Faking

So I have been here for over a year and today I started to think about my future a lot more than I usually do.


I read some emails and got some depressing news at least to me. I don't care if people think my posts are a little off kilter but the facts are simple.

I spent my morning resting. I wanted to make a perfect morning with my darling in order to end the work week well. Tomorrow work doesn't count its a oddity that we work Saturdays and its just another reason not to work here.


I said some dangerous words today: I want to quit. I say to myself how I want to go home and pack my extra suitcase with me.

I know that there is something better. There are amazing things in Korea but I got the short end of the stick when it came to a job I know for sure we got it bad and anything could be better.


I had 6 classes.
Ma1: non-listeners and a little lack of preparation hindered a good class. The three bozos of the class were so bad I hope their mothers call and complain because every day I hear the complaining parents barging in here wanting to understand why their students are so stupid. They do this in person or on the phone. ITs cumbersome and usually I hear Foreign teacher, American, Nick Teacher. I want to go stuff their heads with a pillow at least then I could see some results.


I don't help at work there is nothing nobody will let me do.

I got disrespect from some good girls today that makes me want to seriously just walk out on class. They talked and gabbed the entire time will my two boys listened to me.


I am tired of the Sukjae wars, the problems, the complaints, the diseased habits of the two people who work there. I am tired of feeling estranged because its beyond culture shock. I will not QUIT yet but I am scared to think about more possibilities. I am one step away from begging cause I need desperation and change.

Anyways more later as I should have finished sooner. My thoughts are where they are always^^