Sojourn Nightmare

Well this month seems to have caused many things to fall apart.

MY key to the door broke and had to be replaced earlier in the morning. MY coat broke its button shortly after buying it. It was a brand new jacket and still remains to be fixed. I had no hot water this weekend so unfortunately I couldnt take a shower today in the morning and still haven't gotten around to doing it. I just lost my gas so I wasn't able to cok a dinner I had to walk to Mcdonalds for something to eat. Why Mcdonalds? Its cheap and I wanted to save money.
I have been here for nearly 8 months and I still dont like going out by myself...

Today I went downtown and bought myself a ticket to Seoul so I can see my friend. I like my friends so much but it makes me mad that they never come visit me. I dont know why I bother to go visit on my holiday. Maybe its because I have nothing else to do.

Today my boss said to me in his exact words, " I am suspicious of your teaching..." Once again he interupted my class to say something to me and to also embarass me in front of the kids. I am really tempted to quit. I hate saying that since I know that its not likely.

I dont know what to do with myself. I am locked in a job thats not going anywhere. My boss lacks a spine and lacks the respect of the people who work for him. I respect him in some ways why 1. he gave me a job and 2. He can have good intentions.

The nerve of him to say to me I am suspiscious of your teaching is too much for me. F*** him.
Sorry, Babe I know you dont like me upset and neither do I.


I want a better situation nobody deserves this kind of treatment. I feel completely wasted at work. I am not doing anything to make the kids speak better english. Whenever I make any ends meat my boss destroys my good mood.

I can't go to Japan in Febraury, I can't be where I want to be the most.
I know that there is good days, and bad days but I am not sure what a normal day is anymore. I havent laughed or been happy at work in a very long time. The main reason is because my boss fails to see how important I am to his Academy. I am giving it my best shot. I also dont like it because of the amount of pressure Christina feels.


I always try to look at the positive side and also try to keep my views in reality. What am I to do truly?
Am I over-reacting?
As I said I woke up, couldnt take a shower, found no heat, no gas, and still i cant take a shower. As a result now I can't take a shower at least 2 days the heater is broken....

I am tired and seriously I think I have met my breaking point. ITs awful to say but my future is uncertain


I am going to lay in my bed and pray for a change that I know will never come.