Following the Benjamins while Calendar Surfing

I will say it how it is I don't want anything left out My mind is in a whirlwind right now. Its much better all because of Christina and frankly now I can't stop Thinking about tomorrow^^

So today I went downtown to the KEB Bank. I did this in order to send some money home. I am sending all of my money home to my personal bank account in hopes to make it grow. I saw some information on my paper at the bank that disturbed me because I am not sure how much money I am making nowadays.

I went home in order to figure out how much money I have in my bank. I think it gave me a headache before work because I was drained before the day already began. Now that I am here I am understanding why today was such a dull day and why I was a nut.

I am unfortunately shutting myself off...It was so weird today that one of the kids said to me Don't worry, what happened smile. He has a 6th sense and he is one of the few kids that I can help and talk to.


I want to talk about kids a moment... Kids are our future.Its our hope in the Education System. Kids are immature, strange and difficult everywhere. But there are a few shining examples.


I used to work at a summer camp which actually had quite a few of Yuntagee Kids. These are all American kids and they still were difficult. I loved the job enough to return twice. I feel the kids are a reason why I love or hate the job. I will talk about more of the kids though...

Chansuk: He is a quiet kid who studies hard and listens. His English has improved as a result of simply going to class and listening. The other students have given him ridicule for his study habits. This scorn angers me so much because I think the kids are narrow minded and jealous. It burns my soul to see the kids act so poorly. This isn't your typical Stop Talking, Be Quiet type bad behavior its much worse. They compete, talk and disregard each other as much as they disregard me.

Chansuk mentioned to me that he considers me one of his best friends. I enjoy talking to him and seeing him makes me think of me in some ways. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. Chansuk is one of the special kids in the Academy because he takes an interest which is rare. I used to take an interest too when I was his age and the kids branded me with scorn.


I always remember special students. I remember names like Lisa that I talked about last night because she tries. She gets high grades, she listens and she is always smiling. She can be a troublemaker but she is just being a kid and she is quiet about it. She is smart so I let her get away with more.

Jane and Ann study. Jane studies diligently and Ann listens well. Ann jokes around a little too much but her emails are wonderful. Jane tries very hard and also has a lovely smile. Pumpkin hair I am not so sure but there are interesting haircuts here sometimes.


There are many nice kids in the Academy. I should try to write more about them sometime. I got my mind running races though right now cause all I want is to find a new wonderful job. I want a new home and new life to start... I think today I was also tired because once again I think SSDD is kicking in to me. I have a syndrome


Today I focused too much on work and it nearly killed me. I finished my syllabus' almost. I did all the monthly progress, I did all my tests, I had my 3 classes and I did some work for Mr. Jeong. Miss Jeong was her byong self not knowing how to budget time and waste some of my time. I was agitated so I didn't open myself up to more at work.

There isn't really anything to open up to though at work. I love talking to Christina and Vicki. I think I am needing to try more though. I just want to do more I don't feel like I am doing anything good and I feel under appreciative about my work etc. I doubt my teaching in some cases. Why? Well the kids have for the most part shown me how much they appreciate and care about me or my teaching and as everyone knows there is no incentive.

I made a big mistake to to check July progress. All I will say about that is its better to just focus on Now.

I am worried about a lot of changes taking place. I hear from someone about things that have happened to people I used to know. I guess its just a phase because all I am wanting is to find the best things possible out of life. Nothing else really matters to me other than making use of the TIME. forgive me because I am scared and just want things to be best. I also say sorry that this is really personal but I have nothing to hide and thus in my travel around the world in hopes of unifying humanity I say all.