Major Mockery

I woke up today at nine its the first time I got up so early. I had huge plans today to work really hard and to get as much work done as possible. In the morning I cleaned up and got ready. I was able to get a lot of work done around the house and read as well.

Work
Didn't go as planned. I wanted to get ahead in some classes for next week and also try to improve my teaching but unfortunately it didn't go as planned...

TC2: No problems quick and easy. Its an OK class. Liam is one of my smartest kids. He has improved a lot since I last saw him.
Break Time5 minute break...
Tc1: The class has a few problems but basically nothing to really worry about.

BREAK Time ... problem.
Mr. Jeong is so obsessed with the Reports that he complained about the name of the textbook.
I forgot to put the correct name in the report and I don't use page numbers. I follow his lesson plan verbatim and never lose site of that. I plan as well as I can. My job is to give them a handout with review questions. I plan my homework and then ask them many questions in order to check understanding. I am still not sure about my teaching style its just impossible to know.
My boss made me feel uncomfortable and angry. He has questioned me from the moment I got here and frankly I am tired of it. Today I have officially been here for 9 months. I have never asked for a day off. I have never complained about working Saturdays...to him. I have given my best effort and sometimes my best effort has been "there is tomorrow" I have felt burnt out and somehow I keep going. I seek to improve myself each week.

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I feel like I have been mocked at by everyone. In the morning people stared at me and asked me stupid questions
Who are you?
Where are you from?
oh look foreigner
blah blah blah
like what else is new.
Lately I have had random girls come up and give me candy because they think i have a small face and am handsome. In America this would make me happy but I am not every school girls dream. I want to open up doors and explore the realm of possibilities with the people I love. Its the reason why I work.

Work made it worse. my boss's attitude towards me was of distrust and lack of belief in my teaching. I am trying so much. I made a few books, I am trying to put together a few projects and he doesnt ever take the time to walk in my shoes.

I have kids who sleep in class. who talk in Korean who disrespect me all the time. Writing their names or going to Mr. J proves nothing. Its my responsibility to control them. "I will punish them today but you need to control better" I think he is just protecting his investment. He doesnt want the kids to leave and he is too much of a coward to say that too me. Nick you are right but I need more money.

Its ok if the kids want to treat me bad in other words.


I have a lot of worry right now just because time is so short and I dont know what to do with it. I am getting desperate for finding a job. I think I will go home but I am not sure I am tempted to stay in Korea longer. I am just scared and not sure what the best thing to do would be. I need to try to do more and find a way.


After work I went to the Waegook Cook. This is the third time I went there and i didnt drank. I wanted to eat and talk to some foreigners. I met some South Africans and A Scottish guy. I stayed for a couple of hours and talked and left.

That's all in a days work

More later. I will admit I am preoccupied and wish I knew what I could do to make it stop.