Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Losing Marbles

I had 5 good classes today. It was a rainy day and I had good time with Vicki and Christina before work. Christina cooked for us and it was delicious. She is such a remarkable woman overcoming all obstacles to still do wonderful things. She is so much stronger than I am.


Classes were interesting. I didn't yell as much and I was in a chipper and happy mood where I didn't care much. A lot of the students were absent and it helped. I joked a lot and had a good time. I am learning when I need to be a tough guy and when to ease up.

So I played and had a good time in all of classes. One of the kids Nate in MD1 had a marble which he kept dropping so I told the class what Losing one's marbles meant. He is a twirp and a dippy dutz as well. He doesn't focus and have concept at all.

Losing one's marbles implies you are losing your sanity.

I don't have a problem explaining to kids punchlines when they won't understand or follow my lecture anyways.

Tonight I went out to meet Aaron. I hadn't seen him for awhile so I learned about his life in Korea. His Seoul trips, his job, his potential lawsuit, and a bunch of other things that I am needing to think of in the near future.


Tomorrow I will be very busy. I am thinking I lost a little bit of my marbles because I want to be a provider, money saver and do things smartly I am trying to prove myself and I think I just made a small blunder. I think I should be more prudent.

I wish I knew more of what to do.

Thank God tomorrow is Thursday and No FRIDAY!

TO bed I go.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Conceptual Illusions

As always a very fast paced day. I awoke to find that I was too tired to begin my day at the usual time. I need more sleep. I am someone who always tries to plan my day down to a T and not fritter away wasted time. I have developed a routine that while its not the best its better than never knowing what to do.


Today I went to the library to study I was starving for food since I mis-programmed my sleep cycle and had to recuperate under vagabond scruples and basically meaning I had to leave my house to find answers.

Work was the same old same old except it was Tuesday and that's always good.

My Opinions reader beware
I like to record interesting/weird/ or good happenings because its funny to me.

Today was level up day. Level ups are like a shuffleboard in order to change the kids English ability. I like them because they can make class changes better or in some cases worse. I was surprised when one of the kids was scared and upset to Level up.

This was following a visitation service to the office to any kid who jut felt like walking in willy nilly style and touching anything that they felt like. Looking at Christina's phone, notebooks or any invasion of her privacy rancors me and makes my blood boil.

My persona is like ice skate on me if you like but if you curdle my temper I will melt and froth at the mouth until you drown. These kids like to excel limits with me.
Today I fixed Td2. The level ups were better than I expected. I fixed the Saturdays blunder. IT was actually small potatoes or nothing important. I wanted to make the new kids feel comfortable right away.


Anyways back to Concepts. Christina and I point out lack of concepts all the time. This is something that I am trying to be conscience of all the time. My concept of reality is doing what I need to do and what is morally and ethically right for society and contingent on the time. I don't want to mess up reality or a situation because of lack of concept.

Its hurtful to see so many people with lack of care or concept.

So today other than a migraine I felt wonderful. It went a way after Christina gave me some medicine. I personally think I just needed some sugar but a pill works as well. I am not saying I am innocent of having a perfect concept I just always try to keep an open mind and approach to ALL WALKS OF LIFE.

This is my story and I am sticking to it.

After work I had a wonderful meal of Ddobokei with Christina. It was delicious and much more inviting. The concept of going out with Christina is always top notch.

WONDERFUL~~~~

Monday, June 2, 2008

CHIT CHAT OVER CHICKEN

Its now June work. Today was the first day in June of actual work at the Academy. I have seen a change in my lifestyle and my attitude has undergone many changes as well since I have gotten here. I have had to make many changes in my mind and have also overcome many odds and problems in order to reach the plateau I am now sitting at. I am in the drivers seat and its not that bad being there. I went to a dinner after work with my boss. Its probably one of the last times I will do this during this month. I think he's just too busy.
As always I had a great morning. I went to PappaRoti and had Bread and tea with Christina, our conversations are deep and intriguing and I feel that they are fluent and wonderful. Its not just me. Her English talent is phenomenal and I don't have to explain a lot and she gets all of my punch lines to jokes. She's something wonderful.

Work was alright. I didn't yell as much. Its a short week and I am feeling a little under the weather so I wanted to save myself for later this week. Besides I think I will be going to Busan soon so I don't care^^

I will say this about dinner though. I had a good time and even though many of his rules and his system is often times gee-gawd he has some good notions just some problems implementing procedures and making people feel OK at work need to be re-evaluated at times. I will also say this: even though I have stood by a lot of decisions regarding the Academy and things that he believes in. I do feel he is right with many of his beliefs. I agreed with him through the Carrie debacle, I do understand his systems pertaining to the kids and even some of his rationale. I just wish he was a little easier to approach at times.

As he said a while back I have had to chalk all misunderstandings up to Culture Difference and many times I over reacted due to the fact that I am a serious guy who cares a lot about what I do. There are still a lot of things to overcome and time will tell if it was worth it but I do know that I want to put my nose to the grindstone and try harder.


I say I am in the Drivers seat because I have been in a car watching my life flow by me just waiting for opportunity. I think I need to seriously think about what I want to see happen in my life. People say I think about the future too much but I would rather agree with my boss than be caught with my pants hanging down in the wind and be prepared for a desireable future that has been earned rather than settle for a quick escape. What is the right thing to do? Should I leave July? August? December? Should I go to School? Whats the best thing to do?

My boss things I should stay in Korea and work for him. I knew that naturally before I went out to eat with him. I am having to stand on my own two feet and think this one through. Working Saturday isn't fun. I have a way to serious attitude about the kids. Today Miss Jeong said to me more words than she has said to me since I came here: You are going out to eat with him, haha oh have fun.. she gave me a sly glance as I was walking out the door with him. ME and the Boss in America this situation would make me feel honored but here in Korea its something that apparently is odd and a rarity.

I don't judge him or Gumi anymore at all anymore. It is what it is and I am looking only on the brighter side of things. I have a sweet girl and I am bringing home the dough right now. I know the things he has done to have bothered me and I also know the probability of things happening in the future. I do know that if I stay things got to be different. I just have to find out how.

In Life there are two roads One traveled and heavily worn and the other less traveled by right now I am trying to get my feet wetter and do whatever it takes to succeed ANYTHING

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Drops of Red Wine and Sprinkles of Steak

RED WINE AND BEEF DINNER^^
June has come in with a Bang. After having a great dinner last night and spending part of the night talking to Christina and her brother in the park I slept later than I usually did. I had pondered how Days are just going by and how I wasn't entirely sure how to handle this. Its now June and other than for a few small health issues that are short term things are looking better. I was a little anxious for part of the day having bad dreams and bad thoughts but I just have a few things to say about that...

The Road of Life is filled with surprises and bumps around every corner. Keeping busy is a good way to forget about things and being occupied on anything is better than idle wanderings of a lonely heart. I am a lucky guy I truly feel this and therefore I am learning ever so slowly to put behind me the negative things. I am going to try to keep June free of negative news.


Today I had some wine with my darling. It was called D-Day and a special Vintage from France. It was a little wetter than most wines I have had and It reminded me of the few times I had wine back in Missoula. I haven't had much alcohol since coming here and this is the second bottle of wine I have had with my darling since coming here. I am certain it will not be the last. I am happy we both enjoy wine.

Drinking Wine is better than drinking Beer or Soju or anything else. In my opinion, its not as habitual. Just a personal opinion.


Its June and I have a lot of ambitions and plans to carry out. I should rephrase that me, Christina and things at Yale have a lot of things to figure out. Its called life and in my mind everything will work out. Korea has pushed me to the limits of emotional and mental growth. I have had to find ways to balance time and develop my goals much more considerably than before I had came here. Its good for me.
Every Challenge and Obstacle that we come across we can fight it together.

This week i work 5 days and I hope that Saturday I can just get off. I am not sure it will happen highly unlikely. Christina has been studying for a test. She studies hard at the Library where I write my stories, post cards or read a book. The Library is a place of Solace and a good excursion its a favorite place of mine in Gumi. Christina is dedicated, driven, smart and savvy when it comes to studying. She is a serious person. She is good at everything she does and I am beyond proud of her for her studies. Proud isn't the right word. She studies at work when she takes a listening test and listens to many tapes, she studies intravenously when we are swinging in conversation, when reading my stories and at home. While I am a distracting influence at times she pulls through and does superbly. I don't want her to worry about the test because she has passed the important test already.
In my opinion we don't need to worry I think we should just cast it aside. Just like little drops of red wine its time to focus only on whats truly important and not let anything get in our way.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Guminian Trail

So my 11th Month in Korea is drawing to a close. Its been a long month and a month of many surprises. I have decided to stay another month because I have many answers and hopes that I still have yet to answer. I am not entirely sure where to go to next or what to do but I am desperately praying and just hoping.


My life here in Korea has completed me in many ways. I came here to get a new perspective and to actually see how this part of the world works. I wanted to understand what people on the other side of the planet were like in all regards and I wanted to get away from the boring monotony that surrounded me at home. Now that I am almost done I am not sure how I feel about returning to such a life. I know I will not go back the same. I also hope that my life here in Korea wasn't for nothing I do want everything that I have come to stand up for and believe in to work out regardless of when I leave.

May started out as what would have been my last full month in Korea. It was a month that transformed me like none other.

I have witnessed people with no concept in the classroom destroy the teachers feelings and ended up making for a hectic week in the early onset of May. Its that type of attitude that has made me stand up and fight for change. How can a student so blatantly defy and disrespect a teacher. Foul language is Universal. Most language whether English, Korean or other can be translated. That is proof that we all have like mind and have similar goals albeit a little different ways to achieve them.

Its Spring and the weather is wonderful. Flowers are budding and Korea everything is in full bloom. People are carrying umbrella's around whether for the rain that comes sporadically or to use as a coolant system under the hot soon to be summer sun.

Many of my posts have talked about Yale in a Negative Spotlight. I have discussed many things that I feel are justifiably strange or a paradox of what Life and work are all about. I have come to the conclusion that everyone has their own way of looking at things, our own separate agenda's and in many ways things will stay the same. I refuse to write about weird things at work now because it is a complete waste of time (SSDD). What has happened to me during my time here in YALE is inconsequential. I did what I needed to do at that time.

I will be the first to admit that I do have some regrets about happenings and things I did or didn't do but that's yesteryear and now its time to just focus on Today or Now.

May was a month where Big decisions had to be made. I have chosen to stay until July. While I am not entirely sure about what will happen after July I do know that I will continue to strive for more and more. I got something perfect out of a messy situation. I say messy because I have had to use the word negativity to describe my workplace. I don't know why people get all bent out of shape when I mentioned bad happenings because I have heard just as many from many people as well. Its a fact that people just need to live by instead of feeling awful about things. I choose to worry about things that only I can't control.

I have dealt with a lot in the 11 months that I have been here and this month has marked no different.

Month in Review:
I worked every Saturday. Truthfully, Yale is all about the work and unfortunately I feel no value in my teaching because there is no real day to reflect on what I have done.

I had 2 wonderful weekends with Christina. WE had a nice Seoul Trip. We saw many interesting sites and I can't wait to go back there again. I truly can see myself living and working in Seoul by her side for at least a year if I found a desirable job.

I met Christina's brother. I hope to meet more of her family. I think that there is nothing that can't be overcome. I am familiar with Korean ways of thinking and I have come to lose a lot of my American ways of looking at things in order to better understand Korea. I know I can now live successfully in Korea. Whether I wanted to or not I quit being an American for a year of my life in order to try to fit in here.


At the closure of the month I just want to find something better. My life in Korea has had more to do with just finding myself in the middle of this situation. I have separated my time here in 3 parts: Korea time/Work time/MY time. There is a difference in each 3.

Now I just hope to figure out something before its too late. I look to June with nothing but full of promise. I really want to unleash all of my Dreams and make everything work.

Dreaming Effect

Today was a day full of surprises. I had coffee with the Director on the 4th Floor and had a nice chat with him. I had a conversation with two of my best friends, and I watched basketball in the morning. At Work I had a small talk with Vicki, and 4 classes of which had a varying degree of problems in them.
I don't care for the most part. I had a wonderful TC1 class even though I told them to quit fooling around with some goofy antics. pitiless as to what is to come later in the day. TC2 daily antics nothing changes. TD3 my Saturday students who are very good, and easy and lastly the most immature class I have TD2 the three girls who dropped because they couldn't handle it earlier when they were doing Reading Advantage II and decided to come back and now just play. I will not write about them here and now I am feeling bothered.

After having a horrific meltdown in classes on Saturday I went to a fine dinner cuisine with my darling. I wanted to treat her to a meal fit for Kings and Queens because when I am with her I feel like Royalty.

Work was fast and I was just glad to get it over with. I got my babysitting hours in for the Saturday.

Seeing Christina made my bad feeling go away. I would just as soon forget the insidious comments and preposterous happenings of TD2. All I will say is I feel scarred.

WE went to a Fine Mediterranean Cuisine Restaurant and had some nice platters of beef and pork.
After Dinner Christina and I met her brother again and went to Guemo San to enjoy the night and talk. Her brother did a fine job with his English. I am happy to have met him and wish I knew him better. He is probably one of the few friends I have here.

Sitting up near the mountain was a wonderful feeling and made me remember all the times I have hiked the mountain with Christina and how much more I do want to go. Its a nice place above a busy city. The mountain is a sanctuary for people to get rid of their stress.


Its also a nice place to share dreams and where I see a lot of chances to happen. I Love Korea so much because there are many nice and rewarding things. I don't want to give up anything that I have here.
My feeling on the mountain is one of perfect tranquility and calm it makes me feel so refreshed and wonderful, its the only feeling I have when I have Christina by my side.

Friday, May 30, 2008

Sites and Sounds

I'm trying a new approach to my blog writing and hope that this trend can be better in the coming month/stories.

As my Uncle said to me in a email I have become accustomed to what Korea really is like. I am not a tourist and I am not a foreigner on some escapade or wild excursion this is my Home away from Home. I have changed a great deal and will continue to do so. I don't think its coming to Korea that has changed me though, I personally feel that since graduating and needing to get some money saved has made me become more of a man with principles, drives and ambitions. What I have stumbled across here in Korea has made my missions all the more powerful and important. Before Coming here one thing I could say is that I didn't care before what was happening in the world. Now I can help change a small part of our world one community at a time.

I have gotten myself into a usual routine where my morning habits and nightly routines are more or less conglomerated into one will mesh of happenings. Each night I write a story and all the time it does read like a newspaper.

I do try to give each story its own personal slant though and develop from there.

I walk somewhere to eat for breakfast. I have decided to expand my territory and go to a place called PAPPAROTTI

This place makes wonderful Buns with butter inside. I think they are a healthy and wonderful treat. I watched Law and Order and then had myself some buns with Christina.

I walk the street from my house to where there is McDonalds and even further is the park/library. Its the best place in Hyung-gok dong. Papparoti is nestled between Mcdonalds and the park. It provides a perfect morning getaway.

Hyung gok dong seriously is a quiet place in the morning. The only people out at this time are the Da Bong Girls who ride their scooters to provide tea services. There are also a few business men trolling the streets but nothing important is happening until after Lunch around 12. This means that people usually do personal things like shop, pay bills, rest, or exercise etc in the morning.

Work Time rolls around like it always does SAME Situation Different Day (SSDD TABLOID) I have had enough though complaining in my blog about kid situations its just a job with the same kind of shenanigans and tomfoolery that any other job would have as well.

Each day Monday through Friday I get my bank coffee with Christina, and Vicki and we are literally surrounded by the sights and sounds of Korea. The kids come at precisely 2:20 and you can hear them running up the stairs leading to the Academy at full throttle. Sometimes, its a welcoming sight to talk to a few of them and other times I want them to get out of here so I can focus on my preparation or talking about personal things with Christina and Vicki.

Today I want to explore Handwriting more I think it looks fun its something I will do next week for sure. This week is relaxing and resting for a busy first week of June. I am seeing huge things coming up that I got to prepare myself for.

Today was a busy work day as is the same for every MONDAY WEDNESDAY AND FRIDAY. I had 6 classes and had sometime to finish reports etc. I went to have a private meeting about a student because I am tired of seeing the bad affects he has on me, Vicki and Christina. His troubles aren't worth teachers expense.


I may have problems with my boss, I may have problems with a lot of the kids but I have learned to see things differently too. I write this in my blog a lot because it is so important to me. I am trying to define who I am and cast away all doubt because there is nothing more important than knowing and understanding someone.
Whatever the job brings daily I am comforted that I have an amazing woman to the right of me and that we can face these challenges together. For all times sake this is my feeling. And for all of my complaining and problems I do have something wonderful and there is no other way I would rather have it...I got something good^^beyond any doubt..