Loopholes

Getting up at 6 am after a long night of figuring out classes and work mayhem I felt surprisingly ready to go and had a giddy up attitude. I was going to BUSAN with the intent of notarizing my Criminal History.


Train Travel was good I nodded off and was able to sleep relatively quietly. I missed the usual morning festivities and happenings around Hyung gok dong. I personally don't like traveling against the clock. Its the biggest Enemy.


I foolishly made a mistake in trusting my boss's paperwork. A quick scratched note that ended up leading to a dead end I got to the Consulate to find a Closed Door Policy.


There were no people, I had no appointment. I ran to them as fast as possible. They didn't even hold the door Open for me. They only said GO to Seoul. I felt helpless and pathetic because I was returning to Gumi empty handed. The only bonus was 1 free class. Mr Jeong was nice enough to give me a class hour.


Ironic how I am doing him a favor regardless of my reasons and he still is just interested in using his workhorses. This is why I want to make sure we get out of here because I will work harder somewhere else. Even though I am so scared to leave someday.


I am boldly saying things right now


I was traumatized after MD2 I knew it would happen. The kids blatant disrespect and smiles of I don't care made me give up. I can't control students who show no desire to learn nor respect for me---a measly foreigner..


I WAS grief stricken after work I was hoping to be energized and up beat because at least I was home back to Christina but I felt ill with doubt and uncertainty. I am a Waegook in the eyes of Koreans. I don't like labels of those people are Koreans, Americans, Foreigners etc.

In English Those Foreign People,
In Korean Ego Waegookin Sarum or Waegook Sungzanim.

After being here for a year I want to be looked at as someone who is 1/2 Korean or part of this community as a integral part. I truly do care about changing the world not just being viewed as an outsider.

I studied history because I wanted to know why there is HATE in the world. I would do anything I could do end Hate because its the only thing that is keeping good things from happening. Closed Mindedness is a mortal enemy and its damaging are long term.
I want to show Korea how I can Endure and help all people


Maybe I am just looking at things wrongly. I had a long Crazy day due to mis communication, lack of planning and partly if not mostly my fault. I know tomorrow will be much better and I know that things are getting better all the Time.


Ah Chincha ---How can this happen?
Well for me lack of sleep and too much worry maybe change uh?
For the Kids more maturation etc is needed. The kids aren't worth sweating over though as anything still is possible. I just want to Vindicate myself and prove I CAN.

I care so much and I know it will be fine in the end. I still hold true I have a world that circles around Amazing. I will not lose my hope because of bad kids, poor planning, or lack of insight. I want more. I will do more. I can I will. All in the name of Sa Rang.