Saturday work .... I went to work feeling a little blue. Sometimes I wake up and I feel alone in Korea. I live alone and I dont get many calls from my friends and I am unable to really travel much.
Work wasnt that interesting today. I punished Liam and Tom for talking. I am trying to get the classes to have more respect for me and to talk in english.
TC1 is my new favorite class. They are all respectful actually.
The TD classes are trying to get restructured and the students are dropping or not coming everyday so its hard to find rhythm.
I had one student in my last class and I felt like I was wasting my time.
After classes ended I went to lunch with my best student. This was the first time and hopefully not the last time. I enjoyed his company and unfortunately he told me he was dropping this week. My best student actually. He is always really respectful and nice.
I wish I could have done more for him but I am always focusing on how to survive the class and not help the good students more. Its always the best that leave. He told me that Kendra doesnt like me at all. I wish she had left and not him.
I really dont like some of the kids because of their rudeness and inability to try.
We had a good time together. He played some computer games at my house and we just spent the afternoon together.
After Sungjin went to his other Academy I went to Downtown to hang out with Aaron. Ended up walking all the way from my house to his hour in Dori yang. We later went to a place to eat and had pork and then later went to a Singing room.
i enjoyed the Singing room a lot i went with Aaron and his friend jamie. jamie is a good singer. I sang so much and so loud that I lost my voice and cant talk. I had a lot of fun though.
I missed my darling though a lot today. I spent a lot of time thinking about work, Korea and I am still not thinking of it in the right way. I know that things aren't the way I would like them to be. I want more than anything to find a way that would make everyone happy. There are a lot of things that are scaring me as I make my way in my travels around Gumi or Korea in general.
The road ahead is looking promising in my mind and I plan to keep it that way.
I am on a path looking to make positive changes in any way I can and after the closure of this work week I am bracing myself for another busy one and the great things that are yet to come..
Edit to come later..
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Friday, March 7, 2008
Life in the fast lane
I always thought life back home was too slow and it felt like I was just waiting for something to happen. Here its the revers except I spend a lot of time hoping and waiting for things that will not happen. For example, if I finish a conversation I am happy but I always feel like I have to save my conversation for a later time.
I can't wait until time will go slower. I feel like I am at this post each night faster than lickety split... Its another days closure yet again....
Life at the Academy continue to go on. I realize that everything is in a state of limbo and the mass confusion will be there tomorrow same time same place. Its best to just pretend your are somewhere else.
I had a change of heart though today. I like the new Ma1 class. The new girls are so respectful and the boys are well... they listen and are more interesting than any of the boys in MA2 except for Ben. I like him. and maybe Chris. The youngest boy. even though he bit me. Crazy kid Me long...
I taught 6 classes today. I had a nice break after my second class. i did absolutely nothing.
MYwork schedule this week~6-4-6-4-6-4....
I dont like 6 classes.
Mr. Jeong said to me today and I quote, " 6 classes for me isn't work, I just have so much other things to do.... (not Academy work) I dont know how he does it. His academy could be a lot better if he cared more about what was happening to it.
Christina was telling me about one of the kids moms complaining about my homework. I hate my homework it seems unchallenging. You copy the workbook that I did in class and you translate it. They have their student book and vocabulary book with most if not all of the answers. SUKJAE SUKJAE SUKJAE.. its too important there I think its not very helpful. I dont know if the kids do it correctly or if its wrong but there is no way to grade it. I quit looking at my students notebooks a long time ago because there was never anytime. MY boss hasn't said anything to me and I am just waiting for him to do so... He has a hard lesson to learn I think.
Today I was a mean teacher. I warned the kids that I am not going to take any disrespect starting in March. I told them go ahead talk dont listen to me in March I will punish you severly.
Today~ I made a girl cry because she refused to answer me in English. "I dont know" is ok but they dont even try. I used to like her a lot almost as much as Molly but she has gone downhill since levelling up unfortunately. (I blame Carrie)
I gave extra homework to many of the kids andhopefully they will leave.
Back to complaining mom: I am sick of hearing complaints. Tell your children to quit being little SH**s in class and listen to their teacher and then they will understand. IF they can't I seriously hope they leave. It makes Christina and I's job easier. Less kids to say "good job" too.
Our boss's method of praising them doesnt fit well with me. I am not going to be a Kojimar (liar) and tell them Great Job when they say: Nick Crazy, Nick stupid or I dont like Nick, or Christina? or anything else that gets my goat. I am sick of it. I have been bottlenecking things for 8 months this is unhealthy.
Unfortunately I dont think I am a good teacher for Mr. Jeong my teaching philosophy is totally different from his. I dont want to "be there" just to keep his kids so he has the money. I think the kids should be there to learn and if they aren't going to learn from me then they should quit. I have a lot to offer and I want to give my best to the kids who want to learn I think that doing sloppy work just to keep the kids there is ridiculous.
We need a new computer, new copier, a new teacher, less classes, better supplies, a Time Schedule. Kids can only come on the first of every month first monday. I hate getting a new kid this week only to see them quit next week.
Whenever we get a new kid I hope its for Mr. Jeongs class.
I am currently looking for a new job. I want to find a job for when i finish in June. I am not sure what that will be and frankly I am a little worried because I havent found anything yet.
Time is going by so fast.
~I am going to bed happy though for I know that even though work isn't the best I still have a lot to be Thankful for and I hope that never changes.
More soon...
I can't wait until time will go slower. I feel like I am at this post each night faster than lickety split... Its another days closure yet again....
Life at the Academy continue to go on. I realize that everything is in a state of limbo and the mass confusion will be there tomorrow same time same place. Its best to just pretend your are somewhere else.
I had a change of heart though today. I like the new Ma1 class. The new girls are so respectful and the boys are well... they listen and are more interesting than any of the boys in MA2 except for Ben. I like him. and maybe Chris. The youngest boy. even though he bit me. Crazy kid Me long...
I taught 6 classes today. I had a nice break after my second class. i did absolutely nothing.
MYwork schedule this week~6-4-6-4-6-4....
I dont like 6 classes.
Mr. Jeong said to me today and I quote, " 6 classes for me isn't work, I just have so much other things to do.... (not Academy work) I dont know how he does it. His academy could be a lot better if he cared more about what was happening to it.
Christina was telling me about one of the kids moms complaining about my homework. I hate my homework it seems unchallenging. You copy the workbook that I did in class and you translate it. They have their student book and vocabulary book with most if not all of the answers. SUKJAE SUKJAE SUKJAE.. its too important there I think its not very helpful. I dont know if the kids do it correctly or if its wrong but there is no way to grade it. I quit looking at my students notebooks a long time ago because there was never anytime. MY boss hasn't said anything to me and I am just waiting for him to do so... He has a hard lesson to learn I think.
Today I was a mean teacher. I warned the kids that I am not going to take any disrespect starting in March. I told them go ahead talk dont listen to me in March I will punish you severly.
Today~ I made a girl cry because she refused to answer me in English. "I dont know" is ok but they dont even try. I used to like her a lot almost as much as Molly but she has gone downhill since levelling up unfortunately. (I blame Carrie)
I gave extra homework to many of the kids andhopefully they will leave.
Back to complaining mom: I am sick of hearing complaints. Tell your children to quit being little SH**s in class and listen to their teacher and then they will understand. IF they can't I seriously hope they leave. It makes Christina and I's job easier. Less kids to say "good job" too.
Our boss's method of praising them doesnt fit well with me. I am not going to be a Kojimar (liar) and tell them Great Job when they say: Nick Crazy, Nick stupid or I dont like Nick, or Christina? or anything else that gets my goat. I am sick of it. I have been bottlenecking things for 8 months this is unhealthy.
Unfortunately I dont think I am a good teacher for Mr. Jeong my teaching philosophy is totally different from his. I dont want to "be there" just to keep his kids so he has the money. I think the kids should be there to learn and if they aren't going to learn from me then they should quit. I have a lot to offer and I want to give my best to the kids who want to learn I think that doing sloppy work just to keep the kids there is ridiculous.
We need a new computer, new copier, a new teacher, less classes, better supplies, a Time Schedule. Kids can only come on the first of every month first monday. I hate getting a new kid this week only to see them quit next week.
Whenever we get a new kid I hope its for Mr. Jeongs class.
I am currently looking for a new job. I want to find a job for when i finish in June. I am not sure what that will be and frankly I am a little worried because I havent found anything yet.
Time is going by so fast.
~I am going to bed happy though for I know that even though work isn't the best I still have a lot to be Thankful for and I hope that never changes.
More soon...
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Floating
I am staring at a present I was given a long time ago. Its a bear who is at a podium inside a snow ball glass ball with the word Fighting inscribed on the front
Its perhaps my motivation right now. I talked on the phone today and was told in a round about way that I am too personal in my writing/etc. Frankly, I dont have anything to hide and I really dont think I am too personal. I am vague but I do like to write and mention all of my thoughts. I feel this is one of the only ways I can escape.
The mood around work is dark and unfortunately negative lately. I thought this month would be wonderful but unfortunately it hasn't started yet. Maybe I have been too negative. Is it possible that I am too judgemental or causing people to be unhappy?
I am drifitng/floating my way through classes and just preparing barely enough to survive the day. Today being Thursday brought a new schedule yet again and I really hope that it will benefit me and Christina better. Its amazing how much of a peny pincher my boss is.
As a result of his cheapness the Academy is getting worse. These last few days I have felt that its gone downhill. I am trying my best to succeed and make it but right now my motivation for work is invested into something much more important.
The search for happiness is a life long quest unfortunately but I do know what makes me happy here and how much I am willing to "fight" to keep it. I can't express enough how much I want to learn and find a way in Korea as well as in general.
I will write more on this later.
Its perhaps my motivation right now. I talked on the phone today and was told in a round about way that I am too personal in my writing/etc. Frankly, I dont have anything to hide and I really dont think I am too personal. I am vague but I do like to write and mention all of my thoughts. I feel this is one of the only ways I can escape.
The mood around work is dark and unfortunately negative lately. I thought this month would be wonderful but unfortunately it hasn't started yet. Maybe I have been too negative. Is it possible that I am too judgemental or causing people to be unhappy?
I am drifitng/floating my way through classes and just preparing barely enough to survive the day. Today being Thursday brought a new schedule yet again and I really hope that it will benefit me and Christina better. Its amazing how much of a peny pincher my boss is.
As a result of his cheapness the Academy is getting worse. These last few days I have felt that its gone downhill. I am trying my best to succeed and make it but right now my motivation for work is invested into something much more important.
The search for happiness is a life long quest unfortunately but I do know what makes me happy here and how much I am willing to "fight" to keep it. I can't express enough how much I want to learn and find a way in Korea as well as in general.
I will write more on this later.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
The Festering Cacophony
March is here and unfortunately its showing its ugly self. Monday Wednesday and Friday are going to be hard days. I haven't felt like I have been teaching at all this week but rather just riding out the schedule change. I am a showcase on display with no true way to teach my abilities. None of the kids like it.
MY classes are in decline. I am losing kids faster than the sun rises and they dont even bother to tell me. I am now stuck with mostly girls of whom I dont really care for. I like the younger class now. They are learning the ABCs its not as stressful and I think I can manage the morning period better.
Today I had 6 classes as did Christina. WE had the same break but unfotunately she had a headache and I was feeling bad due to the situation looming before us.
I came to some harsh realizations today...
I can't fix the problems of this place. Our boss is driven only for $$$ I hate this symbol so much. It has destroyed the human will and spirit. To have no money you are free but you can't do anything you are restricted so everyone follows the almighty dollar. I didnt come to Korea because I would make so much money~ I came because I wanted to free my mind.
My boss doesnt care or give one iota about the education the children receive but rather how many kids he can cram into the school room.
I have known this for monts because when it comes to kids not having textbooks he uses scrap paper to get by. The kids have poor quality materials and this is because they either come late in the month or they are too lazy to buy the school supplies. I care a lot about the quality of my work that I give to the kids and therefore want to have a nice textbook to give them but its hard to watch the kids totally dismantle my work. I made questions to hard or too easy and they dont even try to answer. Sometimes I doubt my ability to stay here for 12 months.
Christina and I are in need of change. There are problems here that need to be addressed. Christina and I have proven that we are the best assets at Yale but our boss doesnt appreciate enough.
Our boss told us we need to praise the kids because they are unmotivated. I said hi, how are you with nothing but care in my way and E-Tae just looked at me and said What? And not what like I dont understand but What as in Why?
Class Report
MB1: Quick and Easy Rick is back. New student again. I have only taught the class twice and now new student.
MB2: Definitely one of the worst classes. They literally look brain dead. I feel bad because I wanted to get Frank and Jones(E-taes) motivated but they are not succeeding. I want to have some kids move up because its a problem
MC1: I finished the textbook as best as I could before I begin a new one. Its crap. The kids dont have the material its a waiting game.
MC2: Same thing. I actually did teach a lesson in their new book.
MD1: NO ANGEL, Kerri was sick and Sungmin is doing his old tricks. I hope he leaves again.
MD2: My last class angered me. They ruined my handout and they flat out didnt care about the class.
I have given up. I dont like the endless banterring in Korean. I dont like punishing and thinking its going to make the situation better. I am thinking I should move to cruel and unusual punishment.
Chris U Ta Ge: Head butts me. He is a loner. No kids like him. His brother fights with him. There is nothing ever done. I leave notes but they aren't working.
My boss yelled at me for leaving class today yet he had to leave his class to say this to me. He is the director so I guess his rules dont apply to him.
*If I found a new job tomorrow I would quit. I dont want to quit because I want to believe that there is a way to make it better but I am beginging to doubt it. I am saddened that my boss is treating Christina bad as well. She works so hard and she always has. I never have heard her not care but our boss is starting to turn her feeling. MR. Jeong is a selfish stupid man I have come to that conclusion.
He is nice to me when he wants something or when he doesnt care but when it comes to running his academy he is careless and dumb. The kids dont like him. His policies/law dont work and he is just for show.
I am the only foreigner here at this academy. I am the only one who works Saturdays in Gumi and its just a way to insure customers. My personal dream is to find a great job, take Christina with me and watch his Academy crash like the bonds he invests in so much. This man needs a dose or reality.
I felt like crying so much today after classes because it is hopeless. I dont think my friends or family can understand the life I am living. I walk into Yale and I think how nice. Its a business and its clean and looks very professional but then I see the mold behind the mask and the Cacophony that follows me around like a posion slowly eroding the tissue in my skin.
I am Teaching to the wind as my words fall on deaf ears. I have an iron fist that is ruling irrationally and behind this there is only darkness.
Tomorrow I will go to work and forget the whole thing since I only teach 2-4 classes tomorrow. My boss is losing bigtime and he doesnt know how bad yet.
God I hope for a Miracle
MY classes are in decline. I am losing kids faster than the sun rises and they dont even bother to tell me. I am now stuck with mostly girls of whom I dont really care for. I like the younger class now. They are learning the ABCs its not as stressful and I think I can manage the morning period better.
Today I had 6 classes as did Christina. WE had the same break but unfotunately she had a headache and I was feeling bad due to the situation looming before us.
I came to some harsh realizations today...
I can't fix the problems of this place. Our boss is driven only for $$$ I hate this symbol so much. It has destroyed the human will and spirit. To have no money you are free but you can't do anything you are restricted so everyone follows the almighty dollar. I didnt come to Korea because I would make so much money~ I came because I wanted to free my mind.
My boss doesnt care or give one iota about the education the children receive but rather how many kids he can cram into the school room.
I have known this for monts because when it comes to kids not having textbooks he uses scrap paper to get by. The kids have poor quality materials and this is because they either come late in the month or they are too lazy to buy the school supplies. I care a lot about the quality of my work that I give to the kids and therefore want to have a nice textbook to give them but its hard to watch the kids totally dismantle my work. I made questions to hard or too easy and they dont even try to answer. Sometimes I doubt my ability to stay here for 12 months.
Christina and I are in need of change. There are problems here that need to be addressed. Christina and I have proven that we are the best assets at Yale but our boss doesnt appreciate enough.
Our boss told us we need to praise the kids because they are unmotivated. I said hi, how are you with nothing but care in my way and E-Tae just looked at me and said What? And not what like I dont understand but What as in Why?
Class Report
MB1: Quick and Easy Rick is back. New student again. I have only taught the class twice and now new student.
MB2: Definitely one of the worst classes. They literally look brain dead. I feel bad because I wanted to get Frank and Jones(E-taes) motivated but they are not succeeding. I want to have some kids move up because its a problem
MC1: I finished the textbook as best as I could before I begin a new one. Its crap. The kids dont have the material its a waiting game.
MC2: Same thing. I actually did teach a lesson in their new book.
MD1: NO ANGEL, Kerri was sick and Sungmin is doing his old tricks. I hope he leaves again.
MD2: My last class angered me. They ruined my handout and they flat out didnt care about the class.
I have given up. I dont like the endless banterring in Korean. I dont like punishing and thinking its going to make the situation better. I am thinking I should move to cruel and unusual punishment.
Chris U Ta Ge: Head butts me. He is a loner. No kids like him. His brother fights with him. There is nothing ever done. I leave notes but they aren't working.
My boss yelled at me for leaving class today yet he had to leave his class to say this to me. He is the director so I guess his rules dont apply to him.
*If I found a new job tomorrow I would quit. I dont want to quit because I want to believe that there is a way to make it better but I am beginging to doubt it. I am saddened that my boss is treating Christina bad as well. She works so hard and she always has. I never have heard her not care but our boss is starting to turn her feeling. MR. Jeong is a selfish stupid man I have come to that conclusion.
He is nice to me when he wants something or when he doesnt care but when it comes to running his academy he is careless and dumb. The kids dont like him. His policies/law dont work and he is just for show.
I am the only foreigner here at this academy. I am the only one who works Saturdays in Gumi and its just a way to insure customers. My personal dream is to find a great job, take Christina with me and watch his Academy crash like the bonds he invests in so much. This man needs a dose or reality.
I felt like crying so much today after classes because it is hopeless. I dont think my friends or family can understand the life I am living. I walk into Yale and I think how nice. Its a business and its clean and looks very professional but then I see the mold behind the mask and the Cacophony that follows me around like a posion slowly eroding the tissue in my skin.
I am Teaching to the wind as my words fall on deaf ears. I have an iron fist that is ruling irrationally and behind this there is only darkness.
Tomorrow I will go to work and forget the whole thing since I only teach 2-4 classes tomorrow. My boss is losing bigtime and he doesnt know how bad yet.
God I hope for a Miracle
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Making Corrections
As I have said in other posts there isn't much consistency at Yale. Christina and I have been constant since I arrived. We are the only 2 teachers who have survived the Transformations of MR. Jeong.
The Academy is being run by Mr. Jeong, Christina, and myself. We are all really busy with teaching classes and due to the schedule change its causing some mistakes that need fixing.
Today I spent the day trying to better prepare myself for the new arrivals and update information. I think I can spend 3 weeks doing this. Its going to take awhile for it to get back on target and be comfortable again.
I have a great Tuesday and Thursday Schedule. Actually MWF are just bad days for everyone. We all have 6 classes with a limited break. The only good news, is that there is no chances for being watched and interupted.
I think Mr. Jeong needs to ease up on me and Christina his demands are too high and out of this world. In order to appease him the Academy needs more kids. Sometimes I feel like I am just cleaning up messes before they get out of hand. Our boss makes work more difficult than it needs to be. If I just play with the kids right now I think it would be ok. The kids need to have good feeling because they may leave.
Today I worked hard. I updated my email system, put together a textbook for Christina to use in her class, wrote my lessons for the week, taught 4 classes and made some copies for kids tomorrow. I think I need to do more though.
I am hoping to make some big projects before I leave here and hope that in the next 3 weeks I can change the format of the classes.
I am giving names to many of the kids and also I am trying to make a few textbooks more fun.
MY boss is too busy playing Director and teacher that its hard to do anything. Right now I think he is in a nice mood because he realizes the problems of the Academy right now. He needs Christina and I a lot. To be honest I hope to find a way to make his Academy more successful before I leave, but I also realize my limitations.
I will do as much as I can to see that the kids can get their materials they need in order to understand my classes. I hope that this week will go by smoothly and that things can get better.
I know that things are the worst that they can be right now. I see where I can improve things and am attempting to do just that. I am convinced that this is the month of goodness!
Todays Class Schedule!
Ma1: The youngest kids there is no longer an MA2 THANK GOD!!! This means that this class will have at least two months of AMERICAN GET READY and that means just basic play. What is this what is that! EASY
TC2: This used to be my MD1 class. I am making a textbook for them. The bad news is that Liam is now involved and today he was not himself. It was strange. Liam causes so many hardships for me that I was overjoyed when he left. he was a pain to have here. Today he was mature and I was shocked. This is quite a revelation to me.
TD2: This was my old TC1 class. There is a few new girls and some of them used to be old students. I am surprised actually.
TD1: I feel bad for Rose. I am not sure what has happened but Nic dropped, Heidi and catherine were absent and Eric from Tc2 was gone. I sure hope its not just Tc2 girls. I dont care for anyone in that class except Rose. I yelled at Sunha because I am tired of her attitude.
I will be brutally honest. I hope she quits somehow. There are many kids I dont like and its because of how they treat me as a person. They dont take the time to understand me or respect my policies. I think Sunha was going to cry today though because I yelled at her and I didnt hold back.
MR. Jeong wants me to give praise well I dont give praise to a student who draw pictures and stares at the desk while my star student is answering questions and taking notes. I expect students to listen to me. Sometimes its ok to not listen everyone has a bad day but Sunha has had nothing but a bad time. How are you? so so. Sunha? what.... There is nothing there.
Please pray with me that she will leave. I had 17 students now I have 20-22 I think.
Christina has 63 and 7 classes its not right I dont think. I am going to try to handle more soon if I can.
Whatever the consequences of the day bring its not important to let it affect or ruin our lives or day.
I know that things will get better!! I am going to find a new and better job after June..I am worried a lot about that but the answer will come I just have to search for it.
After work I went to a couple tents. I enjoy the Odang and Taboki and other things. I had some fried chicken and relaxed.
BUSY BUSY BUSY
Tomorrow is Wendesday! Its nice...
More on this later
The Academy is being run by Mr. Jeong, Christina, and myself. We are all really busy with teaching classes and due to the schedule change its causing some mistakes that need fixing.
Today I spent the day trying to better prepare myself for the new arrivals and update information. I think I can spend 3 weeks doing this. Its going to take awhile for it to get back on target and be comfortable again.
I have a great Tuesday and Thursday Schedule. Actually MWF are just bad days for everyone. We all have 6 classes with a limited break. The only good news, is that there is no chances for being watched and interupted.
I think Mr. Jeong needs to ease up on me and Christina his demands are too high and out of this world. In order to appease him the Academy needs more kids. Sometimes I feel like I am just cleaning up messes before they get out of hand. Our boss makes work more difficult than it needs to be. If I just play with the kids right now I think it would be ok. The kids need to have good feeling because they may leave.
Today I worked hard. I updated my email system, put together a textbook for Christina to use in her class, wrote my lessons for the week, taught 4 classes and made some copies for kids tomorrow. I think I need to do more though.
I am hoping to make some big projects before I leave here and hope that in the next 3 weeks I can change the format of the classes.
I am giving names to many of the kids and also I am trying to make a few textbooks more fun.
MY boss is too busy playing Director and teacher that its hard to do anything. Right now I think he is in a nice mood because he realizes the problems of the Academy right now. He needs Christina and I a lot. To be honest I hope to find a way to make his Academy more successful before I leave, but I also realize my limitations.
I will do as much as I can to see that the kids can get their materials they need in order to understand my classes. I hope that this week will go by smoothly and that things can get better.
I know that things are the worst that they can be right now. I see where I can improve things and am attempting to do just that. I am convinced that this is the month of goodness!
Todays Class Schedule!
Ma1: The youngest kids there is no longer an MA2 THANK GOD!!! This means that this class will have at least two months of AMERICAN GET READY and that means just basic play. What is this what is that! EASY
TC2: This used to be my MD1 class. I am making a textbook for them. The bad news is that Liam is now involved and today he was not himself. It was strange. Liam causes so many hardships for me that I was overjoyed when he left. he was a pain to have here. Today he was mature and I was shocked. This is quite a revelation to me.
TD2: This was my old TC1 class. There is a few new girls and some of them used to be old students. I am surprised actually.
TD1: I feel bad for Rose. I am not sure what has happened but Nic dropped, Heidi and catherine were absent and Eric from Tc2 was gone. I sure hope its not just Tc2 girls. I dont care for anyone in that class except Rose. I yelled at Sunha because I am tired of her attitude.
I will be brutally honest. I hope she quits somehow. There are many kids I dont like and its because of how they treat me as a person. They dont take the time to understand me or respect my policies. I think Sunha was going to cry today though because I yelled at her and I didnt hold back.
MR. Jeong wants me to give praise well I dont give praise to a student who draw pictures and stares at the desk while my star student is answering questions and taking notes. I expect students to listen to me. Sometimes its ok to not listen everyone has a bad day but Sunha has had nothing but a bad time. How are you? so so. Sunha? what.... There is nothing there.
Please pray with me that she will leave. I had 17 students now I have 20-22 I think.
Christina has 63 and 7 classes its not right I dont think. I am going to try to handle more soon if I can.
Whatever the consequences of the day bring its not important to let it affect or ruin our lives or day.
I know that things will get better!! I am going to find a new and better job after June..I am worried a lot about that but the answer will come I just have to search for it.
After work I went to a couple tents. I enjoy the Odang and Taboki and other things. I had some fried chicken and relaxed.
BUSY BUSY BUSY
Tomorrow is Wendesday! Its nice...
Monday, March 3, 2008
Schedule Adjustment
And Now the moment of Truth has been unveiled. I am now witnessing the makings of a new schedule change and perhaps it will work out better!
I still teach 30 classes a week but it seems like it will be more balanced. I have 6-4-6-4-6-4 schedule so that's good.
March is going to be my month I have been dreaming of this week since mid February! I am seriously hoping that my teaching can improve this month and carry me through the rest of my contract here.
Today there was no Carrie! The only bad thing about this, is that there is only Christina, me and Mr. Jeong. It wasn't stressful at all. During our 5 minute break periods I didnt hear any complaining and there wasn't any problems. When I am at work I prefer personally just to accept things how they are and enjoy things. When Carrie was here I always felt so much negativity.
There are some issues with the new schedule that I can already see as problems. I want to spent my Tuesdays and Thursday trying to make a way to prepare for my classes better. I know that many kids are lacking some books and vocabulary so I want to get copies for them if I can.
I also need my attendance books because I need to give the students there names and also see just how many report cards/etc. I need to make. Its going to be a busy first 2 weeks I am sure.
There is no MA2 anymore. MB2 is no longer a 5 day a week class and therefore its been moved to a MWF two times a day class. I think MB2. There is no longer a cow class. Mb2 last month were just like cattle but the herd has literally entered new pasures and this new mix may just open their minds to new possibilities.
I taught MB3. MB3 was the only MA2 class. Unfortunately I had my youngest kid go from happy to an emotional breakdown. HE hasn't really dont any homework for a few weeks and he only fights with his brother. I dont care for his brother too much he doesnt stop and listen to me. I yelled at him to stop fighting with his brother. Maybe because I used to push my brother around all the time but it wasn't really good for him. I should go home and push him around though...right Gawk?
(you probably dont read this)
MB1: The new class is only 4 students and they are the remnants of the Ma1 class. Rick my star in the mornings dropped that silly little boy. I could use some Rick loving actually haha.
The mornings are looking to be better without the congested office. I dont really like having so many kids in our cramped little office.
MC3: The paper work and fast paced book making is going to pose a problem. Its hard to teach kids with books who aren't interested in learning much less kids who dont have material at all. I dont know if they could have bought the books when they registered or if their is some problem with the ordering but its going to be a problem for a week.
MC1: This class wasn't so bad today. The mix of Mb1-Mb2 classes really did it good. Luvada may just be my favorite. She told Luis to stop and Luis for the most part was quiet.
MD3: The old MC3 class with some new additions. I really want to turn this class around. The MC3 kids are not motivated at all and hopefully this month they will change.
MD1: A lot of fun I like my old MC2 class and now it may be good.
I am not excited to see Liam tomorrow he was so bad and I am sure he hasn't changed. I am going to punish him so much if he does anything because I am sick of it.
This new schedule is going so well I am going to enjoy this month deep down inside I know this.
The fast paced life in this society may wear me out but I will not sink below yet. I am going to stay strong. Its the month of change and the month of truly finding myself.
I cooked a wonderful meal for my darling in the morning albeit it wasnt the finest but I was able to eat well and enjoy her company. Things are going well and I can't complain of boredom. I seriously think it was reading the Secret that turned my mind around.
If I could do Korea all over again I think I would have came with a tougher mindset. I know now that there is very little that can ruin my peace of mind. I feel rich inside and it mainly has to do with the fact of what I have accomplished since coming here almost 9 months ago.
I am headed for Tomorrow...
I still teach 30 classes a week but it seems like it will be more balanced. I have 6-4-6-4-6-4 schedule so that's good.
March is going to be my month I have been dreaming of this week since mid February! I am seriously hoping that my teaching can improve this month and carry me through the rest of my contract here.
Today there was no Carrie! The only bad thing about this, is that there is only Christina, me and Mr. Jeong. It wasn't stressful at all. During our 5 minute break periods I didnt hear any complaining and there wasn't any problems. When I am at work I prefer personally just to accept things how they are and enjoy things. When Carrie was here I always felt so much negativity.
There are some issues with the new schedule that I can already see as problems. I want to spent my Tuesdays and Thursday trying to make a way to prepare for my classes better. I know that many kids are lacking some books and vocabulary so I want to get copies for them if I can.
I also need my attendance books because I need to give the students there names and also see just how many report cards/etc. I need to make. Its going to be a busy first 2 weeks I am sure.
There is no MA2 anymore. MB2 is no longer a 5 day a week class and therefore its been moved to a MWF two times a day class. I think MB2. There is no longer a cow class. Mb2 last month were just like cattle but the herd has literally entered new pasures and this new mix may just open their minds to new possibilities.
I taught MB3. MB3 was the only MA2 class. Unfortunately I had my youngest kid go from happy to an emotional breakdown. HE hasn't really dont any homework for a few weeks and he only fights with his brother. I dont care for his brother too much he doesnt stop and listen to me. I yelled at him to stop fighting with his brother. Maybe because I used to push my brother around all the time but it wasn't really good for him. I should go home and push him around though...right Gawk?
(you probably dont read this)
MB1: The new class is only 4 students and they are the remnants of the Ma1 class. Rick my star in the mornings dropped that silly little boy. I could use some Rick loving actually haha.
The mornings are looking to be better without the congested office. I dont really like having so many kids in our cramped little office.
MC3: The paper work and fast paced book making is going to pose a problem. Its hard to teach kids with books who aren't interested in learning much less kids who dont have material at all. I dont know if they could have bought the books when they registered or if their is some problem with the ordering but its going to be a problem for a week.
MC1: This class wasn't so bad today. The mix of Mb1-Mb2 classes really did it good. Luvada may just be my favorite. She told Luis to stop and Luis for the most part was quiet.
MD3: The old MC3 class with some new additions. I really want to turn this class around. The MC3 kids are not motivated at all and hopefully this month they will change.
MD1: A lot of fun I like my old MC2 class and now it may be good.
I am not excited to see Liam tomorrow he was so bad and I am sure he hasn't changed. I am going to punish him so much if he does anything because I am sick of it.
This new schedule is going so well I am going to enjoy this month deep down inside I know this.
The fast paced life in this society may wear me out but I will not sink below yet. I am going to stay strong. Its the month of change and the month of truly finding myself.
I cooked a wonderful meal for my darling in the morning albeit it wasnt the finest but I was able to eat well and enjoy her company. Things are going well and I can't complain of boredom. I seriously think it was reading the Secret that turned my mind around.
If I could do Korea all over again I think I would have came with a tougher mindset. I know now that there is very little that can ruin my peace of mind. I feel rich inside and it mainly has to do with the fact of what I have accomplished since coming here almost 9 months ago.
I am headed for Tomorrow...
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Running Around Gumi Helter Skelter
I think I saw all of Gumi today and mostly on foot!
In the morning I overslept a few hours. I got up at 9 usually I get up at 8 or sooner. I went to the Train Station at 12:40 to meet my darling for lunch. We had a nice pasta dish at the Balena^^
The man that works there speaks English actually. I needed to take my camera but unfortunately I forgot it, starting tomorrow I will take some pictures.
After lunch we went to President Park's house. He was a great man in my opinion, despite being a dictator. He wanted to help Korea. His quote is:
"Give my entire life for my mother Country and my people" I think he was a visionary and also someone who knew what he was doing. Unfortunately he got shot. I want to go back there and see more of his life someday. I was so happy to share this experience with my girlfriend. Seeing Korea with her makes me enjoy Korea. I still do love learning about other cultures and seeing how things were historical geography if you will. I want to understand where we come from more.
After this we talked about historical things for awhile and went to Loteria for a burger and chicken. I couldn't think of a better way to spend Sunday^^
WE took a bus back to the Terminal where I walked home for 30 minutes at least. I got home only to later hop in a Taxi to a place called Door il yang to meet my friend Aaron. WE talked about Korea and I actually got some new ideas to practice for this week~ the busy work week...
After staying at his house until 10pm I walked/ran home. I was in a hurry to get home but I ended up running into another friend of mine-Ryan so he and I had some oranges and walked home...
I walked so much today and I think I should excersize more.
It was a nice way to end Sunday and prepare for a busy work week. This week I am going to work really hard because I need to get a lot of things done both at work and personal. Its my hope to finish this first week in March ahead of things. Nose to the grindstone so to speak.
I want to make every weekend like this one!
Sunday is my free day! Oh wait Am I busy I think so. More later...
Its back to work and as I said time to prepare for a busy work week schedule whatever.
In the morning I overslept a few hours. I got up at 9 usually I get up at 8 or sooner. I went to the Train Station at 12:40 to meet my darling for lunch. We had a nice pasta dish at the Balena^^
The man that works there speaks English actually. I needed to take my camera but unfortunately I forgot it, starting tomorrow I will take some pictures.
After lunch we went to President Park's house. He was a great man in my opinion, despite being a dictator. He wanted to help Korea. His quote is:
"Give my entire life for my mother Country and my people" I think he was a visionary and also someone who knew what he was doing. Unfortunately he got shot. I want to go back there and see more of his life someday. I was so happy to share this experience with my girlfriend. Seeing Korea with her makes me enjoy Korea. I still do love learning about other cultures and seeing how things were historical geography if you will. I want to understand where we come from more.
After this we talked about historical things for awhile and went to Loteria for a burger and chicken. I couldn't think of a better way to spend Sunday^^
WE took a bus back to the Terminal where I walked home for 30 minutes at least. I got home only to later hop in a Taxi to a place called Door il yang to meet my friend Aaron. WE talked about Korea and I actually got some new ideas to practice for this week~ the busy work week...
After staying at his house until 10pm I walked/ran home. I was in a hurry to get home but I ended up running into another friend of mine-Ryan so he and I had some oranges and walked home...
I walked so much today and I think I should excersize more.
It was a nice way to end Sunday and prepare for a busy work week. This week I am going to work really hard because I need to get a lot of things done both at work and personal. Its my hope to finish this first week in March ahead of things. Nose to the grindstone so to speak.
I want to make every weekend like this one!
Sunday is my free day! Oh wait Am I busy I think so. More later...
Its back to work and as I said time to prepare for a busy work week schedule whatever.
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