Hopeless Expectations

I no longer care about the Academy at all.

I want to clarify something here.... I am a man of strong ideals and principles and I do want to work hard and love hard work. As my book says Study Smarter not harder thats a good motto to go by.

I was teaching Rose my smartest student in name of class only. TD1 is the highest level. She doesn't do anything. She listens well, but often looks bored out of her mind. She has no hobbies, no interests to me she is just a walking dud. She doesn't do anything~~~ I used to think of her as my best student. Maybe it was Jully.


I think this is the attitude of most of the kids though.


I hope so much that we all leave here. I don't like checking worthless homework that is garbage anyways. I don't like things being made a big deal. I do my job. I ask the kids for their homework, I tell them to come to my office to visit with me maybe I am unapproachable because I never read homework.


I think Email is a crock because there is no way to insure that the kids are getting emails. Kids are dropping because of our boss~~ his methods aren't good to them. They hate his class. We follow his policies blindly I do it because it gives me money and time with Christina.


I really hope she leaves sooner just because I can't bear the thought of her working here. Being tied to the phone, checking up on the secretary, and taking care of Crybaby's who apparently can't understand that women wear underwear of all things is totally beneath my patience and I can't understand why we continue to live this way.


I say this because I have found my second family and I know that nothing I do will ever change my feelings about that.


Work is pointless for me. I feel no reward I just get paid back for being different.


It was a wonderfully spent morning preparing for a busy day at work and a good night walk.

I remember the night walk in Seoul and think how much better life was and how much I would just stay in Korea despite not being fluent all because of the harmonious and calm feeling I get when being with C.