Pappa YALE fables: Father of all Immoral Students

I write this story on the day that I had originally been slated to be headed home for Missoula. I couldn't bear the thought of leaving and I still can't. Its something that will happen someday and all I will say about it is 2 things. I will need help later and also I want to make everything work out well before I leave.

I often times don't know what to do or when to do it. Time goes by at an extreme rate.

Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn't talk about things either just due to the technicalities that happen throughout the day.

I woke up feeling worried because of a headache last night. I have a lot of things that I should try to focus on instead of worry but my mind drifts from time to time.


Today I had a great morning. I went to PappaRoti and now Christina and I have nice tea drinking cups.

I am happy because they look really nice at work for us and they are better cups than our Mcdonalds Coffee cups. I love sharing things with my BABE so much. We have a lot of nice things at Yale.


I taught 6 classes today its the kind of day that I just want to tell every student to put a sock in it but I choose not to care anymore because its just Byoung. I am sick of being harassed by the kids. Today was awful unfortunately: I had some kids tease me about Christina which happens all to frequently. The kids here don't have the common sense to mind their own business. To me the kids have always caused me these problems.

Maybe no one understands or knows why I am becoming more forceful when it comes to kicking kids out of the office. I am tired of their complaints, harassment and poking their noses in other peoples business. Do you love Vicki Do you love Christina? What kind of questions are these for kids to ask nearly everyday?


Today a kid got stuck behind my desk. Why? Because the kids run rampant through all teachers desks, etc. They touch everything and act like its their fortitude and it gets tiresome. This kid is fat too. I feel bad for him because he truly takes pride in being called PIG.

KIDS: NO CONCEPT whatsoever. IT doesn't matter who teaches them. Christina and Vicki speak Korean to the kids they don't listen. STOP or Ha Ge Ma mean the same thing but they don't care.

I am not going to waste more time on this subject. YALE harbors ill mannered, rude, and improper kids who don't have basic humanistic concept of REALITY.

To me it isn't Korean what these kids do. These kids are the ones that ruin Christina's day and consequently mine. I have gotten so much flack from them that I turn away and endure this wild charade of what supposedly is a teacher-student relationship.


나의 머리 is a head ache and continually being rewritten. I find the 학생 좋지 않.

Today when we were eating 밥 we were talking about how my mind is being calibrated in English and 한국어 at the same time. I can read all of this that I am writing here. I was so 배고픈 오늘.

I need to practice more. Everything I do is important and most important is finding a way to make everything right. 학교는 질병이다 그러나 나는 나가 행복한 섹시하고, 귀여운 소녀가 있다^^
AN ODE
나는 나의 여자 친구를 순전히 사랑한다
당신은 혼자서 이지 않는다
당신이 나에 의하여 항상 곁에 있을 것이다
나는 당신을 아플 것을 보고 싶지 않다
당신이 아플 때 나는 아팠다
나는 결혼한다 당신과 가진 결혼식 원한다
나는 당신을 영원히 사랑할 것이다

Beyond Work

I am still in the process of trying to figure out my status in Korea. I think everything has become more resolved but now I just need to fix my own date for ending. I am not sure when that will be its something I will have to decide at a later point.


Tuesday was a typical day of classes. Nothing out of the ordinary happened. The kids were easier to deal with and my lesson plans were well. I got a few new students (hopefully a few droppers too in TD1 I doubt it though).

I think I am looking at things in all the wrong way though. I look at work as simply a means to an end and unfortunately I can't make more money regardless of whether I stay another year. I wish I could find something more. Its a pressing issue to me now.

There isn't anything that I wouldn't try to do...I am going to work harder (not here) but in a place I can find more money. I strive to make my goals happen all the time and that's why I stayed longer than what would have been tomorrow. More teaching maybe I can find a way.

I still feel anything is possible and I want to give more and do more.

I do think about beyond work because its critical for a strong future. Anyways, I go to bed tonight looking for a brighter sun because I do know that there are greener fences to cross.

Today just like all days is just another day passing. I am thinking of not writing for awhile maybe taking sometime off and trying something new I am not entirely sure. There is a lot of things that are going on I hope things slow down work is killing me right now and unfortunately I am not making anything better either. Gotta work harder

Work Tissy Fit

The second full week of June is under way. Yet again I had a nervous breakdown. Fighting Teacher Rises and falls all the time. This time it was as a result of Mr. Jeong.

I am playing in a shuffling madness sort of Academy. I have to disagree with Christina and point blankly say that anywhere other than Gumi would have to be better than here.


I have been tested in so many ways. I cried before my first class because of anxiety and fear pertaining to my departure. I can't say what I want all the time because I am literally around Koreans (kids etc) and I can't expound on my feelings when I need to-
Since coming to Korea I have underwent many transformations but the biggest one of them is my work ethic. I didn't care about work at all. I was a foolish naive kid who just wanted to partake in something for some quick cash and some "real world" experience. I am now someone who cares more about how I look, dress, how clean I am, how much money I can save, and most importantly how I can be more responsible when it comes to future planning.
I am worried about that so much because I don't think I can find a job until I go back. I am wanting to always work hard and I have plenty of reasons to want to work hard.


So today I literally floated through classes I had 3 classes before I even lifted a finger of actual teaching. Its a good thing to because I am livid with emotion and ready to explode.

June 9th just a manic Monday as they say in America but to me its much more than this. I have had kids ask me (snidely) when am I going back to America? (please go soon) I wonder if they are used to just seeing Teachers come and go and have no sense of decency like: Nick seriously thank you for not giving me more homework or thank you for helping me with my homework. That is a lie because I have already come to the conclusion that homework is a lame excuse to just show parents that yes they are doing something while we babysit. Thats why I wish I could get Christina not to care so much about the kids because there are bigger things at work than the kids' poor attitudes.

I promise I can make sure that there is something better out there. I regret my angst its not easy waiting for my boss to figure out and stop dilly dawdling with Papers.

So today the news is this:
1. I got my plane ticket canceled so now I will need to pick a new date and depart from there and 2. I need to get my criminal background check mailed to me as soon as possible.

Korea changed the rules on me. I now need a sheet of paper that say I am not guilty to work in a country where I already did all of previously.


Anyways I will tell more later but I need to rest now. BUSY BUSY BUSY

A Tamed Lion Caught in a Rolling Thunder

Today I left Busan~ I really hope that I can go back there again soon. The Time I spent there was really too fast paced. There truly isn't any other place I would rather be than in Busan with Christina.

I love that city a lot and feel like it has a lot of potential for us later. Maybe its because I work and live in Gumi but I don't care for Gumi so much. After getting back from a trip that left us tired and sleepy I went home to a Rainy afternoon to rest and have lunch.

The Thunder and Lightening were spectacular. I unfortunately was trapped in Kim Bob waiting for the break in the storm. The streets were flooded with rain and I feel Gumi is either an alluvial fan city or a place where there is always a storm brewing up of some kind.


This scare I got at work has given me quite a jolt and I am nervous to see the coming of tomorrow. I am not wanting more unpleasant news because I am already trying so hard as it is just to make ends meet. Its my true hope that I can save more money and find a job soon because I don't want to go home and have regrets of any sort.

I am a Lion playing on the Serengeti playing fields watching things pass me by. I don't like that feeling. Tomorrow is Monday and I need to be stronger I need to try to find a job sooner, I need to save more money and I need to learn lessons faster.


My mind is rattled because of my idle thoughts I am already Lost in Translation so to speak.

Its a promising week and I am not going to lose sight of what I need to do. I will try harder in the days to follow. I don't know how to fight my biggest enemy and that's Time.

BECOMING BUSANI

After going home friday night I rested and prepared for what would ultimately be an uneventful day at work.

Today was Christina's test in Daegu and I cared more about that than the trivial blunders associated with Yale.
Unfortunately for me Mr. Jeong had a way to ruin any good feeling that I had despite the fact of showing up on a Saturday scrunched between two holidays. The gall of that man is beyond me.

So I am in a world of trouble. I extended my contract (while I haven't officially signed I agreed that I would stay another month) and figured my boss would arrange my tickets back home at a later date. Unfortunately for me I was wrong on this matter and now I have more problems on my hands than I could want at this point.

Classes were peach. I didn't do much I was confounded with reality setting in and was just happy when I was able to jump train and head off to Busan.

I love Busan I think Busan and Seoul are the only two places where I really love for sure. I was happy that my darling finished her test and I think she also did well on it. I was given the bum's rush thanks to Mr. J and his need for work work work. I don't care what people say but I personally blame him a little for not being able to explore Korea more.


I had a wonderful evening around Busan spent with Christina and personally I really do wish I was a BUSANI its the only time I feel I like and appreciate Korea is when I am able to spend a lot of quality time somewhere else.

Shooting for the Stars

Today is a holiday and regardless of what I did today it was just nice to not have to deal with some kids who don't care about me at all.

I was able to spend it in the greatest possible way and that was with my Darling in Daegu. We went to Daegu and enjoyed lunch and a dinner too. WE had coffee and studied as well.


My Baby is wonderful. Her studying has greatly improved her English in the last two months and I know that deep down in my heart she has already passed the test. I am proud of her ability and her efforts and I am happy to share our dreams together because she is worth everything I have come to Korea for. Maybe this is too personal but I will just leave it at that for now.

I am a little angry because my boss in all of his greed has had to make me work Saturday despite the fact that Friday and Sunday are Holidays. Putting aside my personal opinion of him as a person I can't believe his money pinching ways and his lack of care towards the people who serve him best.

Today is a day that I was sad to see over just simply because I didn't want to leave her in Daegu. I had to come all the way home just to prepare for kids who would just as soon run rough shod over me. I don't really care they can just have a free day for all I care.

I will write more about this in the days to come but I do know that I am LUCKY because I have found happiness despite the hellish working conditions. I will do whatever I can in order to save more money and plan a better future for us its my ultimate hope...

Another Egg in the Basket

A day has unfolded in Korea and has such I write about it. I would like to start off by saying something about CONCEPT yet again.
I have mis represented my material and need to correct myself. I have found many people here to have lost a concept of Reality. The only concept that truly matters. While its true we all make our own concept and there is no right or wrong way to think there still lies a presence of mind to bear the right attitude in certain situations. Students calling teachers stupid or insulting them is beneath me. These are just a few of the underlying examples at the Academy but they are everywhere and unfortunately it seems like a lot of mis-conceptions of reality are residing in YALE.

Today I spent a lot of time worrying about things I shouldn't. All in good time. I am in the process of trying to sequester those fears and cumbersome thoughts.

Todays classes were nothing short of spoon feeding some English to kids who predominately don't care. First class, passed quickly and I was just glad to get it over with.

I taught my best class who only has a few troublesome students. I am going to have to crunch on them more this coming Saturday, its ridiculous.

TD1 is my worst class and today I railed on one student. I am sick of making extra copies because she is too lazy to remember her book. I usually have Miss Jeong do it but since I sit in the class with nothing to do because my boss has been too lazy to provide complete teaching aides and materials I have to just sit and wait with baited breathe to a bunch of Zombie like hominids who make the dead seem more approachable. So today I made my own copies and killed 5 minutes pounding the copy machine which doesn't work too well. I caught a glimpse of the secretary scuttling about performing some top level babysitting work that obviously is more important than making sure the kids can have copies of a textbook. She could track down new books instead of number crunching sometimes book-keeping and sometimes making private cell phone calls.

So TD1 angered me so much. I gave the girl more homework for sleeping in class, coming to class unprepared and just screwing with my mind. To be honest with you there are maybe 10 kids who I don't like at all. I had a soft heart and tried to be super nice to them but they have turned me into a prick. I don't take any cuff from anybody anymore. I told Vicki I would be happy if I made Justina Drop. She is a complete waste of teaching time. Maybe these are strong opinions but you would have to be in my shoes to understand how the kids have effected my teaching. I miss normal schools where kids talked to me and said hi how are you. I miss questions that I could explain instead of being drained out by my own voice when no one cares.

Yes, it may sound like I pretty much hate my job. For the most part I do. There are some perks. The top one is that I get to work side by side my girlfriend and I can help her with her fears/worries and problems. We get the mornings off. We have a bank for Coffee. We have Vicki. We have just the Teachers so we don't have to worry about the lack of concept coming from above etc. Other than working every Saturday I see this place like any other job. A little more discipline and a little more action would make this job much better. Self Concept is what hurts YALE I believe. I think I ave found a gold pot coming here though. I can forget about all the bad things each and everyone of them because I have all the riches I could want.


So another day another story tomorrow is Holiday Thank God! Keeping busy over here. I don't have water for 2 days. Its part of the Gumi revamp plan for the next 2 days. I think its the strangest thing to have happen to me since coming her but I guess we will see outcome of this.

I am EXCITED for wonderful weekend though!