sam for the night. Today was ok. i was happy that a weird kid dropped, the kids seemed subdued mainly cause of the weather but they weren't as strange today. Many kids were absent too so it was easier I hope tomorrow is more thrilling than today. It was a low key day
Example: Give more homework. Teach more tightly. We aren't slave drivers nor are we meant to whip the kids into submission. English is supposed to be a fun language where the kids want to learn. I refuse to teach under the assumption of giving them more homework esp. when it hasn't helped them to talk to me. I can't have a conversation past hi how are you im fine thank you and you.
Today I was hungry I didn't have a good lunch its almost 10 oclock and I am still waiting for my meat to finish sizzling. I am starving.
I hope that this week will get better. I have to do so much. I have to buy a ticket, I have to teach harder and I have to figure out a lot more work problems.
I am surrendering this post to my fanciful meal that I cooked up...yes me my first one in a long time.
My friends are calling me now lately I hope to figure out some good options soon I felt better today than I have lately.
I shouldn't say this cause its just another comment my cats name is Moogie all I told the kids was the name of my cat apparently Moogie means to kill. Talk about Irony all over again.
Anyways thts the ramblings of a crazy sam for the night. Today was ok. i was happy that a weird kid dropped, the kids seemed subdued mainly cause of the weather but they weren't as strange today. Many kids were absent too so it was easier I hope tomorrow is more thrilling than today. It was a low key day
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Gumi Life
Sundays always bring the best times of Gumi. Today I had a nice Galbei meal, and went to the Theaters to see Hancock the latest Will Smith Movie. It was a good movie and a wonderful date. I love our dates so much I hope we have another movie date soon!
Its too hot here nowadays I feel like I am being cooked alive. I cleaned my house, relaxed, and I am now preparing for a busy week.
This week:
1. pay fix
2. Schedule work
3. typical kid b.s
4. job hunt
5...My L and O date with Elliot^^ 6 days a week twice a day^^
Taking Showers here is a way to cool off I hate how hot it is, I took 5 showers today just to feel more cool.
MY house came equipped with a fan but its just a cheap piece of crap. It helps a little at night.
My body feels really sore, and my head has some aches. I don't know why. I think I feel too much Anxious. Gumi SPA?
I want a Vacation and a better job soon I am uncertain how much more I can take. Today was a holiday. I had a couple kids show up unexpectedly.. I like them but I am running out of energy for kids. I could teach kids but not everyday. Nowadays, I am just focused on getting money, and hopefully making dreams come true.
I don't want my biggest fear to come true
Its too hot here nowadays I feel like I am being cooked alive. I cleaned my house, relaxed, and I am now preparing for a busy week.
This week:
1. pay fix
2. Schedule work
3. typical kid b.s
4. job hunt
5...My L and O date with Elliot^^ 6 days a week twice a day^^
Taking Showers here is a way to cool off I hate how hot it is, I took 5 showers today just to feel more cool.
MY house came equipped with a fan but its just a cheap piece of crap. It helps a little at night.
My body feels really sore, and my head has some aches. I don't know why. I think I feel too much Anxious. Gumi SPA?
I want a Vacation and a better job soon I am uncertain how much more I can take. Today was a holiday. I had a couple kids show up unexpectedly.. I like them but I am running out of energy for kids. I could teach kids but not everyday. Nowadays, I am just focused on getting money, and hopefully making dreams come true.
I don't want my biggest fear to come true
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