Back to the Grindstone

Well after a 4 day break its time to go back to work. Its now 2008 and after my first day back at work I can't help but think of Resolutions.

I believe in working hard at everything that I do. I want to feel accomplishment and love work. I feel OTL however since its the same story just a different day.

Truthfully here is work~
I teach my 5-6 classes on average each day and unfortunately I dont really feel like I am teaching them anything. I am using dried up markers to get my lecture to them, I am checking homework to see if they did it never mind if its correct or not. If they dont do it it honestly really doesnt matter if they do it simply because they will stay in the academy. MY job is just business not about actual education.

The worst part of my job is that my girlfriend suffers the most. I want to change things so much. I would rather work harder so she doesnt have to work as hard. It doesnt seem right that I make more money and can leave sooner after each day. It also doesnt seem right that I email and she telephone teaches to kids who aren't even interested in learning English

All that telephone teaching is doing is HI this is YALE Hagwan Remember me YALE YALE YALE.
The fact that Christina and I each have a personal life doesnt matter. In my case I feel like I am a machine meant for one thing~~ a walking a talking English Doll.

I honestly want to make a situation where we can enjoy everything 24-7.

The pressures that Christina puts on her shoulders makes me feel like I can't do anything. IF someone is drowning I can toss them a lifejacket but here I only feel like I can't do anything.

In other words, I want to be more involved. As the English song at the Academy goes:

what do you do in the morning:
I get up, take a shower get dressed and go to school.

what do you do in the evening.
I go home , I do my homework, I eat dinner, I brush my teeth and I go to bed.
Around the clock for work.

My mission in Korea is to learn more about myself, and also finding ways to improve every aspect of my life Starting with the #1 thing in my life~~Truthfully speaking I do want to always be there.
there is more that I can say but for now I am going to end it with that.
Its the new year and I am looking for more possibility... time is of the essence and also going way to fast.
maybe tomorrow will be more promising.