Trying to Avoid Despair

Work at Yale was usual. It was the last hard day I think. I said goodbye to most kids until Mr. Jeong told them that I was leaving and so I had to tell the kids an official goodbye. I think I made more mistakes by trying to avoid this scene because in my opinion it wasn't good.



Saying goodbye to Dana was the hardest just because I think she is a good student and tries to talk to me most of the time. She is so nice I hope I see her again before I leave. I hope Molly says goodbye to so I can see at least know she cared about me instead of being a poor student not bad student but a poor one.


I was letdown today by Dana because I gave her and the class a treat and didn't think that they liked it well enough.


So I am packing my bags and loading up my memories. I am desperate now because I don't want to leave my girl in this unstable situation.


PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I won't let you down I am sorry I had to leave and I will save more and more.

I can't bear this cleaning and choking on tears that won't come because I can't.


Time is too short here both literally day by day but as well as overall time.

I feel that we can have our life the way we want it anywhere you want Korea, America, etc. You will never hate America I promise. I don't hate Korea I love Korea actually. I think its a wonderful place to live and make money I just don't like the weird situations.

I am not like everyone else I want whats best for US and I don't want to make any mistakes. I have to leave right? I wont let you down ever. I am going to make you so proud and happy of me in America


I love you so much, I love you the way you smile at me, and give me a heart shaped gesture with your arms over your head, I love your singing, your dancing, your everything.

What I am doing is never to make you sad or angry I want more for us so much.


I write this with you in mind as always
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