Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Bloggers End

A phone call in the morning prompted me to action. I was so tired and hadn't slept well last night but yet again another unnerving phone call lambasted me to action.

I would like to fix some misconstrued claims that I have. People everywhere have these mis perceptions about me or people's way of life that require Education to be prevalent in society.

I have heard many people say that my Blogs are too sensitive or personal. I write too much opinions about any subject from A-Z. In my opinion, there is no subject too taboo. I censor my blogs as it is and what I put in I feel is important. I am going to try to give a detailed description of simply factual based information. I personally feel that if my writing is getting a rise out of people then it is doing its job. I report my happenings as I see it. I try to be as forthcoming and honest as I possibly can and it rancors me when people misconstrue or fail to even submit a question via email, blog or even a phone call etc.

When people read the news most of the time they take no action. Its our jobs as human beings to take action where we see fit and try to make a difference. If my material is offensive or makes you to sensitive I need you to tell me How Why etc. I would gladly expand more information to answer questions. PLEASE POST QUESTIONS this can become a reform post haste blog as well.

KIDS---I came to be an English Teacher. I wanted public school, I wanted a big city and I preferred adults. I didn't get any of those. I asked my Recruiting Company to place me somewhere that would fit that criteria loll and be hold it didn't happen.

I was put with kids from ages 5 to 13. I worked at Manito-wish where I helped make a difference in kids' lives involving the same age group. I didn't have as many problems and you could probably contribute it to the fact that they could speak English.

So, kids are learning English over here and I am dealing with it. Here is the situation I feel. I believe these are all facts.
1. I sit in the classroom for 45 minutes with kids who can't understand most English. I have to code switch just to get my main points across. The kids have different language abilities and I do this for usually 6 classes. Unfortunately, most of them don't want to be here because they don't realize the importance or how special it is to know 2 languages. Motivating them is beyond me. How can I motivate them when they don't even try to learn English. Reading Vocabulary is funny to them. They rush it and don't even try to read correctly. I truly feel that they don't have to respect me at all because its a private school and they can leave as they please.
I have never said I hate the kids I don't like dealing with many of them because they are aggravating. I have been bitten, called stupid, etc. I have taken up these issues with my boss who has done nothing but ridicule my teaching method. He fails to understand that if he was teaching Korean to 5 year old American he would be met with the same adversity. He doesn't understand that the kids don't like him at all and like me more because I don't punish as much.
I have also changed my style yet again to reward and not punish as much. I get more satisfaction when I reward and not punish. Kids are kids and I am dealing with them as best as I can. I have one kid who acts so poorly though that I write about him a lot. He slams doors in our faces, screams, pouts and our boss just watches in idleness. He should be removed from school because he bit me once, and he just doesn't have a clue. But he is 5 years old and my boss needs all the dough he can get.

Now if I have said something incriminating TELL ME. I am seething at the teeth here because people fail to act human and simply tell me what they think. That that is the kids situation.

I am at my wits end getting emails/or angry phone calls that are full of misinterpretations.

My blog is simply my way of communicating with the world. I am on a time frame and therefore I can't call at a whim anyone. I ran out of money on my phone card today. I don't want to spend a lot of money on calls that are rather pointless anyways.

What else do you want to know? I will try to create a discussion forum for anyone who is interested.

YALE---What happens in YALE stays in Yale. Its a job I get my money and I am trying to save it up. I have a Dream and it has to do with Korea because I do like living in Korea just not here in Gumi working at Yale. SSDD gets you nowhere. I am fighting teacher and trying to understand this more and more each day.


I am at my Bloggers end because my stories are whatever they are. They aren't to be misinterpreted they are meant for discussion. If you are bored enough and have the time you should write me: 1. here 2. Email 3. Facebook. 4. however you think.
I am tired of hearing negative things from people who don't understand~~~~

I would also like to say that in no way am I trying to cause bad feelings or resentment but rather I am trying to get people to wake up and see that there is always more than meets the eye. I truly feel that my writings should trigger some response from anyone to do something more with their life. Instead of feeling sensitive and not wanting to read more simply ask then you can understand more and you will not feel so judgmental.

I have a lot of things to say but I will end it at that. Bloggers end signifies that I am considering ending my writing because of so much negativity but that would be giving in to what people want. You don't read Biographies for the sake of enjoyment you read them to see what they did and possibly overcame in order to help you achieve what you need. What people truly feel helps create a growing conscience in the publics eye or anyone who happens to read it.

I think if you don't want to read more about Korea and my life then simply don't read it. My story is my experience and shouldn't be taken out of context. I am fighting Teacher for Change for more understanding for better English, for Humanitarian Recognition etc. I am a Teacher and I am trying my best in order to insure a stable future and a better tomorrow.

I could go on and on about more ideas but I think that this is enough for anyone who wants to change their perspectives for now. I am constantly changing mine. Its part of living abroad you have to change your mind and deal with consequences. What I have gone through is what no one in the world can understand because while there is many foreigners teaching English in Korea there is only one Nick in Gumi.

In all walks of life its best to try to just understand and develop a new persona please respond! I have to get ready for work soon and so therefore I will be back later tonight or American Morning time. I am bubbling with ideas and hopes to find achievement no matter how lackluster things seems to be.

3 comments:

Katherine said...

whoa, what exactly was that in response to?

Katherine said...

yeah, but when i post questions you get mad.....

Unknown said...

I get a little frustrated sometimes because I can't respond to an email or blog address etc. I also just want a chance for conversation about such matters... etc.

I have many friends/family or others who seem to think my life is way to personal for them to read. I want them to understand and ask questions not antagonize me or make me feel like defending myself I feel that its often more judgmental rather than questions of interest or I also think that sometimes it doesnt need to be said