Doting Over Galbei

Today I got up to yet another day of work. Mr. Jeong's 25 minute arraignment yesterday didn't leave me feeling gong oh about work.
AS I said yesterday it was a complete waste of time and literally made me lose all faith in him. I thought after I had been here for 8 months now 10 things would have changed but he still likes to use me as a scapegoat for his failing academy and find faults.


Work was typical. It was routine and nothing to it. I had my usual 4 classes on Saturday.
TC1: Quiet and kind of dull. There were many absents today and so I wondered about why they weren't there. No one likes to talk to me anymore. They didn't laugh at my jokes or anything. Maybe its because Mr. Jeong is now their teacher but they shouldn't care about that.
TC2: Easy day only 2 kids. I wonder why the kids don't show up. Unfortunately they are falling behind if they dint come because there is no way to really review for them.

TD3: MY Saturday Class. Rachel was here so it was good. There is only 2 students and they sleep. I was talking about Leaves and I don't know why I teach them because I only see them Saturday so next week I will revise for them.

TD2: My girl class the 3 girls like to gossip, joke and play but its not really funny to me.


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After work I went out to eat Galibi with my Darling. Its a rare treat and enjoyable. I am aware that my moods are like the weather of March. They are up and down. This happens at work. I go to a good class, I have a bad class, I feel frustration because I am distracted by idle things. Through all the stress and all the heartache that work causes me I enjoy doting on my Honey Kim so much.

Doting is my passion and my hobby.
I am thinking of new ideas and right now I am thinking of improving my house with some fauna. I want my house permeating in natural scenery.





I am going to write a few articles as a side note to the main story I think I want to try to be a better writer and focus on aspects of Korea.




Things keep going and I am ready to try more for the next challenge that lies ahead.

More soon

Mi Chin Yale Hakwon kam sa ham ni da Meori Apa An Jo A Yo

I don't know why I have put up with the bull shit for so long....

I haven't ever heard a positive comment out of my boss's mouth. I think if he did he would get struck by lightening or something. My boss hasn't said more than 3 words to me in the past 3 weeks. Its been nice but also tiring.

Today he put some comments in my notebook which was blatantly uncalled for and also ACWOT A Complete Waste of Time. Here it is in a nutshell.
Daily Progress Reports are messy. They are sometimes hard to read, they are sometimes put in Korean and I can't completely follow them but I just do my best. I put example
Chapter 2 A Tale of Two Seeds and I don't but the Lesson 1 or whatever. Big Deal. So my boss yelled at me because he couldn't prepare the new textbook. Its same as Vicki's or Christina's but he is truly being lazy. He has been really unapproachable for at least a month and so every Thursday I busy myself trying to get work done for him that he would like as fast as he wants it. If he wants something else he needs to come to me but he doesn't.

Email Teaching I don't think he listened to a word I said. He just wanted to make me feel bad. I forgot to do it a lot when I got here 9 months ago, now I do it twice a week. I have adjusted to time changes etc. What I don't do is write a good email.

Hi how are you?
I am fine.
What will you do this weekend?
I am going to watch a movie.
I hope you like classes
Are classes going well?


No one writes but he complains that there isn't much to these emails. I think its a crock of baloney.


Anyways my 25 minute meeting with him was worthless. He didn't think once about my situation. I have changed immensely over the last 10 months but nothing is good enough and I know that attitude will not get him far in life.

I understand his business scheme. The kids are little shits but they can treat me bad all they want as long as they are here. In other words, he honestly doesn't care about the teachers at all. Teachers are replaceable kids are not that is truly what he said. He is F***ng Crazy. Christina is an amazing teacher who devotes so much to the kids that when they walk over her or if they leave its upsetting. Our boss feels bad and gives us treats only because he wants us to be better so more kids will stay. It has nothing to do with teachers ability or not its simply they found something better. Its nuts.

Today I yelled a lot and said things that I shouldn't.
MA1: I explained to them that I was tired and sad and that I would try to have a good class and we did. I like the boys in that class. The girls not so much but the boys are actually interesting and try so I love teaching them.

I told Christina
Mori opa E Ruem Jeong: I have a headache its name is Mr. Jeong.


I think today was a bad day at work... The kids disrespect is amazing and its gotten me depressed and I really don't feel like trying for them anymore there isn't a kid who likes me here


That's OK though I don't need their satisfaction

They won't get me down because I got something special...

Alls not for Waste

Honey Kim

I woke up today so happy just knowing that even though work is often bad I have something that gets me going each day. I am determined to find new ways in making work more enjoyable and making life around Hyung-gok dong more interesting.

I talked to my 3 best friends over the course of the last 3 days and after talking to them its interesting to see where my life path and choices have lead me.
They say a picture is worth a thousand words but this one below is summed up in one. Its Love which is immeasurable:



A splendid day at the Park was my morning... It honestly was a wonderful morning in which I never wished it would have ended. These are priceless moments that are hard to come by and never forgotten.






Before work we had lunch at the park near work with Vicki sam. I like Vicki a lot. She is good with kids, and has a very open personality. It makes talking to her easy actually. I am not afraid of not telling her things. I haven't felt this way since Pearl was here and Vicki is as good as Pearl.







Work was easy for me. I had 3 classes. The kids weren't bad at all today they listened to me. I felt like I really wasn't teaching but rather floating. Unfortunately I still have a slightly small sore throat. Tomorrow doesn't bode well with 6 classes







Here is a picture of Christina and Vicki below






Work I want to make things as easy as possible for me and Christina. I ad an interesting conversation about Life with Vicki today.

I ended up sharing some of my dreams and hopes with her and I am trying desperately to find a way because my 10+months have been worth the struggle, abuse and waiting that I have done all in the hopes of a promise,

Building Blocks

Stories galore but I guess they will just have to wait until tomorrow morning because I realized that today in the morning writing a story in the morning would make sense.

Today I was very busy.
I went to the bookstore in the morning and got a new book about Afghanistan of all places. I think it will make for a nice read and its a book that should last me until May. i went to the hair Salon after the bookstore and got a haircut. I needed one I guess. My hair is a little shorter but still it could be more short.

Afterwards, I got some new contact cases because my eyes are still bothering me and I am a little worried about that.

I had a nice lunch with my darling. Unfortunately it was quite the picnic that I envisioned but I have a great picnic envisioned in my mind. Next time I will take her out on a picnic^^
Its going to be a wonderful hike and gorgeous waterfalls, sunny cliff. The food will be Machi so and the company will be priceless. Just the Two of us...ooooooh

Work is Work
I am going to stop the Class Report Section in my blog its kind of tiring.
Newsworthy: There were a few level ups. Some kids dropped and a few additions.
Teaching at the Academy is what it is. Kids come and go all the time and while I care about teaching and doing a great job for all of them, the lack of communication really hurts me. I have gotten used to it from the kids so if they are bad and drop usually I am fine. I just as soon not let the kids affect our lives~ I am looking forward to the day where Christina and I can teach at a higher level. She is dedicated and good at her job and I believe I would be better for teaching a higher level. I pray for many things here in Korea and one of them is that the two of us can find a wonderful job other than our soon to be Kims Restaurant and Grill. WE are going to be famous^^ mark my words


After work I went to the "wanna be" Kim Bob establishment and had Dongas. I needed a real meal I guess.

Well that's the short story of today.

I havent talked to my boss for at least a week. I am working hard or at least thinking I am. I am constantly looking for some way to make classes better and sometimes I can catch it and sometimes I can't but whatever I do I truly do want to be a good teacher and more so make my work count for something. Maybe I am missing something or not doing something that I should but whatever the case may be I am giving it my best shot.

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I dream of a better future. All I know is that I am where I want to be. There's a huge White heart on my bed and every time I look at it my mind is just going wild with thoughts of Do it For a better tomorrow. I am Building something and its my intent to see it complete.

April's Promise

April has started and with it has come a new hope and new chance for endless possibilities.

While this job hasn't always been a picnic I can at least have comfort in many things that I have.

Almost a year ago when I first decided to go to Korea I was hesitant because of the things that I would give up. I Love Missoula so much because I had everything at my disposal. I had many friends of whom I barely now know. I got around well in my community doing whatever I pleased and was happy just knowing that I could go anywhere and strike up a conversation with anyone.
I remember one night in particular where I got together with some friends that I have known since my freshman year and they talked about my Future of all things. I was a hot topic for conversation. Why I dont know. While it was flattering it sometimes got out of hand.

My friends decided to talk about Korea and wanted me to go. They thought I was foolish to believing in some of the ideals that I once held and even said that if I stayed in Missoula I would be making a huge mistake. This is a "once in a lifetime chance"

I was not so sure about Korea but it was at this moment that I decided that I had to go. While I was angry because they said they wouldn't talk to me anymore if I stayed I decided that since some of my good friends didnt want me in Missoula it was my time to leave.
I left too because I got tired of saying goodbye to everyone. Many people said goodbye never to return and I didnt want to be the last one in Missoula just to remember everyone coming and going. The more I think about it Missoula is a place to retire and enjoy the post work life. I told this to my best friend Peter a few days ago.
This was on a night way back in School when Peter, Steve and I drove to the top of the hill and looked at the mansions.
Oh Missoula


As I said I am thankful for coming here.

Since coming here I have had to grow up quite a lot. My wild carefree spirit had to be broken. In some ways it never will be broken but if you dont want to make it far in a company you can keep that spunk in you that is only noticeable in College students. College students think that they are the best because they are learning all about this responsibility and earning their degree at the same time. Little do they know that in the Real World Life isn't glossed over with weekend parties and easy escapes (whenever you want)to see a friend.

My appearance has undergone a total new look. I wear different clothes, I care more about my physique and presentation to the job.

My attitude about things is a lot more serious now than when I first got here. I got here in June thinking Work-work-play. I thought it would be much easier than it really is. Its a good thing I decided to be a teacher because I dont think I could have adapted under a different type of job.

I care more about my health than I used to. I am looking into Eye care and trying to avoid certain foods.

If you thought I was worried about Future planning before I left to go to Korea well now I am more concerned with figuring out Future possibilities. I am a serious person and I dont want to waste time doing things that are unimportant.

I am trying to find ways to improve work ever so slowly. It was a good start to the month because Mr. Jeong wasn't there and when he isn't there its less stressful.

I am just waiting to see what will happen for the rest of this month.

Today I got Syllabus and Report Cards Done. I am all set for this month. After next week I should have my Monthly Tests started! If I can I want to finish everything right now so We can relax at the end of the month.


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My April Promise
*My life is wonderful and everything that I have become I know its largely because of Christina. I have had my life enriched by her in many ways. I hope to keep climbing new heights and to never falter.

I will keep continuing my quest to make my self, life, relationship, and job better.

The Things that I do are important to me and I hold a strong value to what I do.

Down with March Hailing April

My my how does the time fly? I can only imagine and not see where all the time goes.

Month came in like a Lamb and is going out like a Lion I suppose one could say. This is referring to the weather the old adage goes. The Weather is cold is similar to Lion and lamb is peaceful and calm or in other words nice and sunny.

Following this way of thinking so was work at Yale. Carrie left in a huff and no one has really missed her presence. This has meant that I had 6 classes every Monday Wednesday and Friday. I didn't care so much because this has meant that my boss couldn't check up on my classes and this has made me happy. He had his own classes to teach.
Fortunately he hired a new teacher in the middle of the month and for the first time since i have been here he finally got it right. She may not be a good teacher but she cares a lot about kids and is really friendly. She is a bonus to have at work.

When Christina and I have our Kim's Restaurant Vicki can come and eat there sometime.
I am excited for that possibility Kim's can you imagine? Kimbob, Doll Collection, etc. it will be a nice place to rest and relax!

Since Vicki has arrived work is still stressful but it hasn't been as bad as it had been previously. I will admit I am sad that I will not get to work every Saturday with my darling but you know what they say absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Each Days passing makes me feel more and more happiness just being able to spend with Christina.

These last two weeks have brought on some more changes as well. I have had a handful of students leave and fewer decide to come see what will happen at the Academy. Its tough going actually. I yelled at a kid today who has not done anything for 3 weeks and me, Christina, Mr. Jeong and Vicki all have passed him by. I am being angrier with the kids because they ruin my classes and if they don't do homework or anything than it doesn't make sense for them to be bad. If you are really smart then you can goof off or play, but if you dont know what you are doing you should focus.

I am excited to see what April will bring.

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I leave March with the start of a promise to myself... Its very important to me that I find a way to be more understanding, open to suggestions, and ultimately a better person. I have been overcome with a lot of worry about Future happenings and I have a dream to make reality. I want to do whatever it will take in order to succeed upon this quest. I don't want to go home in 2.5 months and feel shame nor do I want to go home feeling like a Failure. I go forward in April with a stronger mindset and a following my heart. Its because I care so much that I want to face near to impossible tasks and give all of my heart. I am truly dedicated to what I have chosen to do in my Travel/journey.

So I bid you farewell March you treated me well and may April bring even more happiness and ultimately satisfaction. I am Always Open

-oholic Anonymous

Well its the last day of March

I went shopping today I bought a nice jacket at California Who.a.u
I had a nice sandwich with my darling and ran to work.
Work same story different day.
Monday Work schedule 6 classes
I got a sore throat from yelling to much and things are set for April. I didnt want to yell more since I need to save myself for another 2.5 months.

After work I went downtown with Aaron and we ate at Mr. Pizza.

All in all in wasn't a bad day but unfortunately way to fast.

.more on this one later as i need to write some more and get to bed...Im tired.

Crestfallen

Here I am on my one and only day off. I am not sure what to feel or do right now. I am still a little stuffed up and tired even though I haven't really done anything today.

The weather is cloudy/gray and perhaps this is the worst indication but people with Norwegian ancestry tend to suffer from depression especially with this type of weather. Personally, I don't know whats wrong with me but I am not really feeling good about much these days.

I am crashing ever so painfully slow. I came to Korea with promise and hope to become a teacher, learn about myself, Asia, Korea and find the answers to what I was looking for. Instead I have just created confusion, more questions and ended/ruined things that I had before. I have alienated many friends with my new lifestyle~ I have made my best friend completely disregard me for reasons I am not entirely sure. I can't understand Korean Culture no matter how hard I try.


I don't know what I am doing wrong but whatever it is I wish I could figure it out. I am slowly disintegrating into despair and wish I could find an answer.

I am willing to do whatever I can do just to make anything work but I am not sure I have the ability anymore.