I think I got my Paw stuck in some Poo

Thank you E-Tae for the Story Idea well where to begin?


I regret saying to my Love that I want to go back to America today. Its the first time I have said this to anyone since getting here. I like everything in Korea except my job which is unfortunately most of my life. I thought it would be enriching and a chance to learn but I am sadly mistaken.
When I teach sometimes I hint about my situation and today in Md3 I said Do you think my Dreams can come true? Dreams, and come true are vocab words. Im not really sure, actually.
MC3 there was a problem. I have made 3 kids cry in that class 2 of them were misunderstandings, and one was an accident. Today, I took a pencil case away from this girl because she was talking and the class just talks like I am not even there. I have tried almost everything I could think of. Preparing to much, too little, being angry, sad, and happy. Nothing works yet. She started crying and so the class left without even saying a word. I told them I dont want this to happen again I am not here to make you feel bad but I think it will. Kids dont remember easy things like: NO BOOK in BAG until MUSIC.

I am supposed to follow Korean teacher and I am supposed to use Workbook and/or supplimentary material. Once again these were the directions I was told by my boss when I got here. I use both in class in order to compliment each other.

Today, my boss yelled at me in front of the kids. He came in and asked the kids what was homework and what had I given for homework. I dont have time to grade or check homework as closely as I would like. I felt angry because my boss humiliated me and I have been here for 7 months. Kids are nothing but business for an Academy I feel. I hate that philosphy but I think Mr. Jeongs way of insuring kids to stay in Academy is to chastice as much as possible. He doesnt always tell me directly he just broods about things and it makes working for him a pain in the ASS.
He doesnt realize that I do the best I can and that I actually stick up for him and he doesnt seem to respect my Sincerity. Meanwhile Carrie teaches 4 classes at the most a day goes to fast, complains adnosium and doesnt fill the progress reports out well at all. She hates mr. jeong but Mr. Jeong doesnt do anything about it. He doesnt have his priorities straight. AND he still owes me for MA1 class not that I will ever see that.

I am teaching Phonics I hate that because phonics are hard to teach. Everything is really too easy. Sometimes I feel like my lectures could be better suited for Adults. Anyways Today I was teaching ~aw: As in PAW, CLAW, SAW,
oo food, soup, ...pool
oo cook, book, look
au paul, etc.
One of my kids wrote the Title of this post. I think I have my hands dirty here at Yale. "The SH*T @Yale.
I asked a girl today Do you like me as Teacher and she said So so. She sat there and drew pictures. I yelled at her 3 times to write she didnt. In a place where punishment doesnt work and no kids will drop by choice of our boss there is no point in wasting energy.

I am known by many as Waegookin Sungzanim. It makes me sad and angry that no one can change how they react to me after 7 months. I am a ghost in the classroom simply to serve. The kids take it to their advantage...


Christina is home she has stomache pains. (Everyday almost it seems)She has health problems a lot. I worry constantly about her. I use that energy to get me through the day but I really dont know what I can do about it. When she hurts I am hurting because I dont know what is wrong. I want to do more for her but its impossible to know.

I cooked Spaghetti again and it was delicious and wonderful to share with my baby girl. I am hoping its really healthy for her because sometimes I am not sure. My Dream of Korea is to give her the best time possible everywhere (my home, Gumi, Busan, Seoul etc.)She is my heart and soul of this place.

Why~She stands by me through thick and thin. Through everything. She thinks I am funny even though she would never say that. I was played a fool by most if not all of my Korean friends. How: Come to Korea we will have good time I will show you around. I have hardly heard from them let alone see them. I was wanting to go home today not because of being the only foreigner, and not because of all the bullshit that has happened with work, but because I have been taken as a fool

Now here is the sad part.
When I leave in June I am not sure what will happen and all I know is that I dont want to leave my babygirl behind. Today she made me so happy in uncountable ways, but she also figured out the Toefl Test Schedule and payment.

I am hoping tomorrow is a better day we shall see. My baby is my sunshine! I will continue this post later.