Disregarding Hobby

The only good things about Wednesday are Morning, Evening and my break with Christina. Its an important break because it gives me strength to get through the day.


Disregarding is becoming a lifestyle in Hyung gok dong. Disregarding is apparently what I do because I don't follow the Rules at the school. The rules are ever so in a constant state of change that the only Rule I can foresee is do things your way. Days change so fast here that yesterdays pitfalls provides for tomorrows folly's.


Today I want to mention Concepts at the School. I hold these to be Universal Concepts. School is a place for learning not for playing. Teachers are supposed to be given respect they are entitled because its our livelihood. We aren't there to be walked over by our students, we aren't a babysitter and even if the students don't like us as teachers obscene and bad text messages aren't acceptable. Why my school allows kids to say Crazy, Stupid F*** SH**, and any other word that they want to say is above me. It lacks total concept.

There is no principal system. I learned a long time ago that I can't let the kids bother me. I disregard them. I used to care about trying to solve their problems and also not making them fight with each other, or disrespect me but its a complete waste of time.

I think its just important to realize that its a job and its making me money for right now. I want to do my best everyday but I am tired of being treated like shit. I feel really bad when I am like an Island out in the middle of nowhere because no one wants to talk to me civilly. I always finish early because I am tired of talking to myself. I am ruthless when it comes to punishment because I want the kids to change.


I am naive to think that they will. They haven't for 11 months. They insulted me, Christina and Vicki on numerous occassions.
Here is a good class:
The kids only talked 20 minutes in Korean. They didn't cause any problems that would have made me notice. I don't want them to attract my boss. They don't do homework they don't have any materials ready. Its a free for all to see if I will survive or if I will get beaten down.



I am increasingly become more and more reputable for Disregarding. I have my priority and I want to see it through. Everything else is secondary and that's why I will continue to strive for my goal more and more.