In This Game of Life

After studying in the library for a couple hours my girlfriend and I slowly made our way to work. I read my book while she studied for her Toefl exam. We are both keeping real busy, especially when it comes to work related things. Keeping busy is a good thing I suppose.

Its what I have always believed makes the world spin. I just hope it isn't making the world spin too fast and we are not taking the time to enjoy the scenes that we create.
Work was unfortunately bad today,~ I think I made a small blunder with my attitude. I got to work and I immediately felt bad because I allowed the kids that were already there to cloud my thoughts. I am irritated before classes when it comes to the kids. If I tell them No, or go to class they dont listen so it is just like I am teaching in the classroom in the office. I unfortunately lost all of my motivation and didnt get as much work done as I would have liked. Its a small thing though since I can get the work done tomorrow.


This week has been nice. The stress hasn't been as high as it seems to be in the office at work.

Carrie confided in me that she complained to City hall about not getting paid on time. Mr. Jeong paid us a day late. It was as always not a problem for Christina and I but it apparently upset her very much. Communication problem. She doesnt talk to him about anything so nothing changes her situation its tiresome to me to listen to both ends of the story. Her disapointment and complaining and My boss's actions or lack of them. Who cares. Carrie is leaving! Its going to be better for the Academy.

I lost faith in her when she said to one of the students that she was just normal. I actually really like Cindy a lot and felt angry at Carrie for saying such a "crazy" thing. Its a big problem to judge kids. I think a lot of them are not doing anything special but I would never tell a kid my true feelings and I would also just offer encouragement if they bothered to ever talk to me.


Class Report:
Ma1 I was watched and also questioned. I avoided getting in trouble but it was bothersome to see my boss's face in my window yet again.
MB1: Once again, my boss questioned my teaching. Pointing to his watch and saying Why are you stopping 10 minutes early. I pointed to the 4 boys as to say: Because they are treating me like Shit but he didnt even care or notice.I was so angry. I really want those kids to leave because they are not learning they are distracting. I had one kid who refuses to even follow basic directions. He doesnt care so much about English Class. He just looks at me and disrespects me with his comments. I am starting to lose my temper and I keep hoping for change Naively.

MC2: The best class I had today because of Angel. She is a good student and I can't wait until the changes happen in March.

Mc3: I finished LG4 I need to play a huge catch up to the mess that Carrie has created in Mc3.

Md3: Steady as we go. They were so boring today whatever

MD1: My book project is keeping me busy with them. I am hoping to get through lesson one in a week I need to try to get through to them harder though as they are having a lot of difficultly listening to me at times.

I can't even keep up with the changes that have happened thus far.

I know one of my kids dropped this week and I think there were a few more drops. I wish the drops would happen at the younger level because I can't control or teach them at all :(
Its a failure of mine.

After work I went to Loteria for Dinner. I got a quick burger and we talked about work, and studying. I hope my baby doesnt worry to much because its not good for her.

I am looking forward to seeing her so much tomorrow because I think it will not be a stressful day tomorrow!

Back home in America my family experienced a death in the extended family. My heart is with my family especially the ones who were especially close to Karen. ITs sometimes difficult not understanding what I can't see or not really being able to do more than what I can do. I guess that's how life goes.

I am signing off~ I hope this is the last post that feels OTL or frusteration written through out it.


Its my hope that I can limit the amount of mis understandings and try to focus on what is important. What's that? I am excited about opening door to my future.


For the time being I am keeping real busy here in Gumi.

More Later,

Nick