I am with Min Young now. I am with a great friend. I am happy to spend all night with her and enjoy what is my last day in Korea for this year but I will be back soon.
I read my darlings email and it actually lifted my spirits. We have nothing to worry about and things can be overcome because we have hope I know it will endure and I know I will be back soon. We are strong our love grows and we will be beter than before when we come back.
Korea was good to me and as I am waiting for an airplane to come I just think of the endless posibilities and all the hopes we can attain.
In this world anything is possible. I will write more but as my time is almost up I will end here. I am going home for a short stay. I will come back or move to another city not Missoula whatever my Babe desires. My future is vested in her and I will make it work.
I have much to say and do still but I have to go. Talk to you soon,
I will pray to God and I will do the right thing. Don't be sad and just know you are so loved.
Today Now Forever and Always
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Gumi Rest
This is my final story I will write in Korea. I am leaving feeling Vanquished. I hope I did right. I truly meant only the best.
I finished my contract and I worked a little longer. This work was not the best for me. I struggled more than I would have liked. I had to fight over simple things that I feel anywhere else I would have had better results. This is nothing to do with Country, or kids, or even Mr Jeong but just my feeling.
I don't want things to be hard when I leave. I dream of a better future. Going home will make it so I can do everything. I will get the things I need in order to prepare for 2 years later. I will anxiously and happily wait. I can't say Goodbye and feel good. I think that this is too hard.
I know in Korea a man is supposed to cry 2 times in his life. 1. When he is born and 2. When a loved one dies.
I am taking a vacation, I am trying to find another Job I am fighting. I am capable and I will succeed and I just need more than Hope to follow me. I loved Korea because of one person~ The things here in Korea are wonderful. The old ancient history, the calm in the morning, how people can be kind.
I hope that my race, my age, and everything else I can't control will not be an issue. I know its an issue in the Country and I just wanted to be a better man all the time. I finished my packing and cleaning today.
Today my girlfriend did so much for me. I didn't understand why but now I do and I am proud and happy. I love her so much she is amazing and the best woman in the world. To say how much I love and care about her is something I can't put in words. I don't care about anything else.
For readers who still don't know how to put proper comments. You have to share the experience to understand the situation. My girlfriend laughs and thinks the same as I do so please think more.
I am going home now, its sad and a little unfortunate but I just want to say that I know I have the most wonderful things in Gumi
1. A charming girlfriend who is my right arm my better half and my future.
2. A nephew who calls me Uncle.
3. A sister in law who liked me.
4. A brother in law who is COOL
and the makings of a wonderful family tradition I just hope that it happens sooner.
Its our life... Live our dreams and don't let anything die. As hard as it is to accept this I am doing all of my things for you.
I finished my contract and I worked a little longer. This work was not the best for me. I struggled more than I would have liked. I had to fight over simple things that I feel anywhere else I would have had better results. This is nothing to do with Country, or kids, or even Mr Jeong but just my feeling.
I don't want things to be hard when I leave. I dream of a better future. Going home will make it so I can do everything. I will get the things I need in order to prepare for 2 years later. I will anxiously and happily wait. I can't say Goodbye and feel good. I think that this is too hard.
I know in Korea a man is supposed to cry 2 times in his life. 1. When he is born and 2. When a loved one dies.
I am taking a vacation, I am trying to find another Job I am fighting. I am capable and I will succeed and I just need more than Hope to follow me. I loved Korea because of one person~ The things here in Korea are wonderful. The old ancient history, the calm in the morning, how people can be kind.
I hope that my race, my age, and everything else I can't control will not be an issue. I know its an issue in the Country and I just wanted to be a better man all the time. I finished my packing and cleaning today.
Today my girlfriend did so much for me. I didn't understand why but now I do and I am proud and happy. I love her so much she is amazing and the best woman in the world. To say how much I love and care about her is something I can't put in words. I don't care about anything else.
For readers who still don't know how to put proper comments. You have to share the experience to understand the situation. My girlfriend laughs and thinks the same as I do so please think more.
I am going home now, its sad and a little unfortunate but I just want to say that I know I have the most wonderful things in Gumi
1. A charming girlfriend who is my right arm my better half and my future.
2. A nephew who calls me Uncle.
3. A sister in law who liked me.
4. A brother in law who is COOL
and the makings of a wonderful family tradition I just hope that it happens sooner.
Its our life... Live our dreams and don't let anything die. As hard as it is to accept this I am doing all of my things for you.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Forget-me not Fighting Finish
Today was the last day of work. I got a book from a student and a few notes. I wish I had been able to keep my going away more secretive. I have mixed feelings now. My job is terminated and I will be going home soon.
I had to fight so much in the classroom, I overcame Mr. Jeongs scrutiny and character flaws. I had to deal with faulty irrational, and misguided students. Students who to this day still don't know the meaning of RESPECT and how to behave properly. I had to forget about all of this and just focus on me and how to be a better teacher. I wonder why students or people always wait until the last minute to say their feelings.
I got a note from Amy a girl who I always thought was dumber than most kids in her age group but she liked my class and she said she'd miss me. I thought now I am too hard on her. I cared to much. I showed my temper to students a lot. It rankles me that I had to face blatant disrespect and also unknown encounters.
My Korean Experience opened up my eyes from a young inexperienced boy to a traveled man. I still lack a lot of experience but my determination and work ethic improved. I would like to think so.
Back to the central question... Why do people always wait until its too late. Its best to express your feelings now and not hold back. Here are some of mine. I want to leave this place to go to a better place. I will go home to try to get a career underway. I want more money and a stable income for my future but my future is devoted under True Love. I don't want anything to stand in the way of that.
As far as my experience here is concerned Working at Yale was mostly unpleasant. I had to many students leave without saying goodbye latest one probably being Jerry. I had too many students just treat me with so much distaste that it hurt me. If you must know the truth I don't know what to think.
I got 4 letters: Amy and Jessica Tc2 students, Ciarra Tc1 who I will remember always. I wish she would have talked to me more. and Ann---my fighting student who is smart but reserved.
Solitude has been my life here. I have lived alone, worked alone, and now face an unknown future alone. While I am determined I still don't know. I have lived alone for to long I don't know what its like to be back among people and I am afraid to find out. I care so much because I have many wonderful things here right now at this moment and my decisions are bound to have ill effects.
I sit in my room now and think of how to make the future and the world a better place. I think I made the best of my time here and now its sadly time to say goodbye. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I am going home in hopes of establishing a lucrative study and work plan and build on a dynamic future that will take me to Korea, America or anywhere but whatever it may be it will be to my Womans heart.
So today I had a quick day at work. I didn't cry. I felt bad leaving some kids but I made it through the day without crying. I don't want to remember much of the Academy.
I will remember Vicki and Christina and how we had our system. I wish that they didn't worry so much about work things. Miss Jeong is always going to be stupid and weird, Mr. Jeong is just going to be driven for money regardless of the cost or activity, and the kids are going to be "mis-guided" country cow minded students. There are a few who stand out and I should say that in most respects the students are actually brighter than I made them out to be but I will not forgive or forget the idiocy of students like Alexa, Diane, and many more uncountable figures.
I won't get into it right now. I am sadly done. I will go home to an unknown future and a place where I am scared to be. I think I will return to my solitude as Ann told me in her note simply because I can't bear the shame and fear I have for living back home.
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Its my Quest and hope to make everything better but I am worried now that I can't
I told many students today to do what you love. Life life to its fullest and honestly don't let anything or anyone hold back your dreams. All good things are worth fighting for and all good things aren't going to hold you back but hold you up. I have found my pedestal and it burns me that I am going away for a short time.
I write this holding out a prayer for hope. Its all we got and we can do it. We can't live our life with regret and furrowing over the unknown we can do what we want and we can do it now. Seize the Day and please Don't Worry for I think and therefore know that it will be ok.
I had to fight so much in the classroom, I overcame Mr. Jeongs scrutiny and character flaws. I had to deal with faulty irrational, and misguided students. Students who to this day still don't know the meaning of RESPECT and how to behave properly. I had to forget about all of this and just focus on me and how to be a better teacher. I wonder why students or people always wait until the last minute to say their feelings.
I got a note from Amy a girl who I always thought was dumber than most kids in her age group but she liked my class and she said she'd miss me. I thought now I am too hard on her. I cared to much. I showed my temper to students a lot. It rankles me that I had to face blatant disrespect and also unknown encounters.
My Korean Experience opened up my eyes from a young inexperienced boy to a traveled man. I still lack a lot of experience but my determination and work ethic improved. I would like to think so.
Back to the central question... Why do people always wait until its too late. Its best to express your feelings now and not hold back. Here are some of mine. I want to leave this place to go to a better place. I will go home to try to get a career underway. I want more money and a stable income for my future but my future is devoted under True Love. I don't want anything to stand in the way of that.
As far as my experience here is concerned Working at Yale was mostly unpleasant. I had to many students leave without saying goodbye latest one probably being Jerry. I had too many students just treat me with so much distaste that it hurt me. If you must know the truth I don't know what to think.
I got 4 letters: Amy and Jessica Tc2 students, Ciarra Tc1 who I will remember always. I wish she would have talked to me more. and Ann---my fighting student who is smart but reserved.
Solitude has been my life here. I have lived alone, worked alone, and now face an unknown future alone. While I am determined I still don't know. I have lived alone for to long I don't know what its like to be back among people and I am afraid to find out. I care so much because I have many wonderful things here right now at this moment and my decisions are bound to have ill effects.
I sit in my room now and think of how to make the future and the world a better place. I think I made the best of my time here and now its sadly time to say goodbye. I didn't mean to hurt anyone. I am going home in hopes of establishing a lucrative study and work plan and build on a dynamic future that will take me to Korea, America or anywhere but whatever it may be it will be to my Womans heart.
So today I had a quick day at work. I didn't cry. I felt bad leaving some kids but I made it through the day without crying. I don't want to remember much of the Academy.
I will remember Vicki and Christina and how we had our system. I wish that they didn't worry so much about work things. Miss Jeong is always going to be stupid and weird, Mr. Jeong is just going to be driven for money regardless of the cost or activity, and the kids are going to be "mis-guided" country cow minded students. There are a few who stand out and I should say that in most respects the students are actually brighter than I made them out to be but I will not forgive or forget the idiocy of students like Alexa, Diane, and many more uncountable figures.
I won't get into it right now. I am sadly done. I will go home to an unknown future and a place where I am scared to be. I think I will return to my solitude as Ann told me in her note simply because I can't bear the shame and fear I have for living back home.
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Its my Quest and hope to make everything better but I am worried now that I can't
I told many students today to do what you love. Life life to its fullest and honestly don't let anything or anyone hold back your dreams. All good things are worth fighting for and all good things aren't going to hold you back but hold you up. I have found my pedestal and it burns me that I am going away for a short time.
I write this holding out a prayer for hope. Its all we got and we can do it. We can't live our life with regret and furrowing over the unknown we can do what we want and we can do it now. Seize the Day and please Don't Worry for I think and therefore know that it will be ok.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Jam packed day
I had the day off and it was nice to spend unfortunately my last Friday here in Gumi with Christina.
I went Swimming and got some exercise. I had a good time downtown I bought a shirt and looked around I wanted to buy more and figure out some more things but unfortunately I ran out of time. This weekend I will take care of last minute things before I go back home.
I want to go home to say goodbye to my friends and family before I prepare for my career move. I want to develop a career so I can get married and have a successful business career.
Today was sad for me because it was the second to last day I will be downtown and one step closer to leaving.
Why am I sad... Well I can't be happy packing away memories and leaving behind the most important asset to my life. Its too much for me to take, I just pray that something good will happen. I knew this day was coming for the last 6months but I didn't prepare at all.
Christina packed my suitcase. It was a big help because I need her to help me pack away OUR life. This idea is very important to me because I don't want to be like another Foreigner and be leaving and that was that. I didn't mean to leave like this. Its not my intention I want the best things for my gf.
I went out for Soju and had Su dong too with the guys downstairs. It was a good time but I am glad to be back home and return to my hopeless affair of packing. I wish I could have gone downtown or Pappa again and take care of more things.
I write this post knowing that my posts for Korea are limited. I wil probably finish these tomorrow,
I dont want to end this but its time I move on from this blog to the next blog or something.
Today I had a great time only because Christina. I think of the world of her. I am kidn of selfish I don't show my real feelings all the time and I only mean for the best to happen. I know I am difficult and I know I am prone or likely to making mistakes but I will always care about all I do and I will NEVER NEVER NEVER show my temper or walk away from anything.
I will be better.
So Swim, Soju, sorrowful packing and Sweet Serenity with My gf marks my day. I won't refuse anything ever again.
I went Swimming and got some exercise. I had a good time downtown I bought a shirt and looked around I wanted to buy more and figure out some more things but unfortunately I ran out of time. This weekend I will take care of last minute things before I go back home.
I want to go home to say goodbye to my friends and family before I prepare for my career move. I want to develop a career so I can get married and have a successful business career.
Today was sad for me because it was the second to last day I will be downtown and one step closer to leaving.
Why am I sad... Well I can't be happy packing away memories and leaving behind the most important asset to my life. Its too much for me to take, I just pray that something good will happen. I knew this day was coming for the last 6months but I didn't prepare at all.
Christina packed my suitcase. It was a big help because I need her to help me pack away OUR life. This idea is very important to me because I don't want to be like another Foreigner and be leaving and that was that. I didn't mean to leave like this. Its not my intention I want the best things for my gf.
I went out for Soju and had Su dong too with the guys downstairs. It was a good time but I am glad to be back home and return to my hopeless affair of packing. I wish I could have gone downtown or Pappa again and take care of more things.
I write this post knowing that my posts for Korea are limited. I wil probably finish these tomorrow,
I dont want to end this but its time I move on from this blog to the next blog or something.
Today I had a great time only because Christina. I think of the world of her. I am kidn of selfish I don't show my real feelings all the time and I only mean for the best to happen. I know I am difficult and I know I am prone or likely to making mistakes but I will always care about all I do and I will NEVER NEVER NEVER show my temper or walk away from anything.
I will be better.
So Swim, Soju, sorrowful packing and Sweet Serenity with My gf marks my day. I won't refuse anything ever again.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Living Dreams
Its the goal of a write to write things as they see it. To tell the story as if they were there in person able to tell you this. Whether its serious, funny, honest or just a fact this comes from the heart. Its my last Thursday this is becoming more and more not how I planned but then again that's life.
From the beginning I had my Ma2 class which I teach once a week and thus far still haven't connected to the kids and don't intend to. They aren't bad students but I am tired of ABC teaching. I have had a problem doing ABC and then doing T-O-E-F-L lessons its just not a conducive situation to me.
I actually cared when I taught my last classes and felt bad for not telling them I am leaving. It will be a shocker for sure and I regret not telling Rick or Hyena. Those two I have taught the longest I think.
I am leaving and I don't want that to show that I am giving up. I feel there is a better situation out there for me, Christina and Vicki too. My leaving has nothing to do with the dumb kids---I say that because today I found out that some students expressed a regret for treating me poorly. Its horrible. Most of the kids didn't even care I was leaving but rather who would teach them. I feel bad to say this but I think just like when Pearl left none of the kids cared at all. The kids are here only because their parents and if they leave they wouldn't say goodbye. I don't want the kids to be a reason for anything. This job hasn't been good to me and I don't want anyone to be here.
I taught Rose my TD1 star (ex-star) nowadays I am tired of her. I used to be tired of Hwajin, the ex-Td2 student who doesn't even come anymore. Rose is that new girl. She is a class of one and a complete waste of space. I talked to her and asked her questions about everything and felt worthless doing it. She is a girl who can't think a single thought on her own. I tell her stories to try to motivate her but there isn't motivating a girl who works like clockwork.
I was told today by my best student it will pain me to have you on a plane. I was touched and felt saddened because its already going to be hard. I am leaving I can't imagine.
This is my final week in Korea. I am scared, sad, and wish I had a clear answer. My answer is vested into Christina. I would probably kill someone if she wanted that's how much I love her. Not only is she my best friend, girlfriend and future wife but she is the person I want to walk through the world with. I miss my family my friends but I can endure being without them. I want to push myself harder I want things to happen and do the unthinkable. I wish I knew more to do cause I don't know.
It was the last teachers meeting and this is killing me to write this as I speak I can't imagine not working with Vicki and Christina now. They wash my cup for me they take care of me they help me out so much and they don't care about anything when it comes to me. They will share all with me.
We have a diseased secretary a weird boss and a system that doesnt do anyone favors Life back home will not be perfect---I won't make as much money, I wont have a good job but I think it will be better than the job. There is nothing about this job I like to put it bluntly.
People said I was a fool for staying longer, people think I am foolish for believing in what I do. I feel ripped apart and stand alone because all I care about is making the impossible POSSIBLE.
I will go home and I will work harder than now. I will build a future worthy of everything and pray beyond prayer that come Christmas time I can unwrap my greatest present.
WE can do this
more notes about today
I am virtually done cleaning my house and my office space. I have some shopping I would like to do and some last minute packing but everything is done. Tiny little boxes makes me think of setting up a perfect future. I want a house with a bedroom and a closet for 2 people I want this so much and I just want to make things work out. I will do anything ANYTHING.
Saying Goodbye to Vicki was hard. I hope that she and Christina can make things together. I will come back asap. I know it.
Don't cry anymore I will not do this.
From the beginning I had my Ma2 class which I teach once a week and thus far still haven't connected to the kids and don't intend to. They aren't bad students but I am tired of ABC teaching. I have had a problem doing ABC and then doing T-O-E-F-L lessons its just not a conducive situation to me.
I actually cared when I taught my last classes and felt bad for not telling them I am leaving. It will be a shocker for sure and I regret not telling Rick or Hyena. Those two I have taught the longest I think.
I am leaving and I don't want that to show that I am giving up. I feel there is a better situation out there for me, Christina and Vicki too. My leaving has nothing to do with the dumb kids---I say that because today I found out that some students expressed a regret for treating me poorly. Its horrible. Most of the kids didn't even care I was leaving but rather who would teach them. I feel bad to say this but I think just like when Pearl left none of the kids cared at all. The kids are here only because their parents and if they leave they wouldn't say goodbye. I don't want the kids to be a reason for anything. This job hasn't been good to me and I don't want anyone to be here.
I taught Rose my TD1 star (ex-star) nowadays I am tired of her. I used to be tired of Hwajin, the ex-Td2 student who doesn't even come anymore. Rose is that new girl. She is a class of one and a complete waste of space. I talked to her and asked her questions about everything and felt worthless doing it. She is a girl who can't think a single thought on her own. I tell her stories to try to motivate her but there isn't motivating a girl who works like clockwork.
I was told today by my best student it will pain me to have you on a plane. I was touched and felt saddened because its already going to be hard. I am leaving I can't imagine.
This is my final week in Korea. I am scared, sad, and wish I had a clear answer. My answer is vested into Christina. I would probably kill someone if she wanted that's how much I love her. Not only is she my best friend, girlfriend and future wife but she is the person I want to walk through the world with. I miss my family my friends but I can endure being without them. I want to push myself harder I want things to happen and do the unthinkable. I wish I knew more to do cause I don't know.
It was the last teachers meeting and this is killing me to write this as I speak I can't imagine not working with Vicki and Christina now. They wash my cup for me they take care of me they help me out so much and they don't care about anything when it comes to me. They will share all with me.
We have a diseased secretary a weird boss and a system that doesnt do anyone favors Life back home will not be perfect---I won't make as much money, I wont have a good job but I think it will be better than the job. There is nothing about this job I like to put it bluntly.
People said I was a fool for staying longer, people think I am foolish for believing in what I do. I feel ripped apart and stand alone because all I care about is making the impossible POSSIBLE.
I will go home and I will work harder than now. I will build a future worthy of everything and pray beyond prayer that come Christmas time I can unwrap my greatest present.
WE can do this
more notes about today
I am virtually done cleaning my house and my office space. I have some shopping I would like to do and some last minute packing but everything is done. Tiny little boxes makes me think of setting up a perfect future. I want a house with a bedroom and a closet for 2 people I want this so much and I just want to make things work out. I will do anything ANYTHING.
Saying Goodbye to Vicki was hard. I hope that she and Christina can make things together. I will come back asap. I know it.
Don't cry anymore I will not do this.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Trying to Avoid Despair
Work at Yale was usual. It was the last hard day I think. I said goodbye to most kids until Mr. Jeong told them that I was leaving and so I had to tell the kids an official goodbye. I think I made more mistakes by trying to avoid this scene because in my opinion it wasn't good.
Saying goodbye to Dana was the hardest just because I think she is a good student and tries to talk to me most of the time. She is so nice I hope I see her again before I leave. I hope Molly says goodbye to so I can see at least know she cared about me instead of being a poor student not bad student but a poor one.
I was letdown today by Dana because I gave her and the class a treat and didn't think that they liked it well enough.
So I am packing my bags and loading up my memories. I am desperate now because I don't want to leave my girl in this unstable situation.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I won't let you down I am sorry I had to leave and I will save more and more.
I can't bear this cleaning and choking on tears that won't come because I can't.
Time is too short here both literally day by day but as well as overall time.
I feel that we can have our life the way we want it anywhere you want Korea, America, etc. You will never hate America I promise. I don't hate Korea I love Korea actually. I think its a wonderful place to live and make money I just don't like the weird situations.
I am not like everyone else I want whats best for US and I don't want to make any mistakes. I have to leave right? I wont let you down ever. I am going to make you so proud and happy of me in America
I love you so much, I love you the way you smile at me, and give me a heart shaped gesture with your arms over your head, I love your singing, your dancing, your everything.
What I am doing is never to make you sad or angry I want more for us so much.
I write this with you in mind as always
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Saying goodbye to Dana was the hardest just because I think she is a good student and tries to talk to me most of the time. She is so nice I hope I see her again before I leave. I hope Molly says goodbye to so I can see at least know she cared about me instead of being a poor student not bad student but a poor one.
I was letdown today by Dana because I gave her and the class a treat and didn't think that they liked it well enough.
So I am packing my bags and loading up my memories. I am desperate now because I don't want to leave my girl in this unstable situation.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I won't let you down I am sorry I had to leave and I will save more and more.
I can't bear this cleaning and choking on tears that won't come because I can't.
Time is too short here both literally day by day but as well as overall time.
I feel that we can have our life the way we want it anywhere you want Korea, America, etc. You will never hate America I promise. I don't hate Korea I love Korea actually. I think its a wonderful place to live and make money I just don't like the weird situations.
I am not like everyone else I want whats best for US and I don't want to make any mistakes. I have to leave right? I wont let you down ever. I am going to make you so proud and happy of me in America
I love you so much, I love you the way you smile at me, and give me a heart shaped gesture with your arms over your head, I love your singing, your dancing, your everything.
What I am doing is never to make you sad or angry I want more for us so much.
I write this with you in mind as always
__________________________
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Memoirs of Me
I got my bus ticket, I went to the bookstore for the last time today, I ate a lot and went to Papparoti as well. I cleaned my house and took care of many things are the place.
Work was laid back. I had my classes and just like it started it was over.
I had my best site today just seeing Christina while I was teaching my final class. She was just doing her job and just looked so cute. We have a special communication that crosses all boundaries. I love her smile so much it lights up the room, and it makes my dull class a little better. I teach a girl who yawns and doesn't give one iota about English.
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My memoirs from today and all time...
I live in the countryside where people are more skeptical, more judgmental and ultimately provide a hostile atmosphere. The lady who gave me my ticket couldn't speak English at all. I think certain job types should know basic rudimentary English but she was so stupid I think I would have had more success with an elephant. Peanuts please.
Miss Jeong said hi and bye to me today...thats a first.
She is so weird to ask me or Christina for favors. She never asks during work time but always inconveniences us at improper times. I think she a special vendetta against me. I think she doesn't approve of my relationship and she is to shallow to try anything new. She won't stand up for herself she is a work slave not knowing the difference between right or wrong. She doesn't answer the phone all the time because she can get away with it. She dumps work on Christina and I wish Christina would fight her. I hate her because of what she does to Christina.
Mr. Jeong is a foolish man for giving her keys to the Academy. She does all the things he should do. he doesn't know when kids come or go. It angers me because if he did then he could change the policies of the Academy. He runs errands and has his life too full of things to manage his academy affairs.
I have been here for too long its a known fact. I haven't seen anything that makes me feel that there will ever be change here. Mr. Jeong is obsessed with his money, and he will control everything he can I don't want to see my darling and future wife under his whims it pains me to think about her hard work and sacrifice going to him when he isn't interested in taking care of us.
I am tired of Miss Jeong thinking she is the one in charge of Academy affairs. She has no concept of what its like to be a teacher, and she can't listen when people tell her NO or anything. She doesn't learn she is incapable. In a big city she would be swallowed and fired before tomorrow morning. I want to make a career maybe even in Busan to provide a stable safe, and fun job atmosphere for my future family. I don't care about anything else.
So I will terminate my blog this week I am sad to announce this but its time to end the Yale saga stories.
Palmer's Travels can be changed to Kim-Palmer travels I hope
I feel more depressed now than I did in the morning because its slowly creeping inside me that I have to give up this life. I am thinking I did something wrong and I am a horrible person for leaving. I got the most dearest and precious thing in my life and I don't want to lose this thing ever.
I am on my knees begging God to fix me before its too late.
I look around my house now and I see just many things left undone waiting for me to pack away and be swept away with me.
I dont want to leave Yale thinking I am doing something all for not. I pray its the right thing...all I know is there isn't a thing I would not do now. I am willing to do all.
Forever~~~
Work was laid back. I had my classes and just like it started it was over.
I had my best site today just seeing Christina while I was teaching my final class. She was just doing her job and just looked so cute. We have a special communication that crosses all boundaries. I love her smile so much it lights up the room, and it makes my dull class a little better. I teach a girl who yawns and doesn't give one iota about English.
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My memoirs from today and all time...
I live in the countryside where people are more skeptical, more judgmental and ultimately provide a hostile atmosphere. The lady who gave me my ticket couldn't speak English at all. I think certain job types should know basic rudimentary English but she was so stupid I think I would have had more success with an elephant. Peanuts please.
Miss Jeong said hi and bye to me today...thats a first.
She is so weird to ask me or Christina for favors. She never asks during work time but always inconveniences us at improper times. I think she a special vendetta against me. I think she doesn't approve of my relationship and she is to shallow to try anything new. She won't stand up for herself she is a work slave not knowing the difference between right or wrong. She doesn't answer the phone all the time because she can get away with it. She dumps work on Christina and I wish Christina would fight her. I hate her because of what she does to Christina.
Mr. Jeong is a foolish man for giving her keys to the Academy. She does all the things he should do. he doesn't know when kids come or go. It angers me because if he did then he could change the policies of the Academy. He runs errands and has his life too full of things to manage his academy affairs.
I have been here for too long its a known fact. I haven't seen anything that makes me feel that there will ever be change here. Mr. Jeong is obsessed with his money, and he will control everything he can I don't want to see my darling and future wife under his whims it pains me to think about her hard work and sacrifice going to him when he isn't interested in taking care of us.
I am tired of Miss Jeong thinking she is the one in charge of Academy affairs. She has no concept of what its like to be a teacher, and she can't listen when people tell her NO or anything. She doesn't learn she is incapable. In a big city she would be swallowed and fired before tomorrow morning. I want to make a career maybe even in Busan to provide a stable safe, and fun job atmosphere for my future family. I don't care about anything else.
So I will terminate my blog this week I am sad to announce this but its time to end the Yale saga stories.
Palmer's Travels can be changed to Kim-Palmer travels I hope
I feel more depressed now than I did in the morning because its slowly creeping inside me that I have to give up this life. I am thinking I did something wrong and I am a horrible person for leaving. I got the most dearest and precious thing in my life and I don't want to lose this thing ever.
I am on my knees begging God to fix me before its too late.
I look around my house now and I see just many things left undone waiting for me to pack away and be swept away with me.
I dont want to leave Yale thinking I am doing something all for not. I pray its the right thing...all I know is there isn't a thing I would not do now. I am willing to do all.
Forever~~~
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