My Days here in Korea wouldn't be the same without my Darling. I have a special day just knowing that I love and am Loved so much. Its truly the best feeling in the world and even though I have 6 classes i feel exuberantly vibrant and full of euphoria.
I do still get down about some things every know and then to understand you will have to see my next posting. Sometimes I am stuck in the moment and other times the moments are lost on me. I project ahead a lot which is often a problem .
Morning was best time. Our Kim Family Recipe is growing. I really enjoy building up our cookbook because its something that our customers will love someday! I can't wait to have this so much and I will definitely make sure it will become possible if I can do anything^^
Classes were ok. I had 6 classes and they weren't so bad. I had first break with Christina and we were able to relax a little bit more before the daunting 6 class triage session. I call it this because its often times a casualty report. Damage control and Assessment in order to not catch a lot of unnecessary flack later.
All I will say about this is that work often is depressing. I feel I am not teaching but simply a punisher in hopes to make the classes better. My heart is torn about a lot of things with Teaching. Classes are damage reports: Who has dropped, who will drop, Who deserves less homework because their respectful to me, or their English is good, or they are fun time. Who deserves more homework.I am living up to my notorious name: The Punisher its not what I had in mind for teaching.
I don't like how the kids pretty much spit at my feet and don't care what I have to say. Its so disrespectful. They act like Spoiled little rich kids back in America where they are only here because their parents make them. That gives them full fledged rights to disrespect Teachers and pretty much get away with this. I had a nervous breakdown about a month ago and every now and then I still get all riled up.
Today MB2 the class came 5 minutes left and totally disregarded everything I say. IT does no good to get angry or sniffle to Mr. Jeong nothing changes. All I know is that Vicki and Christina are two wonderful teachers. It makes me so mad when I see the kids treat them bad because they truly are genuine and caring people. Warm hearted individuals. This is why I am often disappointed when Christina goes the extra mile for a student only to get burned later. I want to be a better bodyguard but it appears I just make it worse if I care too much:(
After work Mr. Jeong invited me out for dinner. What's his motive? oh wait I already know and I dont want to think about it. I went with my Saving Grace to the bookstore. I wish Time wasn't so fast here. Days fly by here and its just plain amazing how fast it curtails through the wind.
Bookstore Jaunt was shortlived and I made my way back to The tent area for some quick golgi snack( meat dinner). I met this Korean guy named Kim. JUST CALL ME KIM. He is a nice guy but with how short time is, I dont think I will ever seem him again. He really wanted to hang out though and be my friend. He wasn't boung eeda either.
Who is to know...Time will tell if it was Time well spent. Onward I go looking to bridge gaps in my venture out of America which has been over 300 days now...I am a Gumi Survivor in the making ...more on the next story...
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