Making a Mountain

My day was begun with determination to resolve and fix things that were previously broken. I had a long night were I was more or less in a trance. I felt horrible with worry and bad feelings that were not needed to be thought of. Since coming here I have developed as a person and have become a lot more serious in my life about all matters that are pertinent.

For the first time I have cares in my life. Cares are what makes us go. According to the book I am reading "The Pilgrimage" Enthusiasm is what makes life interesting. Knowing that we have the energy and interest to face each task and challenge undaunted by the fragility and fleeting beauty that entrances us gives us the courage to continue on in our "fight"

I am interested in learning more. I will post some websites that I want to check out more as time goes by..

I dont know how to say this its kind of difficult and really personal:
I have had a lot of doubt follow me in my life. Every obstacle that I went into was met with skepticism and scorn at least that's how I feel about.
I had people doubt my ability to graduate and be able to sustain myself on some sort of job. I had most people doubt I could survive Korea. Most people I knew including my best friends said I would be coming home in a body bag. I remember the last day I was in America. People said are you scared and I said No. I didnt say anything else. I wasnt scared.

I embraced the change willingly and open hearted. I didnt know what would happen but I was content with the journey that would unfold before me.
I have had people tell me you should quit and just come home. They said this after Halloween, Christmas, this month, anytime I want to come home just do it.

I thought about it but now I am in my last 3 months March is just around the corner.

After this job I am really scared and nervous to see what could happen. I think about things constantly. Why? I dont know but I do know that I have developed a strategy at work that gets the job done. Lately its brought no ill feelings. I am not mad at Mr. Jeong for treating me poorly he hasn't for awhile. In fact he is too busy to notice my problems so therefore work remains easy for me.

I am wanting to work harder and will plan on doing so somedays of the week. I am going to put in some extra hours if I can sometime and try to get more ahead. I am putting together a few books and its a painfully excruciating process. On Thursday I will have more time to put it together. I have 3 breaks that will go way to fast.

Class Report
Ma2: I had a kid attack me (playfully) but he did it too much. he is the same one who bit me and I decided I needed my boss yet again. This is the first time I asked him for help since he refused my need when I complained about the kid biting me. Its literally a zoo in the morning.

I dont know if I have any readers but to any readers back home... its literally a zoo in the morning. I hear them coming and I have to hide everything thats potentially eatable. A kid wants to bite my nose and frankly its lost its humor. I have kids hugging me sitting on my lap. Combing my hair with their hands, biting at my nose, and going through my things. I am surprised they dont take my clothes off oh wait they do that too or try. Some of the boys think its funny to sneak up behind me and grab my gochu (penis) or try to.
They also do this: http://baboshirts.com/Shirts/DdongchimTee.html


NOT FUNNY at All.
I dont enjoy the Kindergarden mornings (everyday) ITs to hard for me to control.

MB2: My cow class. They are still slow. They dont really talk to me and it bothers me. I copy word for word out of the textbook and I also use my humor, and MA level English and nothing works. I can't wait until march.
Tc2: 2 students wow. I have 5 and I think most of them will drop. I personally dont care because I have enough work to do with the other kids who are much more motivated. This class is one of the worst.
Td2: I feel bad. My best student is leaving the Academy. I feel bad because I hope every tuesday that she doesnt come. I teach one student and I have to speak a lot about words I dont even know. Its TOEFL words that only are used in some contexts. She gave me a fairwell present too. I told Christina I hope she doesnt come and 1 minute later she came. I think the Academy shouldnt have 1 student classes its a waste of teaching time.

Td1: I was in a good mood. My darling was making faces at me as I taught and I wasn't really feeling like teaching to hard. Why? I have to restructure the class and so I just had a good time. I even gave no homework... just reading homework. My boss never checks this class and its mine so I wanted to do more.


That was the day... Life at Yale Hawgwan is up and down but one thing is for sure I should try to ride the highs with the lows. I am wanting to climb mountains.

Climb Mountains is Do the Unattainable. I want to prove myself and silence the doubters. I have no idea about my next jaunt and the thought of that scares me more than teaching and living in korea.

I have a busy March planned in the Making.

I know Life/Work is going to be stressful but I want to soak up everything I can possibly do before ...