After going home friday night I rested and prepared for what would ultimately be an uneventful day at work.
Today was Christina's test in Daegu and I cared more about that than the trivial blunders associated with Yale.
Unfortunately for me Mr. Jeong had a way to ruin any good feeling that I had despite the fact of showing up on a Saturday scrunched between two holidays. The gall of that man is beyond me.
So I am in a world of trouble. I extended my contract (while I haven't officially signed I agreed that I would stay another month) and figured my boss would arrange my tickets back home at a later date. Unfortunately for me I was wrong on this matter and now I have more problems on my hands than I could want at this point.
Classes were peach. I didn't do much I was confounded with reality setting in and was just happy when I was able to jump train and head off to Busan.
I love Busan I think Busan and Seoul are the only two places where I really love for sure. I was happy that my darling finished her test and I think she also did well on it. I was given the bum's rush thanks to Mr. J and his need for work work work. I don't care what people say but I personally blame him a little for not being able to explore Korea more.
I had a wonderful evening around Busan spent with Christina and personally I really do wish I was a BUSANI its the only time I feel I like and appreciate Korea is when I am able to spend a lot of quality time somewhere else.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Shooting for the Stars
Today is a holiday and regardless of what I did today it was just nice to not have to deal with some kids who don't care about me at all.
I was able to spend it in the greatest possible way and that was with my Darling in Daegu. We went to Daegu and enjoyed lunch and a dinner too. WE had coffee and studied as well.
My Baby is wonderful. Her studying has greatly improved her English in the last two months and I know that deep down in my heart she has already passed the test. I am proud of her ability and her efforts and I am happy to share our dreams together because she is worth everything I have come to Korea for. Maybe this is too personal but I will just leave it at that for now.
I am a little angry because my boss in all of his greed has had to make me work Saturday despite the fact that Friday and Sunday are Holidays. Putting aside my personal opinion of him as a person I can't believe his money pinching ways and his lack of care towards the people who serve him best.
Today is a day that I was sad to see over just simply because I didn't want to leave her in Daegu. I had to come all the way home just to prepare for kids who would just as soon run rough shod over me. I don't really care they can just have a free day for all I care.
I will write more about this in the days to come but I do know that I am LUCKY because I have found happiness despite the hellish working conditions. I will do whatever I can in order to save more money and plan a better future for us its my ultimate hope...
I was able to spend it in the greatest possible way and that was with my Darling in Daegu. We went to Daegu and enjoyed lunch and a dinner too. WE had coffee and studied as well.
My Baby is wonderful. Her studying has greatly improved her English in the last two months and I know that deep down in my heart she has already passed the test. I am proud of her ability and her efforts and I am happy to share our dreams together because she is worth everything I have come to Korea for. Maybe this is too personal but I will just leave it at that for now.
I am a little angry because my boss in all of his greed has had to make me work Saturday despite the fact that Friday and Sunday are Holidays. Putting aside my personal opinion of him as a person I can't believe his money pinching ways and his lack of care towards the people who serve him best.
Today is a day that I was sad to see over just simply because I didn't want to leave her in Daegu. I had to come all the way home just to prepare for kids who would just as soon run rough shod over me. I don't really care they can just have a free day for all I care.
I will write more about this in the days to come but I do know that I am LUCKY because I have found happiness despite the hellish working conditions. I will do whatever I can in order to save more money and plan a better future for us its my ultimate hope...
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Another Egg in the Basket
A day has unfolded in Korea and has such I write about it. I would like to start off by saying something about CONCEPT yet again.
I have mis represented my material and need to correct myself. I have found many people here to have lost a concept of Reality. The only concept that truly matters. While its true we all make our own concept and there is no right or wrong way to think there still lies a presence of mind to bear the right attitude in certain situations. Students calling teachers stupid or insulting them is beneath me. These are just a few of the underlying examples at the Academy but they are everywhere and unfortunately it seems like a lot of mis-conceptions of reality are residing in YALE.
Today I spent a lot of time worrying about things I shouldn't. All in good time. I am in the process of trying to sequester those fears and cumbersome thoughts.
Todays classes were nothing short of spoon feeding some English to kids who predominately don't care. First class, passed quickly and I was just glad to get it over with.
I taught my best class who only has a few troublesome students. I am going to have to crunch on them more this coming Saturday, its ridiculous.
TD1 is my worst class and today I railed on one student. I am sick of making extra copies because she is too lazy to remember her book. I usually have Miss Jeong do it but since I sit in the class with nothing to do because my boss has been too lazy to provide complete teaching aides and materials I have to just sit and wait with baited breathe to a bunch of Zombie like hominids who make the dead seem more approachable. So today I made my own copies and killed 5 minutes pounding the copy machine which doesn't work too well. I caught a glimpse of the secretary scuttling about performing some top level babysitting work that obviously is more important than making sure the kids can have copies of a textbook. She could track down new books instead of number crunching sometimes book-keeping and sometimes making private cell phone calls.
So TD1 angered me so much. I gave the girl more homework for sleeping in class, coming to class unprepared and just screwing with my mind. To be honest with you there are maybe 10 kids who I don't like at all. I had a soft heart and tried to be super nice to them but they have turned me into a prick. I don't take any cuff from anybody anymore. I told Vicki I would be happy if I made Justina Drop. She is a complete waste of teaching time. Maybe these are strong opinions but you would have to be in my shoes to understand how the kids have effected my teaching. I miss normal schools where kids talked to me and said hi how are you. I miss questions that I could explain instead of being drained out by my own voice when no one cares.
Yes, it may sound like I pretty much hate my job. For the most part I do. There are some perks. The top one is that I get to work side by side my girlfriend and I can help her with her fears/worries and problems. We get the mornings off. We have a bank for Coffee. We have Vicki. We have just the Teachers so we don't have to worry about the lack of concept coming from above etc. Other than working every Saturday I see this place like any other job. A little more discipline and a little more action would make this job much better. Self Concept is what hurts YALE I believe. I think I ave found a gold pot coming here though. I can forget about all the bad things each and everyone of them because I have all the riches I could want.
So another day another story tomorrow is Holiday Thank God! Keeping busy over here. I don't have water for 2 days. Its part of the Gumi revamp plan for the next 2 days. I think its the strangest thing to have happen to me since coming her but I guess we will see outcome of this.
I am EXCITED for wonderful weekend though!
I have mis represented my material and need to correct myself. I have found many people here to have lost a concept of Reality. The only concept that truly matters. While its true we all make our own concept and there is no right or wrong way to think there still lies a presence of mind to bear the right attitude in certain situations. Students calling teachers stupid or insulting them is beneath me. These are just a few of the underlying examples at the Academy but they are everywhere and unfortunately it seems like a lot of mis-conceptions of reality are residing in YALE.
Today I spent a lot of time worrying about things I shouldn't. All in good time. I am in the process of trying to sequester those fears and cumbersome thoughts.
Todays classes were nothing short of spoon feeding some English to kids who predominately don't care. First class, passed quickly and I was just glad to get it over with.
I taught my best class who only has a few troublesome students. I am going to have to crunch on them more this coming Saturday, its ridiculous.
TD1 is my worst class and today I railed on one student. I am sick of making extra copies because she is too lazy to remember her book. I usually have Miss Jeong do it but since I sit in the class with nothing to do because my boss has been too lazy to provide complete teaching aides and materials I have to just sit and wait with baited breathe to a bunch of Zombie like hominids who make the dead seem more approachable. So today I made my own copies and killed 5 minutes pounding the copy machine which doesn't work too well. I caught a glimpse of the secretary scuttling about performing some top level babysitting work that obviously is more important than making sure the kids can have copies of a textbook. She could track down new books instead of number crunching sometimes book-keeping and sometimes making private cell phone calls.
So TD1 angered me so much. I gave the girl more homework for sleeping in class, coming to class unprepared and just screwing with my mind. To be honest with you there are maybe 10 kids who I don't like at all. I had a soft heart and tried to be super nice to them but they have turned me into a prick. I don't take any cuff from anybody anymore. I told Vicki I would be happy if I made Justina Drop. She is a complete waste of teaching time. Maybe these are strong opinions but you would have to be in my shoes to understand how the kids have effected my teaching. I miss normal schools where kids talked to me and said hi how are you. I miss questions that I could explain instead of being drained out by my own voice when no one cares.
Yes, it may sound like I pretty much hate my job. For the most part I do. There are some perks. The top one is that I get to work side by side my girlfriend and I can help her with her fears/worries and problems. We get the mornings off. We have a bank for Coffee. We have Vicki. We have just the Teachers so we don't have to worry about the lack of concept coming from above etc. Other than working every Saturday I see this place like any other job. A little more discipline and a little more action would make this job much better. Self Concept is what hurts YALE I believe. I think I ave found a gold pot coming here though. I can forget about all the bad things each and everyone of them because I have all the riches I could want.
So another day another story tomorrow is Holiday Thank God! Keeping busy over here. I don't have water for 2 days. Its part of the Gumi revamp plan for the next 2 days. I think its the strangest thing to have happen to me since coming her but I guess we will see outcome of this.
I am EXCITED for wonderful weekend though!
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Losing Marbles
I had 5 good classes today. It was a rainy day and I had good time with Vicki and Christina before work. Christina cooked for us and it was delicious. She is such a remarkable woman overcoming all obstacles to still do wonderful things. She is so much stronger than I am.
Classes were interesting. I didn't yell as much and I was in a chipper and happy mood where I didn't care much. A lot of the students were absent and it helped. I joked a lot and had a good time. I am learning when I need to be a tough guy and when to ease up.
So I played and had a good time in all of classes. One of the kids Nate in MD1 had a marble which he kept dropping so I told the class what Losing one's marbles meant. He is a twirp and a dippy dutz as well. He doesn't focus and have concept at all.
Losing one's marbles implies you are losing your sanity.
I don't have a problem explaining to kids punchlines when they won't understand or follow my lecture anyways.
Tonight I went out to meet Aaron. I hadn't seen him for awhile so I learned about his life in Korea. His Seoul trips, his job, his potential lawsuit, and a bunch of other things that I am needing to think of in the near future.
Tomorrow I will be very busy. I am thinking I lost a little bit of my marbles because I want to be a provider, money saver and do things smartly I am trying to prove myself and I think I just made a small blunder. I think I should be more prudent.
I wish I knew more of what to do.
Thank God tomorrow is Thursday and No FRIDAY!
TO bed I go.
Classes were interesting. I didn't yell as much and I was in a chipper and happy mood where I didn't care much. A lot of the students were absent and it helped. I joked a lot and had a good time. I am learning when I need to be a tough guy and when to ease up.
So I played and had a good time in all of classes. One of the kids Nate in MD1 had a marble which he kept dropping so I told the class what Losing one's marbles meant. He is a twirp and a dippy dutz as well. He doesn't focus and have concept at all.
Losing one's marbles implies you are losing your sanity.
I don't have a problem explaining to kids punchlines when they won't understand or follow my lecture anyways.
Tonight I went out to meet Aaron. I hadn't seen him for awhile so I learned about his life in Korea. His Seoul trips, his job, his potential lawsuit, and a bunch of other things that I am needing to think of in the near future.
Tomorrow I will be very busy. I am thinking I lost a little bit of my marbles because I want to be a provider, money saver and do things smartly I am trying to prove myself and I think I just made a small blunder. I think I should be more prudent.
I wish I knew more of what to do.
Thank God tomorrow is Thursday and No FRIDAY!
TO bed I go.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Conceptual Illusions
As always a very fast paced day. I awoke to find that I was too tired to begin my day at the usual time. I need more sleep. I am someone who always tries to plan my day down to a T and not fritter away wasted time. I have developed a routine that while its not the best its better than never knowing what to do.
Today I went to the library to study I was starving for food since I mis-programmed my sleep cycle and had to recuperate under vagabond scruples and basically meaning I had to leave my house to find answers.
Work was the same old same old except it was Tuesday and that's always good.
My Opinions reader beware
I like to record interesting/weird/ or good happenings because its funny to me.
Today was level up day. Level ups are like a shuffleboard in order to change the kids English ability. I like them because they can make class changes better or in some cases worse. I was surprised when one of the kids was scared and upset to Level up.
This was following a visitation service to the office to any kid who jut felt like walking in willy nilly style and touching anything that they felt like. Looking at Christina's phone, notebooks or any invasion of her privacy rancors me and makes my blood boil.
My persona is like ice skate on me if you like but if you curdle my temper I will melt and froth at the mouth until you drown. These kids like to excel limits with me.
Today I fixed Td2. The level ups were better than I expected. I fixed the Saturdays blunder. IT was actually small potatoes or nothing important. I wanted to make the new kids feel comfortable right away.
Anyways back to Concepts. Christina and I point out lack of concepts all the time. This is something that I am trying to be conscience of all the time. My concept of reality is doing what I need to do and what is morally and ethically right for society and contingent on the time. I don't want to mess up reality or a situation because of lack of concept.
Its hurtful to see so many people with lack of care or concept.
So today other than a migraine I felt wonderful. It went a way after Christina gave me some medicine. I personally think I just needed some sugar but a pill works as well. I am not saying I am innocent of having a perfect concept I just always try to keep an open mind and approach to ALL WALKS OF LIFE.
This is my story and I am sticking to it.
After work I had a wonderful meal of Ddobokei with Christina. It was delicious and much more inviting. The concept of going out with Christina is always top notch.
WONDERFUL~~~~
Today I went to the library to study I was starving for food since I mis-programmed my sleep cycle and had to recuperate under vagabond scruples and basically meaning I had to leave my house to find answers.
Work was the same old same old except it was Tuesday and that's always good.
My Opinions reader beware
I like to record interesting/weird/ or good happenings because its funny to me.
Today was level up day. Level ups are like a shuffleboard in order to change the kids English ability. I like them because they can make class changes better or in some cases worse. I was surprised when one of the kids was scared and upset to Level up.
This was following a visitation service to the office to any kid who jut felt like walking in willy nilly style and touching anything that they felt like. Looking at Christina's phone, notebooks or any invasion of her privacy rancors me and makes my blood boil.
My persona is like ice skate on me if you like but if you curdle my temper I will melt and froth at the mouth until you drown. These kids like to excel limits with me.
Today I fixed Td2. The level ups were better than I expected. I fixed the Saturdays blunder. IT was actually small potatoes or nothing important. I wanted to make the new kids feel comfortable right away.
Anyways back to Concepts. Christina and I point out lack of concepts all the time. This is something that I am trying to be conscience of all the time. My concept of reality is doing what I need to do and what is morally and ethically right for society and contingent on the time. I don't want to mess up reality or a situation because of lack of concept.
Its hurtful to see so many people with lack of care or concept.
So today other than a migraine I felt wonderful. It went a way after Christina gave me some medicine. I personally think I just needed some sugar but a pill works as well. I am not saying I am innocent of having a perfect concept I just always try to keep an open mind and approach to ALL WALKS OF LIFE.
This is my story and I am sticking to it.
After work I had a wonderful meal of Ddobokei with Christina. It was delicious and much more inviting. The concept of going out with Christina is always top notch.
WONDERFUL~~~~
Monday, June 2, 2008
CHIT CHAT OVER CHICKEN
Its now June work. Today was the first day in June of actual work at the Academy. I have seen a change in my lifestyle and my attitude has undergone many changes as well since I have gotten here. I have had to make many changes in my mind and have also overcome many odds and problems in order to reach the plateau I am now sitting at. I am in the drivers seat and its not that bad being there. I went to a dinner after work with my boss. Its probably one of the last times I will do this during this month. I think he's just too busy.
As always I had a great morning. I went to PappaRoti and had Bread and tea with Christina, our conversations are deep and intriguing and I feel that they are fluent and wonderful. Its not just me. Her English talent is phenomenal and I don't have to explain a lot and she gets all of my punch lines to jokes. She's something wonderful.
Work was alright. I didn't yell as much. Its a short week and I am feeling a little under the weather so I wanted to save myself for later this week. Besides I think I will be going to Busan soon so I don't care^^
I will say this about dinner though. I had a good time and even though many of his rules and his system is often times gee-gawd he has some good notions just some problems implementing procedures and making people feel OK at work need to be re-evaluated at times. I will also say this: even though I have stood by a lot of decisions regarding the Academy and things that he believes in. I do feel he is right with many of his beliefs. I agreed with him through the Carrie debacle, I do understand his systems pertaining to the kids and even some of his rationale. I just wish he was a little easier to approach at times.
As he said a while back I have had to chalk all misunderstandings up to Culture Difference and many times I over reacted due to the fact that I am a serious guy who cares a lot about what I do. There are still a lot of things to overcome and time will tell if it was worth it but I do know that I want to put my nose to the grindstone and try harder.
I say I am in the Drivers seat because I have been in a car watching my life flow by me just waiting for opportunity. I think I need to seriously think about what I want to see happen in my life. People say I think about the future too much but I would rather agree with my boss than be caught with my pants hanging down in the wind and be prepared for a desireable future that has been earned rather than settle for a quick escape. What is the right thing to do? Should I leave July? August? December? Should I go to School? Whats the best thing to do?
My boss things I should stay in Korea and work for him. I knew that naturally before I went out to eat with him. I am having to stand on my own two feet and think this one through. Working Saturday isn't fun. I have a way to serious attitude about the kids. Today Miss Jeong said to me more words than she has said to me since I came here: You are going out to eat with him, haha oh have fun.. she gave me a sly glance as I was walking out the door with him. ME and the Boss in America this situation would make me feel honored but here in Korea its something that apparently is odd and a rarity.
I don't judge him or Gumi anymore at all anymore. It is what it is and I am looking only on the brighter side of things. I have a sweet girl and I am bringing home the dough right now. I know the things he has done to have bothered me and I also know the probability of things happening in the future. I do know that if I stay things got to be different. I just have to find out how.
In Life there are two roads One traveled and heavily worn and the other less traveled by right now I am trying to get my feet wetter and do whatever it takes to succeed ANYTHING
As always I had a great morning. I went to PappaRoti and had Bread and tea with Christina, our conversations are deep and intriguing and I feel that they are fluent and wonderful. Its not just me. Her English talent is phenomenal and I don't have to explain a lot and she gets all of my punch lines to jokes. She's something wonderful.
Work was alright. I didn't yell as much. Its a short week and I am feeling a little under the weather so I wanted to save myself for later this week. Besides I think I will be going to Busan soon so I don't care^^
I will say this about dinner though. I had a good time and even though many of his rules and his system is often times gee-gawd he has some good notions just some problems implementing procedures and making people feel OK at work need to be re-evaluated at times. I will also say this: even though I have stood by a lot of decisions regarding the Academy and things that he believes in. I do feel he is right with many of his beliefs. I agreed with him through the Carrie debacle, I do understand his systems pertaining to the kids and even some of his rationale. I just wish he was a little easier to approach at times.
As he said a while back I have had to chalk all misunderstandings up to Culture Difference and many times I over reacted due to the fact that I am a serious guy who cares a lot about what I do. There are still a lot of things to overcome and time will tell if it was worth it but I do know that I want to put my nose to the grindstone and try harder.
I say I am in the Drivers seat because I have been in a car watching my life flow by me just waiting for opportunity. I think I need to seriously think about what I want to see happen in my life. People say I think about the future too much but I would rather agree with my boss than be caught with my pants hanging down in the wind and be prepared for a desireable future that has been earned rather than settle for a quick escape. What is the right thing to do? Should I leave July? August? December? Should I go to School? Whats the best thing to do?
My boss things I should stay in Korea and work for him. I knew that naturally before I went out to eat with him. I am having to stand on my own two feet and think this one through. Working Saturday isn't fun. I have a way to serious attitude about the kids. Today Miss Jeong said to me more words than she has said to me since I came here: You are going out to eat with him, haha oh have fun.. she gave me a sly glance as I was walking out the door with him. ME and the Boss in America this situation would make me feel honored but here in Korea its something that apparently is odd and a rarity.
I don't judge him or Gumi anymore at all anymore. It is what it is and I am looking only on the brighter side of things. I have a sweet girl and I am bringing home the dough right now. I know the things he has done to have bothered me and I also know the probability of things happening in the future. I do know that if I stay things got to be different. I just have to find out how.
In Life there are two roads One traveled and heavily worn and the other less traveled by right now I am trying to get my feet wetter and do whatever it takes to succeed ANYTHING
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Drops of Red Wine and Sprinkles of Steak
RED WINE AND BEEF DINNER^^
June has come in with a Bang. After having a great dinner last night and spending part of the night talking to Christina and her brother in the park I slept later than I usually did. I had pondered how Days are just going by and how I wasn't entirely sure how to handle this. Its now June and other than for a few small health issues that are short term things are looking better. I was a little anxious for part of the day having bad dreams and bad thoughts but I just have a few things to say about that...
The Road of Life is filled with surprises and bumps around every corner. Keeping busy is a good way to forget about things and being occupied on anything is better than idle wanderings of a lonely heart. I am a lucky guy I truly feel this and therefore I am learning ever so slowly to put behind me the negative things. I am going to try to keep June free of negative news.
Today I had some wine with my darling. It was called D-Day and a special Vintage from France. It was a little wetter than most wines I have had and It reminded me of the few times I had wine back in Missoula. I haven't had much alcohol since coming here and this is the second bottle of wine I have had with my darling since coming here. I am certain it will not be the last. I am happy we both enjoy wine.
Drinking Wine is better than drinking Beer or Soju or anything else. In my opinion, its not as habitual. Just a personal opinion.
Its June and I have a lot of ambitions and plans to carry out. I should rephrase that me, Christina and things at Yale have a lot of things to figure out. Its called life and in my mind everything will work out. Korea has pushed me to the limits of emotional and mental growth. I have had to find ways to balance time and develop my goals much more considerably than before I had came here. Its good for me.
Every Challenge and Obstacle that we come across we can fight it together.
This week i work 5 days and I hope that Saturday I can just get off. I am not sure it will happen highly unlikely. Christina has been studying for a test. She studies hard at the Library where I write my stories, post cards or read a book. The Library is a place of Solace and a good excursion its a favorite place of mine in Gumi. Christina is dedicated, driven, smart and savvy when it comes to studying. She is a serious person. She is good at everything she does and I am beyond proud of her for her studies. Proud isn't the right word. She studies at work when she takes a listening test and listens to many tapes, she studies intravenously when we are swinging in conversation, when reading my stories and at home. While I am a distracting influence at times she pulls through and does superbly. I don't want her to worry about the test because she has passed the important test already.
In my opinion we don't need to worry I think we should just cast it aside. Just like little drops of red wine its time to focus only on whats truly important and not let anything get in our way.
June has come in with a Bang. After having a great dinner last night and spending part of the night talking to Christina and her brother in the park I slept later than I usually did. I had pondered how Days are just going by and how I wasn't entirely sure how to handle this. Its now June and other than for a few small health issues that are short term things are looking better. I was a little anxious for part of the day having bad dreams and bad thoughts but I just have a few things to say about that...
The Road of Life is filled with surprises and bumps around every corner. Keeping busy is a good way to forget about things and being occupied on anything is better than idle wanderings of a lonely heart. I am a lucky guy I truly feel this and therefore I am learning ever so slowly to put behind me the negative things. I am going to try to keep June free of negative news.
Today I had some wine with my darling. It was called D-Day and a special Vintage from France. It was a little wetter than most wines I have had and It reminded me of the few times I had wine back in Missoula. I haven't had much alcohol since coming here and this is the second bottle of wine I have had with my darling since coming here. I am certain it will not be the last. I am happy we both enjoy wine.
Drinking Wine is better than drinking Beer or Soju or anything else. In my opinion, its not as habitual. Just a personal opinion.
Its June and I have a lot of ambitions and plans to carry out. I should rephrase that me, Christina and things at Yale have a lot of things to figure out. Its called life and in my mind everything will work out. Korea has pushed me to the limits of emotional and mental growth. I have had to find ways to balance time and develop my goals much more considerably than before I had came here. Its good for me.
Every Challenge and Obstacle that we come across we can fight it together.
This week i work 5 days and I hope that Saturday I can just get off. I am not sure it will happen highly unlikely. Christina has been studying for a test. She studies hard at the Library where I write my stories, post cards or read a book. The Library is a place of Solace and a good excursion its a favorite place of mine in Gumi. Christina is dedicated, driven, smart and savvy when it comes to studying. She is a serious person. She is good at everything she does and I am beyond proud of her for her studies. Proud isn't the right word. She studies at work when she takes a listening test and listens to many tapes, she studies intravenously when we are swinging in conversation, when reading my stories and at home. While I am a distracting influence at times she pulls through and does superbly. I don't want her to worry about the test because she has passed the important test already.
In my opinion we don't need to worry I think we should just cast it aside. Just like little drops of red wine its time to focus only on whats truly important and not let anything get in our way.
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