Saturday Morning~ Work at 9. I got up at 8 wishing to fall back to sleep. I slept relatively well for the first time in a week. Work was a little different.
It was summer vacation so I think that overall this week was the best because many kids decided to take advantage of no school. Mr. Jeong went to Japan and left the hands of the Academy with Miss Jeong and us. I should say us since we do everything but whatever.
Miss Jeong was late today. I was surprised when I walked past the academy to get my breakfast and it wasn't opened. Probably because Mr. Jeong wasn't here I would think.
Classes: I had a different class due to Mr. J's absence and my darling also had to teach 4. Tc1 there were only 4 students, Tc2 not bad but nothing special. The bad kids were gone^^
TD1 only Rose so a wasted conversation I feel. She is so boring. Its amazing that a student as smart as she is and she will not push herself. None of the kids really try hard. My boss said to me once he was surprised that this one class didn't try to understand beyond. Welcome to my classes everyday. What is this What is that?
Its a mind blowing concept when the kids have yet to ask me a question that I can explain. They just simply copy and thats that. Why can't anyone understand me about the absurd structure of work?
Anyways Td2 was fine. I wrapped up a good easy day with my 2 favorite students Ann and Jane.
After work I went to eat and eventually went Swimming for the first time.
I bought a swimsuit and may think about becoming a swimmer. I know I need to exercise more. I just want to do things a little differently I thought there were many strange people who had no sense of swimming---Im not talking about ability or skill level but rather staying out of the way and hitting people. I hit some people too but it wasn't because I was sight seeing in the middle of the lane.
I loved it actually and do want to go again. I felt a little OTL cause I couldn't do it as well as I had wanted but I did manage to mainly keep up with Christina. I could follow her anywhere though^^
After Swim I relaxed I called my friend Juan and watched a movie. I AM SAM
I have a fury inside me and its wanting to open up all avenues more. I dream and imagine a world full of endless wonders and nothing but happy and good times where everything we want is possible we just have to SWIM harder in everything we do and want
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Electro Day
Rain Storms, Heavy Stomach and Screaming Kids a typical day at work.
I thought I was going to get struck by lightening because it was literally outside the window when I was taking care of myself in the bathroom.
It was scary because it was so close. I spent the morning doing some R/R inside my house and ignoring the gray gloom outside my window.
I was happy to see my darling come to my rescue because I didn't want a poor day this Friday.
Its Friday and the fact that its the weekend is meaningless. I work tomorrow. I don't like this because working on Saturday makes it impossible to fully enjoy whatever Korea has to offer. I am cooped inside the work office as a body inside a classroom to some kids whose parents made them come to this place.
The bonus is that I can spend a good time with my darling tomorrow.
I will find a job that makes the same or more money and I don't have to work weekends. I want to do whatever is possible in order to insure that we can attain happiness.
Work was the same. I had 6 classes and a good break. My classes were all good surprisingly. I think it was because the pressure of my boss being there was off. I enjoy it much more when he isn't there simply because he doesn't do visiting all the time. He's better now though so its a small problem.
Vicki had 7 classes and I think she was feeling bad about something. I ahd a heavy stomach and just am over-worked with stress due to uncontrollable things I can't change. Today was better than yesterday though. I just wish I wasn't so tired of this job. It would be better if that wasn't the case.
Other than the Rain the electricity from the kids was actual quite decent and also I need more Electro lites in my system so my stomach can recover completely.
I am going to watch a movie and rest now.
I thought I was going to get struck by lightening because it was literally outside the window when I was taking care of myself in the bathroom.
It was scary because it was so close. I spent the morning doing some R/R inside my house and ignoring the gray gloom outside my window.
I was happy to see my darling come to my rescue because I didn't want a poor day this Friday.
Its Friday and the fact that its the weekend is meaningless. I work tomorrow. I don't like this because working on Saturday makes it impossible to fully enjoy whatever Korea has to offer. I am cooped inside the work office as a body inside a classroom to some kids whose parents made them come to this place.
The bonus is that I can spend a good time with my darling tomorrow.
I will find a job that makes the same or more money and I don't have to work weekends. I want to do whatever is possible in order to insure that we can attain happiness.
Work was the same. I had 6 classes and a good break. My classes were all good surprisingly. I think it was because the pressure of my boss being there was off. I enjoy it much more when he isn't there simply because he doesn't do visiting all the time. He's better now though so its a small problem.
Vicki had 7 classes and I think she was feeling bad about something. I ahd a heavy stomach and just am over-worked with stress due to uncontrollable things I can't change. Today was better than yesterday though. I just wish I wasn't so tired of this job. It would be better if that wasn't the case.
Other than the Rain the electricity from the kids was actual quite decent and also I need more Electro lites in my system so my stomach can recover completely.
I am going to watch a movie and rest now.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
slip ups
My morning was horrible. I had the worst feeling in my stomach since getting here. I am hoping its completely healed by tomorrow. I went to work with a headache, stomach ache and a feeling of being bothered.
I never know what to expect anymore and its my problem. Its something I should just try to understand. I am shocked at how fast time passes here.
I went to work having to teach 5 classes. My Thursday went from a 3 class day to 4 because of MA2 to 5 today because of Mr. Jeong being absent. The bonus is that there will be no mass inspections or additional bad factors due to his absence.
Sometimes I still feel he is a poor misunderstood and nice guy but I can't wait until WE are free of him. I am opening myself up to an idea of staying in Korea longer. I write about all of this now because I want help in any way I can get it.
I've got the nicest woman in the world and I don't intend to watch her work under abnormal conditions.
I think back to the days were I didn't write so much---Walking in the park, Sitting and talking for 45 minutes to an hour. We used to have it really nice here. I liked Thursday and I didn't care that I used to teach td classes 3 times a week. Those were special days. Ironically it was before I found that this place was just a money scheming place and no real feeling for education. Tuesday and Thursday are truly the best days for education the kids are much more interesting I feel.
I like the oldest groups^^thats for sure. Some of the youngest kids have lately become more interesting. For the most part I think the kids are decent nowadays when they aren't screaming in the office.
Today I felt glum, sad, felt like joking, I taught my TC2 class again, tc1 no Chansuk, and my veteran Rose. I don't like Td1 at all anymore..The kids have dropped or just decide to come when they want. That's why I didn't care about tests this month.
I will not write about work anymore. Unfortunately I have lost all my feeling for teaching. I like to work hard but I can't do anything here. There is no business that I can do apparently. I wish I could do more but all of my work is tape recording or subroutine. There is no variety, there is no real planning, I don't even get checked anymore. All this fussing and fighting and now my work is devoid of meaning.
When it comes to work... I have the best thing in the world... The wonder lady who sits next to me each day. I also have been able to save some money which is nice. That's all I want from Gumi. I know that I will work better or harder later..I have high ambitions.
After my last class, I wrote a letter, paid a bill and relaxed upstairs a little. It was a fast day and I hope tomorrow is wonderful.
Many things to do yet.
I never know what to expect anymore and its my problem. Its something I should just try to understand. I am shocked at how fast time passes here.
I went to work having to teach 5 classes. My Thursday went from a 3 class day to 4 because of MA2 to 5 today because of Mr. Jeong being absent. The bonus is that there will be no mass inspections or additional bad factors due to his absence.
Sometimes I still feel he is a poor misunderstood and nice guy but I can't wait until WE are free of him. I am opening myself up to an idea of staying in Korea longer. I write about all of this now because I want help in any way I can get it.
I've got the nicest woman in the world and I don't intend to watch her work under abnormal conditions.
I think back to the days were I didn't write so much---Walking in the park, Sitting and talking for 45 minutes to an hour. We used to have it really nice here. I liked Thursday and I didn't care that I used to teach td classes 3 times a week. Those were special days. Ironically it was before I found that this place was just a money scheming place and no real feeling for education. Tuesday and Thursday are truly the best days for education the kids are much more interesting I feel.
I like the oldest groups^^thats for sure. Some of the youngest kids have lately become more interesting. For the most part I think the kids are decent nowadays when they aren't screaming in the office.
Today I felt glum, sad, felt like joking, I taught my TC2 class again, tc1 no Chansuk, and my veteran Rose. I don't like Td1 at all anymore..The kids have dropped or just decide to come when they want. That's why I didn't care about tests this month.
I will not write about work anymore. Unfortunately I have lost all my feeling for teaching. I like to work hard but I can't do anything here. There is no business that I can do apparently. I wish I could do more but all of my work is tape recording or subroutine. There is no variety, there is no real planning, I don't even get checked anymore. All this fussing and fighting and now my work is devoid of meaning.
When it comes to work... I have the best thing in the world... The wonder lady who sits next to me each day. I also have been able to save some money which is nice. That's all I want from Gumi. I know that I will work better or harder later..I have high ambitions.
After my last class, I wrote a letter, paid a bill and relaxed upstairs a little. It was a fast day and I hope tomorrow is wonderful.
Many things to do yet.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Promise
*So I could give you a run down on the bad happenings in class. I could tell you the ways I had to pretend just to survive I could tell you how strange some of the people at work are, or even more I could tell you how tired I am of Korean parents thinking that they know everything there is to know about their children when in reality it is more like a self righteous way. Main example is simply: Some kids don't belong in Engish school because lack of desire, age or some other problem.
I don't want to say these things.
I find myself battling so much and mainly its myself. I am too honest here but I am troubled.
I am in Love and I know that deep down there is no one better for me. I have known this for a long time.
We have worked side by side for over a year. We have shared countless meals, discussed many problems we face at work, life, or just things in general.
Each day I get my strength from her. She is amazing when it comes to work. I wish I had her motivation more. I want to seriously fight or eliminate all of the poor conditions here.
Today we talked about some Political Issues. Since living in Korea I have started to dislike America because we are pathetic. Our government doesn't know how to interact with other nations properly. We meddle and make more trouble. I wish that the attitudes were different though.
Past lessons
America dropped the Atom Bomb, we executed many people in all wars and we are greedy and only intervene if its a benefit for us. Thats a government for you.
Japan is the richest country in Asia and seems to think that because of high American support it can dominate Asia. It pushes itself around proclaiming old traditions on things now out of its jurisdiction.
Korea is a rising country. Its a wonderful place and a good place to live. I don't like the conservatism here because its not good. I like old values, and maintaining traditions whether its things or rituals but I wish people would embrace things more easily.
People call me handsome or Foreigner and thats the only distinctions I get. I stand out like a sore thumb. Both of these are not even worth mentioning. I know that living in a country where white people are a rarity is different whereas in America an Asian person is seen often but still a year of my life and no change.
I conclude this by saying I value all people and think that only by working together can we keep the human race alive and learn about each other.
I write this post with a promise in mind. I will fight wrong doings, I will make misunderstandings right and I will not be insensitive to anything.
I understand where people are coming from but its more important to see where we are going. I promise to never stop anything that I have that's good, and I don't want anything to give up.
This story may not be good. It may be too personal, or too much information but its all in my head and I have do more.
I will always try hard.
I don't want to say these things.
I find myself battling so much and mainly its myself. I am too honest here but I am troubled.
I am in Love and I know that deep down there is no one better for me. I have known this for a long time.
We have worked side by side for over a year. We have shared countless meals, discussed many problems we face at work, life, or just things in general.
Each day I get my strength from her. She is amazing when it comes to work. I wish I had her motivation more. I want to seriously fight or eliminate all of the poor conditions here.
Today we talked about some Political Issues. Since living in Korea I have started to dislike America because we are pathetic. Our government doesn't know how to interact with other nations properly. We meddle and make more trouble. I wish that the attitudes were different though.
Past lessons
America dropped the Atom Bomb, we executed many people in all wars and we are greedy and only intervene if its a benefit for us. Thats a government for you.
Japan is the richest country in Asia and seems to think that because of high American support it can dominate Asia. It pushes itself around proclaiming old traditions on things now out of its jurisdiction.
Korea is a rising country. Its a wonderful place and a good place to live. I don't like the conservatism here because its not good. I like old values, and maintaining traditions whether its things or rituals but I wish people would embrace things more easily.
People call me handsome or Foreigner and thats the only distinctions I get. I stand out like a sore thumb. Both of these are not even worth mentioning. I know that living in a country where white people are a rarity is different whereas in America an Asian person is seen often but still a year of my life and no change.
I conclude this by saying I value all people and think that only by working together can we keep the human race alive and learn about each other.
I write this post with a promise in mind. I will fight wrong doings, I will make misunderstandings right and I will not be insensitive to anything.
I understand where people are coming from but its more important to see where we are going. I promise to never stop anything that I have that's good, and I don't want anything to give up.
This story may not be good. It may be too personal, or too much information but its all in my head and I have do more.
I will always try hard.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Sentimental Journeys
This is from my heart and mind....
Its Tuesday and one of the best days of the week here. I have 4 classes and plenty of break time. I like to keep busy and my mind occupied on whatever I can do.
Today's occurrences
Minji otherwise known as Indian Boy brought us Burgers. He is what I will call little Rick. Mature, and able to talk to us like an adult. The difference between him and other kids is that I view him as a student who shows proper respect and attention to Teachers. Unlike his peers he doesn't just play and waste my time. He is very smart and I hope he levels up soon.
I went to Pappa in the morning and had a nice time to just catch up and relax. I put some pictures together to for Christina. I love our pictures so much and hope to get more^^
I had some thoughts I got off my chest today during one of my breaks...Because I live here I can't help but think of everything because I want to figure out the best way to do things.
I made Monthly tests on the old computer I was told it would be available today but it unfortunately wasn't. I didn't ask about it because everyone was busy and even the computer was available during the time I could of used it, it would have been to late by the time it was set up.
My observation is that Miss Jeong gets there at 10:30 (2.5 hours before we do) thats time to clean, prepare and do things that should be done before we get there. When we come the actual work takes place. Christina does her work, Miss J's work and does a s much as she can.
I do what I can. Today I washed cups, cleaned the fridge a little, and did my own work. I was a little nicer to the kids, I felt a little stress lately so I have been meaner lately.
I told Vicki that I am tired of poor kids with bad attitudes. I don't want to teach them if they are going to be horrible little monsters. I punished a kid today because he wouldn't sit down, he kicked another student, and he didn't open his book just for starters. This is typically a normal day too though.
I can do this job because I lost my caring about class and whether its good or bad. I gave a monthly test today in TD1 it was incomplete because of lacking the computer but it was a writing exercise that required a little thinking.
The kids were fairly decent today-the strange ones studied or took some medicine or both and the smart ones were good as usual.
Unfortunately, tomorrow its back to the Hi, how are you, ok Good Bye routine. Next please. I know my blogs are strong and unfortunately not all that good but I am just trying to explore my mind.
Having a meat dinner was wonderful I love our meals together so much. I can't wait until the next one.
I want to unravel dreams. Its all I want to do now. As I have said Teaching and feeling so so is not good---I don't want to give up teaching but I don't want to focus most if not all of my energy into teaching. I believe there is bigger things to be doing.
All I know bottom line, is that my Chagi makes me feel so special and is so amazing in infinite ways that I am not only lucky to have her but I DO know why they call me Fighting Teacher.
I want so much things and will try all.
REHTEGOT YPPAH EB SYAWLA STEL
Its Tuesday and one of the best days of the week here. I have 4 classes and plenty of break time. I like to keep busy and my mind occupied on whatever I can do.
Today's occurrences
Minji otherwise known as Indian Boy brought us Burgers. He is what I will call little Rick. Mature, and able to talk to us like an adult. The difference between him and other kids is that I view him as a student who shows proper respect and attention to Teachers. Unlike his peers he doesn't just play and waste my time. He is very smart and I hope he levels up soon.
I went to Pappa in the morning and had a nice time to just catch up and relax. I put some pictures together to for Christina. I love our pictures so much and hope to get more^^
I had some thoughts I got off my chest today during one of my breaks...Because I live here I can't help but think of everything because I want to figure out the best way to do things.
I made Monthly tests on the old computer I was told it would be available today but it unfortunately wasn't. I didn't ask about it because everyone was busy and even the computer was available during the time I could of used it, it would have been to late by the time it was set up.
My observation is that Miss Jeong gets there at 10:30 (2.5 hours before we do) thats time to clean, prepare and do things that should be done before we get there. When we come the actual work takes place. Christina does her work, Miss J's work and does a s much as she can.
I do what I can. Today I washed cups, cleaned the fridge a little, and did my own work. I was a little nicer to the kids, I felt a little stress lately so I have been meaner lately.
I told Vicki that I am tired of poor kids with bad attitudes. I don't want to teach them if they are going to be horrible little monsters. I punished a kid today because he wouldn't sit down, he kicked another student, and he didn't open his book just for starters. This is typically a normal day too though.
I can do this job because I lost my caring about class and whether its good or bad. I gave a monthly test today in TD1 it was incomplete because of lacking the computer but it was a writing exercise that required a little thinking.
The kids were fairly decent today-the strange ones studied or took some medicine or both and the smart ones were good as usual.
Unfortunately, tomorrow its back to the Hi, how are you, ok Good Bye routine. Next please. I know my blogs are strong and unfortunately not all that good but I am just trying to explore my mind.
Having a meat dinner was wonderful I love our meals together so much. I can't wait until the next one.
I want to unravel dreams. Its all I want to do now. As I have said Teaching and feeling so so is not good---I don't want to give up teaching but I don't want to focus most if not all of my energy into teaching. I believe there is bigger things to be doing.
All I know bottom line, is that my Chagi makes me feel so special and is so amazing in infinite ways that I am not only lucky to have her but I DO know why they call me Fighting Teacher.
I want so much things and will try all.
REHTEGOT YPPAH EB SYAWLA STEL
Monday, July 21, 2008
helter skelter
So today I found myself zig zagging back and forth. I seemed to be having a mental lapse, or meltdown ...again.
Todays Story is as follows. I had breakfast with a friend, we talked about recent happenings what we did on the weekend and things of that nature.
I drew some poor drawings I am not very good and need to express my artistic talent differently.
L and O wasn't on, I was bothered. I had a good lunch at the Chinese Buffet. I was happy to say she didn't have any kids running around naked. She is a nice woman and probably the person I know the most outside of work.
Work was a disaster for me. I felt like I was having a mental issues all day.
Before work started the computer was temporarily fixed but yet again no one asked me if I could use it. I sat during my break with nothing to do. I didn't want to talk to the kids, I didn't want to work at all. It bothers me that I can't do anything. If I was working in America my opinions, help or actual work would be appreciated. I wish I could be more of the TEAM.
MB3-slight problems, nothing really good.
MB1-slightly bad
MC3-very bad
MC1-was ok but tiresome. Luis was really good. I think he is the one that needs medicine seriously.
MD3-Worst---Bad Girls, class disorganized, no respect, Mr. Jeong had to fix the situation. The kids paid him in my class for the VOCAB books. Miss Jeong isn't doing her job at all and it really bothers me. I feel because of her it makes everything I want impossible.
Sometimes I wish she would not do her job more just so things could get from Worse to Terrible.
I know its the Manic Monday-the work craze. I usually want to put my nose to the grindstone and work hard. Nowadays, I am just wanting to make a career move or do whatever it takes to go to a better place. I am afraid of losing that and that's why I cry myself into my dreams. Seriously all I want is to figure out something well.
Happiness is the Key and other than the poor classes, disorganized work, and just a odd start to the week I am happy~~~~
I got something special, I was able to fix everything before I went home. I just don't want this again and again. My next post Tashi and Tashi
Whatever I can do to make a better future or next stop etc. I will do count on me.
I am working on a picture project now.
It should look good!
talk soon!
Tomorrow is Tuesday it will be a grand day!
Todays Story is as follows. I had breakfast with a friend, we talked about recent happenings what we did on the weekend and things of that nature.
I drew some poor drawings I am not very good and need to express my artistic talent differently.
L and O wasn't on, I was bothered. I had a good lunch at the Chinese Buffet. I was happy to say she didn't have any kids running around naked. She is a nice woman and probably the person I know the most outside of work.
Work was a disaster for me. I felt like I was having a mental issues all day.
Before work started the computer was temporarily fixed but yet again no one asked me if I could use it. I sat during my break with nothing to do. I didn't want to talk to the kids, I didn't want to work at all. It bothers me that I can't do anything. If I was working in America my opinions, help or actual work would be appreciated. I wish I could be more of the TEAM.
MB3-slight problems, nothing really good.
MB1-slightly bad
MC3-very bad
MC1-was ok but tiresome. Luis was really good. I think he is the one that needs medicine seriously.
MD3-Worst---Bad Girls, class disorganized, no respect, Mr. Jeong had to fix the situation. The kids paid him in my class for the VOCAB books. Miss Jeong isn't doing her job at all and it really bothers me. I feel because of her it makes everything I want impossible.
Sometimes I wish she would not do her job more just so things could get from Worse to Terrible.
I know its the Manic Monday-the work craze. I usually want to put my nose to the grindstone and work hard. Nowadays, I am just wanting to make a career move or do whatever it takes to go to a better place. I am afraid of losing that and that's why I cry myself into my dreams. Seriously all I want is to figure out something well.
Happiness is the Key and other than the poor classes, disorganized work, and just a odd start to the week I am happy~~~~
I got something special, I was able to fix everything before I went home. I just don't want this again and again. My next post Tashi and Tashi
Whatever I can do to make a better future or next stop etc. I will do count on me.
I am working on a picture project now.
It should look good!
talk soon!
Tomorrow is Tuesday it will be a grand day!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Sunday Fixings
As always been the case Sundays are the best day in Korea. I don't do anything in particular but just relax and rest...Its a way to let the Byoung ideas of the week slip by.
I made a vow today that there will be no more bad days.
I cleaned my house a little, had a wonderful meal with Christina and spent a good part of the day refreshing my mind and spending it the best possible way with Christina.
I think this week will be wonderful cause I am going to try harder to change a lot. I want to make my health get better. I want to get a good haircut and buy some nicer clothes, I want to do a lot more too!
Today was a wonderful day. Dreaming about 700 days, drinking coffee at Tous De Jours, and walking the streets of Hyung gok with my Sweetheart, or eating spaghetti at a nice sit-in place makes Sundays in Gumi so wonderful!
I had amazing time today and hope that this week goes well too! I know that work is going to be better this week. I hope that the weather is nicer too.
So I am keeping busy and got many things to do this week. I think it will be a lot of fun and I know that I will spend it well doing many things with my Sweetheart!
I made a vow today that there will be no more bad days.
I cleaned my house a little, had a wonderful meal with Christina and spent a good part of the day refreshing my mind and spending it the best possible way with Christina.
I think this week will be wonderful cause I am going to try harder to change a lot. I want to make my health get better. I want to get a good haircut and buy some nicer clothes, I want to do a lot more too!
Today was a wonderful day. Dreaming about 700 days, drinking coffee at Tous De Jours, and walking the streets of Hyung gok with my Sweetheart, or eating spaghetti at a nice sit-in place makes Sundays in Gumi so wonderful!
I had amazing time today and hope that this week goes well too! I know that work is going to be better this week. I hope that the weather is nicer too.
So I am keeping busy and got many things to do this week. I think it will be a lot of fun and I know that I will spend it well doing many things with my Sweetheart!
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