My Odyssey

I dont know what happened today... Saturday morning the day I have been looking forward to all week. Working in the mornings is usually a lot of fun. I went to bed feeling excited and happy and then something went wrong. I dont know if its because of my bad dreams I have had running through my mind or what but at any rate I went to work feeling very shaky. I wasn't sure what to feel. I had 4 tests and i felt like I didnt live up to a good standard.

I didnt finish two of the tests and had to change my system in two of the classes. These are my classes and once again I felt like no one talked to me.
Tc2: They took the test and that was that. They didnt say a single word to me.
Tc1: one student: my best actually. He is the only one who may stay for March.
Td2: No one even awknowledged my presence. I felt miserable in that class.
Td1: Same thing way to quiet.

I wanted to tell Christina everything after work about how I couldnt speak because of how I slept last night and how I felt awful for just not being able to do my best today.

I left work feeling unmotivated and just wanting to be somewhere else.

I stayed in my house for 4 hours before I finally went downtown. I met my friend Ryan for some food at Pizza Hut and was able to relax a little.

I think I am too high strung right now. Work pressure is starting to get to me. I remember when I worked in Wisconsin I had a 2 day break from the kids because if I didnt I would have to much exposure to being around kids and i wouldn't be able to do my job as well as I could.

I dont like how I cant say anything other than hi to the kids and I feel invaded because I can't seem to find time to express myself. I feel like I am at work almost 100% of the time.

i feel frusterated about this and I hope that march will change that.


My odyssey or adventure in Korea has lead me to all sort and realms of possibilities. It is my hope to stay on the path and open up the doors that truly excite me.

I just finished a great book called: The Valkeries by Paulo Coehlo. It is a soul searching novel about a man who is looking for his guardian angel and the only guidance he has is through Love. I truly believe this and want to expand myself even more in every way possible.


I have been in Korea for a long time now. Its almost been 9 months. I have learned a lot about myself and have overcame many difficulties.

~I dont know how and I dont know what I can do but I am hoping to find more answers on my Quest. I have many aspirations that i hope to fullfill before I move on too the next job or next place that I go to.
Amist all the problems and all of the chaos I wouldn't change a thing. These are merely difficult obstructions standing in my way. I am content with what I have and I hope that in the end it will become better.


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