Opening a Cage

Today I spent most of the day alone. I had plenty of time to relax. I have gotten used to a routine. Monday through Saturday work Sunday Rest. I watched movies, had lunch with some old students of mine and went to the park to play Ocarina.

I don't want to be alone any longer. I signed a contract to work here for a year and ended up living alone eating alone most of the time and not really able to do anything. I truly think people hate me without even knowing who I am.


I have stepped up the job searching and I am researching a hopeful program. If I get this job I will be able to launch a career in America and also go back to school at the same time.

I have gone through many changes since coming here but by far the biggest one has to do with Responsibility. I am caring about how much money I spend and now I am looking at decisions with the approach of will this be better in my future. I can make a wonderful future with the things I have accomplished here and I don't want to let that go away.

Why do I keep writing about these things? What is the purpose of being here? I am so scared about the future. The future is now but even still it doesn't help.

I have to go to Busan to renew my Visa and there is a chance I will get denied because my information hasn't came fast enough. I used to think that I could work miracles but now I am uncertain.


I want to believe that anything is possible and that I am not just another American on the streets making some money and living the life here in Korea. Time is running out and I want more than anything to Set free false notions and try harder to realize the vast potential there is. I am starting to feel naive about these things and doubting my future.

Only by working together can we accomplish anything we want. The good things in Life are worth fighting for and I wish I could see a way clearly.


When people go to the zoo and see monkeys or when I see birds in a cage I feel a sense of wanting to set free making them return to their open nativity scene where they can let loose their ambitions and grow new wings.


I am forever Fighting